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"Uhh. Hey." I was so scared but at the same time I was thinking 'this could be it, this could be my chance to run away to get away forever'. Just to play this soon-to-be-fight to my advantage.

"Where have you been?" Jamie asked in a less than suttle tone.

"Alice's house." I answered 'Straight answers till he gives you a chance to yell and run for it. Just don't lose your temper; you know what happens when you do that.'

"Do you have any idea how worried we have been?"

"No, sorry." 'His not going to give me a chance to yell and run. Or maybe he will'

"Sorry is not good enough Lilly!"

Ok heres my chance. Now, this can play out one of two ways. I can either chuck a fit and run, oh wait, that was my only option. Ok here we go……

"Nothings good enough for you is it!? You adopted me because I look Perfect, didn't you!? You really never took the change to get to know me, you only thought I would be good to show off to your friends! Well guess what. I'm not perfect there is a lot about me that you don't know and never will. You never cared for me did you!?"

"Lilly. I never knew you felt that way."

"Well now you do and I'm going. And there's nothing you can do about it I'm 14 and have been fending for myself for the past 200 years!" Oh shit. What have I done?

"No, Lilly don't g-...200 years?"

"Its none of your business, I told you, you don't know anything about me. So Rack off OK!"

I thought that was it. I saw Shay crying in the corner for this I felt really bad. I tried not to let my hostile temper get the better of me.

"No, Lilly. I want answers!" And that was the last thing I heard him say.

He came up and put his hand on my shoulder. This was the last act I felt him do. I put my hand on top of his showing fake affection. In a millisecond I had flipped him over my shoulder and he was winded laying flat on the ground. Shay was looking at me terrified of what might happen to her. I couldn't let her go with a full memory of what I just did. My only choice was to hurt her too. My mother of such a short time and I had to hurt her. Finally while she was still frozen with shock I walked up to her.

"I'm so sorry." Were my last words to her.

"It's OK." Crap why did she have to be like this? So forgiving.

In the same time span I had Jamie on the floor I had punched Shay in the nose. Her blood on my fist. I was too late to run, too late to hide. If I could have been crying I would have been. I knelt beside her and grabbed her wrist. I couldn't do anything now; I had let the vampire get the better of me. I was sucking the life right out of her. I would never forgive myself for this.

I was been surprising compromised when I walked over to Jamie to finish him off. I was more for this act. I shouldn't have been thou. Once I had sucked the life out of him I had to do something so no one would know what I had done. So I thought them over my shoulder and ran. Dug a big hole and threw them in. I sat at there grave for a long time. Sobbing out my feelings of what I had just done. "Why? Why did I just do that?" I kept asking myself. I never meant to do it.

When I was walking back to the empty house it struck me like lightning that Alice saw that. All of it, before I had even committed the act. I had to run. Far away, no one would remember me. I went up stairs to pack my bags. Then I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror. My eyes were ruby red. I was ashamed. I was already missing my clean life style of only eating animals. It would take ages to get back the way I was.

There was only one place I could go, and I really didn't want to go there at the moment. I was afraid I would be judged. My act of vampirism was not acceptable to join that family. My act of revenge that I took out on people I loved dearly was not ok. Alice had more than likely told the rest of the family now. She would have saw my decision to kill them, saw me drink the dry, see me see myself in the mirror, see my make this decision to run. Before I even decided it myself.

Bella would be gone, not to return till I got myself back again and I wouldn't know how long that will take could be months, years, decades. I had already caused too much chaos and trouble at there house to turn around and wimp out now. No. Lilly 'Cullen' was stronger than that. I would walk right up to that door, knowing they will be waiting, look them in the eye and show them what I had done. I know they will be upset and angry. I had done what I did, no turning back.

I ran to there house gathering up the courage to face them. I was just about to knock on the door when Alice opened it and hugged me so tight. All the courage I had built up just fell from me and I started sobbing without tears on her shoulder. I knew everything would be OK. Because I felt at home here, I felt safe like nothing could go wrong. With my new family here I was happy.

"It's OK, Lilly. Everything's OK." Alice was reassuring me of what I had just come to realise.

I just nodded. I smelt Carlisle Coming down the stairs and standing behind Alice. He would with no doubt be the most interested or most disgusted with what I had done.

"You're safe now. Your part of the family now." Carlisle told me.

I looked up into his eyes so he could see that it was true. All he did was nod and I looked down again.

"The adoption agency just called your house. There coming tomorrow." Alice said. "What are we going to do?"

"We have a family meeting. And Tanya's coming tomorrow. Come on Lilly, We have some work to do!" Carlisle answered. "We have to stage child abuse."

"What?" I asked.

"We have to make it look like they hurt you. Bad." Alice answered me.

We walked to the kitchen every one was looking at me.

Envious.

"Just a Cullen and already stuffed it up." Rosalie said in a sour tone.

"I-I-I………" I was trying to speak and clear my name. I knew that could not be done.

Lol bet you never capable Lilly capable of doing that!

Well anyways OVER 1000 WORDS YAY IM SOOOO HAPPY

Oh yea and I had a shit day today that's probly the reason why is so gruesome and sad. Hope you liked it : )