Honestly, with this short notice, I've so little time to prepare. Mion said she'd bring food, but I have to prepare something in addition to what she and Rena bring.

Rena, dammit. What do I do about her? I can't very well make any real advances towards Mion or Shion with Rena around. Why would they invite her? Don't they want to be alone with me?

Or perhaps the whole point is to not be alone with me? Oh, sweet Shion, do I trouble you with my directness? Don't worry, sweetheart, no one loves you like I do. And Mion, you've nothing to worry about. There's nothing I wouldn't do for either of you.

Rena, though. You're getting to be a real pain in the ass. I'll need to do something about you.

I'm hungry. What was I doing? Before she invited me to come with her. What was I doing? My fingers are wet and I'm sweating. I think I was touching myself and thinking of Keichi. It's what I tend to do in the evening, when I can't spend time with him.

Why doesn't he have time for me anymore? I thought it meant something when he kissed me. Today he lied to me. I didn't say anything about it, but I could tell he knew I knew. Why does he want to hurt me he knows I can't stand the lying so why did he do it? Why did he lie I asked him if we could do it again and he said we would and one day we'd spend the whole day just the two of us but he's barely talked to me the past couple of days did I make him mad what could I have done why did he lie why did he lie why did he lie why did he lie

This will show her who belongs to who.

I started walking towards his house, keeping an eye out for her while I walked. There was a taste of chocolate in my mouth his mouth tasted sweet like chocolate that time too doesn't he like me? Didn't he say so when logic and proportion had fallen didn't he say he liked me?

I thought of pieces of a burnt match embedded in a candle. It was arousing.

When logic and proportion have fallen I rang the doorbell and he came to the door and said "Good evening Rena" and I could see one eye of disappointment and one eye of happiness was one eye fake and I said "Good evening Keichi" and he let me in and Mion wasn't there yet he said and I said okay can I sit down and he said Of course I put out some chips for us before dinner and I said you'll Spoil your Appetite and he said you're not my mother no I'm not mothers can't want to Fuck their sons and I do I do so Much and I sat down in his living room

I greeted her with all the happiness I could muster. I need to do something about her so she doesn't interfere with Mion and Shion and me. Why does she insist on getting in my way? It's not like I've ever given her any show of affection. Still, she's my friend. I guess.

"How are you Rena?" I asked and she said she was great and asked how I was. This isn't going anywhere fast. "Sorry we haven't hung out afterschool lately I've been kind of busy with studying" I said and she nodded a bit sadly and said she was too and for a second just a second she was lying but then she wasn't. She took a chip and bit into it. I did the same. Then we took another. You can't eat just one, you know.

"Did you bring something?" I asked and she said she did and took an assortment of sashimi out of the bag she had with her and said she made it for her dinner but she knew there was too much for just her and so she'd been hoping someone would invite her to dinner and I tried to keep a straight face and said "That's logical"

when logic and proportion have fallen sloppy, dead

I didn't lie why is He acting like I did

It's true I made it all when Mion invited me it's true True true not a lie believe me believe me Or else I'll get mad Keichi

and I could see she laughed but she was hurt and I continued "Wouldn't it have been easier to invite someone else over to eat with you"

don't make me mad Keichi i really like you Keichi why are you Doing this

and she was hurt more and I said "You're pretty silly sometimes Rena"

don't do this Keichi i could kill you Keichi i swear ill kill you to kill the logic to kill proportion

and then the doorbell rang again.

like a thief in the night

I left Rena on the couch and moved to let Mion and Shion in. When I answered the door, I saw it was Mion, the usual Mion from school. She had a couple of frozen lobster tails with her. To top off all her other excellent qualities, she knows good food.

"Hiya, Keichi!" she said when she saw me. "Rena already here?"

"Yeah," I said. "She brought food too. Though not lobster." I think Rena heard me. Maybe I should've said it louder.

kill

"So, how are you, Rena? You seemed kind of stressed earlier today."

Nice way of saying she nearly flipped out again.

what do you mean you Whore I don't know What you mean mion

"Guess it was just me. Did you like the lunch I made you, Keichi?"

"Yeah, I loved it, Mion" I winked when I said her name "it was great"

why the wink did he think i cant see it what are you doing Keichi why are you entertaining this Whore let me entertain you Keichi anything you want ill do for you logic and Proportion died you killed them i remember so whatever you want you can have ignore that Whore Keichi ill be your Whore if you want What did you make him mion

"Oh" she said "I made him some tempura but he made me do it as part of the punishment game." Clever Sonozaki! But why hide it? Who cares what Rena thinks of us? Maybe I should just start kissing her and ignore Rena totally. If that doesn't make someone leave, what would?

No, no, no need to antagonize her needlessly. She's still a friend, right? She just needs to be out of the way. But if I can't get rid of her right now, I'll just have to work around her. After all, she's still dangerous.

back before that whore came around we spent that day that day after school down at the place with treasure and we were looking for some treasure and when i asked him Keichi did you find any treasure he said i dont know yet ill keep looking and i said it has to be cute and he said in that case ive found something and i said what is it Keichi and he said its

Mion sat down and started dishing out food for everyone. Rena had a faraway look in her eyes, but honestly, that's nothing new. I sat down too and we all started talking. Talking about this and that really. And then for whatever reason Mion asked "So, what was your first kiss like, Keichi?"

and he said actually its not cute and i said its no good and he said its beautiful and i said really yes really i want to see it you cant why not

What is she thinking? Do they too wish to be alone with me and rid of Rena? This candidness is bread and butter for Mion, I know, but I am having difficulty deciphering the nature of this move. It's too bold I don't like it I'm the one in control here okay calm down, Keichi. Honestly, you're getting far too worked up over nothing. Just answer.

"My first kiss? Oh, it was okay."

A pause.

"That's it?" she asked, frowning. Oh, did you expect me to blush and stammer? Your memory fails you, Mion. It's Shion who blushes and stammers and struggles for words. "What about you, Rena?"

im getting to that you whore where was oh right why not because its you and He kissed me and that was death that was when logic and proportion had fallen sloppy dead and I froze and let him do it because I wanted him to I always had wanted him to and id always wanted him to have Him with me all the time and for Him to be inside me and know every part of me by heart that was what I wanted and then He kissed Me and I kissed Him and all I could think of was doing more with Him for Him to Him my first kiss was incredible mion nothing like youll ever have because Keichi loves me he kissed Me not you hed never love a whore like you right Keichi

"I didn't know you'd been kissed, Rena" I said. It was true too, I hadn't known. "Who was it? Anyone we'd know?"

what the fuck does that mean what is it supposed to mean why are doing this i dont understand what youre trying to prove are you trying to tell that whore something trying to tell me something giving an excuse to kiss me again why would you lie i hate it when You lie to me Keichi and what did you mean your first kiss was okay it wasnt just okay or was it with another girl i dont care about those girls Keichi i know youve probably had so many begging to be your slave like i am but theyre all gone now and if theyre not ill fix that problem yes i will theyll die did you know whore that everything can die ive tested it and it works trust me ill show you if you want ill cut your whore throat and rip your leering eyes out with my teeth if i have to just to show you what i mean it wont be the first time

That bitch "What do you mean Rena" I said and Mion just sort of stared at her what is she talking about with an open mouth "I never kissed you are you sure it wasn't a dream"

"You're such a fucking liar Keichi" she said and her eyes were different like they can get and they bored right through me what's going on here "You kissed me when we were looking for treasure one day" "You're the liar if you think that's true" I said and I saw Mion look at me in fear but why? maybe my eyes are like Rena's now "I never did that I never kissed you you must have dreamed it."

And we looked at each other and for the first time since she walked in my eyes were completely off Mion looking only at Rena and the expression on her face was a mix of sardonic glee passionate love burning fury suicidal depression. Maybe mine was similar. Then Shion got between us "Please stop, both of you! Can't we work this out another time and just be happy we're all here now? Please, Keichi?" And her face as she turned to me was so perfect it was the face that said I'll do anything you want just please please please listen to me just this once I'll do anything I promise and then when I say Anything? she'll affirm Anything. But that part wasn't spoken, it was just what I read. So I managed to calm down, and as I did so, Rena did too. Maybe it was just a misunderstanding. Well, her misunderstanding, I wouldn't just up and forget if I'd kissed a close friend. Anyway, I won! My sweet Shion is here with me now, and I don't think I'll ever want to let her go.

She keeps close to me all the evening, clearly wanting to cling to my arm and hide her face in my chest of course I wouldn't mind. She looks to me before she says anything, like she's asking permission. I just nod very very subtly, even Rena doesn't seem to notice. At one point, when we're all watching the television and the room is rather dimly lit, while Rena is focused on the screen I tangle my hand and Shion's together and even in the darkness I can see her veins become more pronounced as her heart quickens. When she looks at me she mouths the word "wait" and I can see in her eyes the fear that beautiful fear the kind that connects all humanity and the kind that binds her to me. You can't live without me, my love. And I couldn't live without you, but the former is more important to me. No matter what ghosts say and what they warn me, I'll have you all to myself, no matter what I have to do. If you're beautiful when you're afraid, I'll frighten you. If you're cute when you're in pain, I'll hurt you. If you're perfect when you appreciate the perfect silence then I'll show you that perfect silence stillness stasis.

But I'm getting ahead of myself. I love you so much.

My lovely girlfriend beta-read the first half or so of this chapter. She is in no way an inspiration for any of the characters depicted here, which in my opinion is a very good thing. Due to formatting problems, this chapter is even more confusing here than it is in Microsoft Word. I would apologize, but it achieves the same effect. There seems to be some confusion with some remarks I made earlier: I've taken a number of liberties with characters in this story, and here Mion and Shion might not necessarily be twins. Maybe they are just separate personalities. Maybe both are true.