Pay attention to me when logic why wont You look at me logic and proportion

shes a whore ignore her she fucks anything that moves im Yours Keichi no matter what use your logic find the proportion even when im dead im Yours when logic and proportion have fallen sloppy dead

Pay Attention To Me

its time for games the whore says well play cards we agree and Keichi sits next to me usually i want Him across from me so i can see Him and He can see me but i guess this time its okay we play the game and we play it well, we play ten rounds of old maid and by the end we each win two rounds and lost two rounds so its a perfect tie and the last match decides

do i want to win or do i want to lose lose to Keichi but no one else but if He loses and i win i get Him to do anything i want but if i lose and he wins what will he do to me

i want him to spend more time with me thats all i want Him to know i dont care about logic i dont care about proportion i just want Him to love me the way i love Him i want Him to know i dont care even if He hurt me the scars would be beautiful artwork given to me by my Love He could write His name on every inch of me and i wouldnt mind maybe if He loses thats what ill have Him do

"Okay, so who's ready for the club activities?" Mion said, shuffling our usual deck of cards and wearing a sly grin. I gave her a thumbs-up and we all sat around the table. Rika and Mion sat at my sides. Aside from the obvious bonus of having Mion near me, I might be able to peek at Rika's hand, since she doesn't hide her cards too well.

And what will I do if I win? Ah, well, that all depends on me winning, doesn't it? And, naturally, who loses. As it happens, a tiebreaking game is necessary. Whoever wins and loses this last one is all set. Still not sure what I want to do to Mion, should she slip up and lose. Maybe I'll just force her to invite me to dinner at her place. But then, that tight swimsuit is always a great option. Oh what to do what to do.

Rena says something, which reminds me of what she had said a few nights ago, when she was at my house. It's ridiculous, of course, why would I kiss her? But then, why would she think that I had? It's not as though she's unattractive, but I it's not like I met her before Mion I've loved her ever since I laid eyes on her so why did Rena lie? Does she love me? Oh I'm sorry to disappoint her but I'm just very particular. Besides I can tell Mion and Shion about things Rena wouldn't know anything about. Oh the game. Oh my.

I win

I win and He loses

and now He belongs to Me just for a bit what should I do what should He do logic is going to die Im going to kill it and Keichi will be Mine because logic said He cant be but dont worry Keichi I took care of it and You helped remember We killed logic Youre my thginK etihW Ill be Your Red Queen I win and Keichi loses

I guess so He says and He smiles at Me and I know I can do anything now I could rule the world I could swim around the country I could kill someone just because He smiled at Me and says What should I do Rena and the way My name sounds coming off His lips the way His lips move the way His tongue moves I could admire it for hours but He wants an answer You have to help Me with a drawing at my house

i didnt know you drew things Rena says the loud little one and I smiled and say Yes I love to draw but I dont like showing people but I need help now and Keichi has to help me she says i wonder why only Keichi can help and I say because Im drawing a surprise that only Keichi can know about

whats the surprise Rena my love asks and I just smile and say Youll see

We all walk home Me Keichi shion did you think I didnt know shion I know its her but shes pretending to be mion dont know why she does not logical logic logic is dead makes sense now look the same look the same dont act the same mion is fun but shes a whore and wants to steal my Keichi shion knows Keichi belongs to me but they both want Him I know they do but only I can have Him even if He fucked them I wouldnt care now because His heart will be Mine and once I have His heart Ill have his body and then We could let mion and shion watch and it wouldnt matter because Hed look only at Me and Id look only at Him because I love Him but if they touched Him Id hurt them theyre friends I wouldnt kill them I think but theyd have to know who was Keichis lover

shion tells us not to stay up too late shes acting like mion its pathetic like she could fool anyone and then its just Us walking over towards Our houses but Were going to My house My dads not home Keichi thats good news Rena why I ask just to lead Him on because then We can do things We wouldnt be able to do with him around and He finds My hand at His side and grasps it and all I can think of is how wonderful it feels to be walking home with Him almost like we were married over a card game maybe I can get Him to agree to that next time because after this I know Hell want to come over every day to be with Me and I wont wait for Him in the mornings because Hell wake up with me though We might be late since We might stay up pretty late into the night

so what sort of drawing is it He asks and I tell him I actually havent started it yet I cant do it without you is it a drawing of Me He asks no not of You You need to draw it and Hes confused and I laugh and say dont worry Youll see and I open My door and Were in My house and I turn on some lights and call out Dad just to be sure and theres no reply and I saw follow Me and I lead Keichi to My room

My room is dark because the sun has almost set and the only window faces away from the sun so theres no light so I turn the lights on and turn to Him and say to sit on the bed and close His eyes Rena whats this all about He asks it almost seems like Well be doing something naughty and I laugh and He laughs and He sits on my bed and closes His eyes like I asked and I make sure His eyes are closed and I take off my clothes all of them even my socks and then I sit on His lap and say keep Your eyes closed and He isnt even startled He must have known what I would do Hes so smart and He runs His hands up my side and says I like this punishment so far and I said touch me Keichi and he does He touches me almost everywhere and after a few minutes I tell Him to stop and open His eyes I stand up and face Him and I can see He wants me but first I need Him to do this I want You to draw on Me

so He asks what He can use and I say anything and He says wait and I wait and He leaves and He comes back and I see that He has Keichi do You really mean yes Rena a marker or paint will wash away but this wont and I see Hes right and I say Youre right Keichi I want to remember this forever and He says turn around so I can start on Your back

I turn around and I can feel the knife on My bare skin and its cold and it hurts but I tell Myself that it doesnt hurt because Keichis giving Me something that will never go away and then it doesnt hurt anymore and I feel wonderful and I say what are You giving Me Keichi and He says Im making You a beautiful picture all over Your body even though no picture could be as perfect as You and I smile so widely at him because I love to hear Him say things like that

when I lower My head to the floor I can already see where My blood is dripping down and making a little pool and I say can You put something on the cuts and He apologizes and goes to get something and He puts it on the cuts and it burns and I cry out and He asks Me if Im okay and I say yes and He says dont worry theyre not deep and I know it hurts but Youll be fine and when its done Youll have Your picture and I relax and I let the knife pass through My skin and I concentrate on the feeling of Keichis fingers and hands on My back His hands are so warm and I feel like Im in paradise if I died here that would be fine if I died now that would be perfect if I died if I died if

when I wake up Im alone

the lights are off and Im lying on my bed on my back theres a towel between me and the sheets as I get up I see its stained deep red Im still naked wheres Keichi where did He go I see a note by my pillow I grab it and read it and I tremble and it says He had to go home because His parents called and He knew Id be okay so He was so sorry to go but He wants to do it again soon and He signs it and Im so sad that Hes gone but as long as He wants to do more with Me Im happy I stand up and walk the bathroom Im a little bit dizzy but after I steady myself against a wall Im okay and I go to the bathroom and I pick up a mirror and I use that mirror and then one on the wall to see whats on my back its a picture of a person writing something down in a book and the writing in the book says

I have such wonderful friends, but more importantly, the girl who I thought was my friend is more than that. She is the one girl I want to spend the rest of my life with. She is perfect in every way. Her smile is like a sunrise, and her voice is the opposite of the mourning higurashi. I want to be with you forever, my darling

my darling

my darling who

i realize no matter what i do to myself the name is written on the small of my back and i cant see it cant see it cant see it its my name right my name right Keichi You wrote my name didnt You didnt You You wouldnt didnt You realize i wouldnt be able to see it maybe He just didnt realize and it was a mistake or maybe Hes going to write more next time thats it right Keichi i love You Keichi You wouldnt hurt me would You would You

What an enjoyable day! And here I thought I was going to be bored with Rena! It's been a long time, such a long time since I did that. I had no idea she was so broken inside. Maybe I'm missing the forest for the trees here. Why not conquer Rena as well as Mion and Shion? Maybe I'm getting ahead of myself, getting overconfident.

I'm still trembling with joy. I'd never done that before. Not with a knife. Not with a knife. And not with someone who suggested it. Ha ha. Ha ha ha ha. Memories. Why did I do it? I remember. And a wide grin takes over my face. Before I met them I was still me. I always have been.