December 14
Wally,
This isn't about you. It's me... I'm the one with the problem. I'm sorry to have caused all this pain for you. I thought it was for the best, but it seems to be doing less good and more damage. I'll explain everything...
I work a lot, even back when I was in high school. It effects everyone around me, even my friends. Relationship with boys never lasted too long. I was usually focused on studying and the like in order to pass my classes. The breakups were usually bitter and sombre, that we both ached when it was over. In the end we both hurt deeply. Not a thing changed while I progressed into my career, which I'm not too proud of.
I had a wonderful time that night, Wally, I really did! But when we kissed... I realized that I was drawing too close to you. If I drew too close to you... then I would hurt you. I don't want to do something that I regret, Wally... You don't deserve any harm from me.
Look, it's almost Christmas... We shouldn't get angry over such little things. Again, I'm sorry for the trouble that I cost you. I love you, Wally... I truly do. I just wish that I did things differently...
Eleanor