Ten reasons why you cannot possibly be here:
1. -You-
1. -Because-
1. -The reason is-
1.- It's-
1. -You can't because-
1. Why?
The list is there. She said that lists would help get my thoughts in order. And I know I need to, because I keep looking for you in the darkness, even though you aren't there. But if you aren't there, why do I keep hearing you? Why do you call, circling around me until I lose all sense of direction, and fall, sobbing to the floor? You cannot call if you are not there. You cannot torment me if you do not exist. And never can you call those words from my lips, the ones that are truth.
But it can't be. Because you can't be here, can you? It's just not possible.
But I can't help thinking…
So I write a list.
And all I can come up with is the very last Onedotperiodspace, and that's not part of a list because it's a question.
I draw a big, red X through it, and crumple it up.
Then I walk into the bathroom, and run water over the paper until it dissolves and runs, liquid through the drain.
No one will find it.
But…
Does that mean you can't answer?
Short again. I know… but at least it's quick? Anyway, Max is just thinking over some stuff. The story's not all like this, but it is rather similar. By the way, the list orrigionaly had crosses through some of the text (the ones marked -like this- , but Fanfiction can't support it, so...yeah.
Rising Pheonix: Thank you! I'm glad you can feel sorry for Max…I was hoping that I was actually able to do that! (Make someone care about a character, even only enough for them to feel sorry.)
Tigerrilly: Thank you! By the way, don't get your hopes up too much about that comment…there's not too much built up on it. But there is some Kai/Max (NON-YAOI!) interaction later on… Freindshippiness, nothing stronger.