Dear Journal entry.
Fandom: CSI Miami
Character: Timothy 'Speed' Speedle.
Author: Aiden
Rating: FRT 13
Warning: disability (blindness)
Beta: SRS/ Silvia. *hugs* Thanks a bunches.
Summary: Speed tries to describe one Horatio Caine.
Author's note: In this AU, H is still with CSI, but Speed is blind due
to congenital glaucoma and owns several nightclubs in Miami. This was
supposed to be just one story *headdesk* but when I started to write
my brain went haywire, so there will be more.

I sit here behind the computer contemplating how I should describe
Horatio Caine. You see, I've never laid eyes on him. I hear his voice
every day, and when he talks to me, I can tell by his tone what kind
of mood he's in.

I touch him every day, my fingers have roamed every inch of his body.
I can tell when he is tense or happy, determent or stubborn.

But I've never actually seen him with my own eyes. You see, I'm
blind. I was born blind, doctors call it congenital glaucoma and there
is nothing they could do about it.

It's never stopped me though. I was determined to make something of
myself. Now I own a string of nightclubs and have found my love, my
soul mate.

I see him with my fingers; he loves it when I explore his face with my
sensitive fingers. I never thought I would find someone like him.
Most of the guys I dated just wanted the experience of doing it with a
blind guy. Go figure.

The first time I told him about what I did for a living, he was
surprised but then he said, 'I shouldn't be surprised, you could
probably drive a car if you set your mind to it'. Never found out if I
could though.

His team is great; I love Alexx, and Calleigh has a devious mind. I'm
not sure about Eric though. I feel his hesitation every time we meet.
H says to give him time, that he'll come around eventually.

So like I was saying, how to describe Horatio Caine; a man passionate
about his work, caring, giving a voice to those who no longer can
speak up for themselves. He loves children, he adores them. It always
hits him hard when he gets cases where a child is abused - or worse -
murdered.

He wants to be in control no matter what the situation is. It took me
a while to make him let go when we made love. He was afraid he would
hurt me if he lost control of his body. But now he knows better - and
the way he makes me feel when he lets go - is amazing.

I love him with my body and soul. I see him with my heart.

THE END.