SCENARIO 4:
Why can't Ponyboy ever do what he supposed to!? Every single day I have to yell at him for something new. Doesn't he get that I'm doing everything I can to make sure he gets a good education? Its not that I wanna yell at the kid, it's just… I want him to get a good education and do something with it. I want him to do something with his life, unlike me. Where I had to stay here and help him and Soda. I really don't regret not leaving, 'cause I still could just pack up and leave. But I wont, I love Soda and Pony too much to do that to them.
Soda had a lot goin' for him till he just dropped outta school. He claims he's dumb but he ain't. Sometimes I think Soda maybe smarter than Pony. He's got more brains then he thinks I'd give anything for Soda to go back to school and finish school. Then both my brothers could, do what I couldn't.
Ponyboy's smart in all, but most of the time he's day dreaming. It's from all those dang books, and movies I tell ya. Sure I enjoy a good book and movie from time to time, but he just makes his mind revolve around them. That's why his common sense is really bad. But it didn't always used to be like that; it seems that since mom and dad died he's been burying himself more and more into books. Can't blame him much though, if I didn't have a job to do I'd be writing. I always wanted to write, but I had football, then mom and dad died and I had to take over the family.
Life would be a lot easier if we still had mom and dad. I could still play football, maybe I even write. Show Sodapop and Ponyboy how to do more things. Dad always made things easier for me, always helped Pony focus, and he encouraged Soda to stay in school. And mom boy was she wonderful. So beautiful, loving, caring never let us out late. Always taking care of us, I miss that instead of me being the one to take care of everything. She could get us to do anything for her. It was just part of her charm, I guess.
If only Sodapop knew how much I'd rather him go to school, then work. He only thinks he's dumb 'cause he has a hard time focusing. It's not like he can't do it, now he just won't do it. And Ponyboy… all I want for him is to stay in school, finish school and get away from here. Find somewhere nice to live, were there aren't Greasers or Socs just people.
Speaking of work, I hate it. I mean I'll put up with it for Soda and Pony, but if I had a choice I would quit and write a book. I'm not sure what I'd write about maybe about the pressures, I have and about the car crash. Maybe a little about how it feels to be a teen parent, 'cause that's how I feel most of the time. Soda and Pony act like their both ten most of the time. Don't get me started on the rest of the gang Two-bit, Steve, Johnny, and Dally. But Dally doesn't count he can take care of himself. He's been to the slammer enough, his whole life it seems like he has been on the run. Not knowing where to go, sounds like my life kinda. I don't know where or what I'm gonna do when Pony finishes school, if he leaves I can guarantee Soda will go with him. Their inseparable, maybe us three will leave. Move somewhere, that doesn't have Socs and Greasers, west side and east side. Just one side.