Title: A Desire for his Emotions
A Death Note Doujinshi Oneshot
Part: 2: "Sleeping Beauty"
Pairing: Mello x Near, MxM
Disclaimer: In no way will I ever be able to own Death Note or Death Note's content. If I did, it would be baked in the oven with yaoi goodness.
Warning: This fanfic is rated M for mature audiences.
Yaoi is coming ahead, meaning guys with guys. If you do not want to read about
male x male relationships, read no further!I cannot stress this fact enough.

I shall have you know, once again, that this is in fact, yaoi.

Now here's my first yaoi oneshot for those who have read the above and are still here!
^o^

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"Sleeping Beauty"

Wammy's House; 6:53 PM
Mello's POV

When I awoke I didn't open my eyes immediately just as I would any other day, it was too soft and warm here to give it up. Also, if I had opened my eyes and Near's blank face appeared again everything would disappear into this hell hole called reality.

So instead I wiggled to get comfortable again and tried to fall back asleep but then a softer, warmer, touch sent my eyes flying open wide with surprise rather than comfort. This touch wasn't the nice trance of sleep that I wished for, just that god damn Near.

"Mello?" the small Near asked as if he didn't do anything strange at all while curling his hair and using his voice to speak in such a monotone I could've smacked him right then and there, but then another idea came to mind, 'This is my chance!" I thought with excitement far beyond the joy of snow.

A smile crept across my lips in utter contentment with these new thoughts, ideas, designs, passing through my head like wildfire caught within a dry forest. All these thoughts were somehow similar to how Matt always 'played' with me in our little game although Near was much more of a sweet saint than I was as a virgin, like the sleeping beauty in story books, the foolish, innocent, beautiful- ah, fuck it.

"Sleeping beauty spoke," I teased with a sick humor that didn't even seem to phase him, "and with a twist!" I chuckled, but still no reaction out of Near, so I continued, pressing for some kind of emotion in this adolescent, albino freak. "Turns out this one likes to assault others when they're sleeping." I let out a nervous laugh and tried to sit up to go, but was forced right back down, by Near!

His weightless frame rolled over right on top of me, his genitals laying right on top of mine! His soft, pale lips came down slowly until they met with mine again gently, but I couldn't take it. My emotions were never under control and I couldn't seem to stop my hands from gripping at his hips, pulling him down so our bodies didn't have even the smallest gap in between. I blame my teenage hormones.

He was as light and smooth as a feather, just like a fair petite young girl about our age, maybe younger than us, and strangely enough, this felt so right! Then Matt came to mind, his laugh, his smile, his expressions, his kiss... then lastly, his voice.

"If I do go outside in the snow with you, what will you do for me?"

Guilt sunk in with his voice running in my head, repeating over and over. Matt would definitely wait all night for me, but I couldn't stop these feeling I felt. His face kept entering my head and I tried blocking it out by using the Near who was right on top of me.

I softly licked the bottom of his lips to allow my tongue to slide into his mouth. Our tongues touched and flourished in a way that sent a blush across my cheeks and thoughts of Matt right out the window. I didn't even really recognize that this was Near because of though until I heard a scared mew. 'Near can actually feel fear?'

Usually I fed on his pain and suffering but I couldn't take hearing his helpless whines. I grabbed his hand and held it in mine for a second, fascinated by its smallness, then moved his hand into my hair. Like I see him do everyday, I moved his fingers with my own into a twirling motion thinking it would help for him to relax.

He seemed to be doing a little better after a while, but then his body heat increased against my own hot body. I could hear his warm pants that escaped between our lips. Then he pulled back and I allowed his freedom with a little understanding of what he was feeling, I felt the same before with Matt.

Just like I had been once upon a time, Near was confused. "M-Mello…" His voice nearly made me lose all control, I could've either cried or killed right at then and there, but instead I gripped tight to what was left of my sanity.

Near took my hand and placed it over his rapidly thumping heart to try and show what was happening to him. "I don- I don't understand." said Near with the most scared look on his face I had ever seen, but it wasn't as bad as his whines he released before.

I could've teased him, messed with his head, and destroyed him, but I knew what it was like to be scared of the unknown. Who but the old Near wasn't scared at times? So instead of breaking him into tiny little shards of humanity's cruelty, I smiled just as I would only with Matt. Then I took his hand and placed it over my own heart beat to show he wasn't the only one.

His expression didn't seem to understand so I confirmed what he might have perceived already. "I do." Then I rolled him over as carefully and gentle as I could so now I laid over his small, breakable form of an adolescent. I unbuttoned his oversized shirt with care with kisses on his lips.

The first button was closest to his neck and not surprisngly the hardest to undo, the second was easier, and so was the one after that. By the time I reached the last button I pulled back to see his lovely face. His expression was so cute that I kissed his lips, jaw, neck, and chest without even thinking and continued to move down all the way to his stomach.

"Nnn…" moaned the innocent boy I placed kisses on with my own vulgarity that he probably never knew about until this night. "M- Mello?" His voice was like fire to my ears, burning them but ever so sweet.

I traced my tongue around his naval and playfully made a suggestive in and out motion with my tongue when it entered his belly button.

Instantly he arched his back, bumping my chin, and cried out with an "Ahh...!" 'And I wasn't even getting to the good part yet!' I thought to myself as I held on to his hips to keep them down along with his back. As I continued to tease his aroused body he reached out to my hand and placed it down his pants to his penis.

I didn't even bother to hide my shock, that wasn't my style anyway. "N- Near?" I asked as I looked up to him with a little concern since I wasn't sure if he was ready yet. "Are you sure?" I asked to confirm whether or not to take this little experiment further.

He released my hand from his grip and nodded slowly before he replied with a plea. "P- Please, M- Mello?"

I couldn't suppress my hormones raging in my chest and quickly tore down his pants to his ankles then off onto the floor next to the bed. His erection was thick and more beautiful than I had thought it would be. It wiggled a little at my touch when I stroked it slowly up and down. Even my own hand motion on his member caused my own erection to grow a little more.

Unexpectedly, Near reached down my pants and started to run his hand along my penis which made me stiffen a little more again. My own member flinched at his touch and decided to give him something he would really enjoy.

I brought my lips down to Near's shaking erection and kissed the top gently where pre-cum came out little by little which made him gasp a little before I licked down his member to his sack. Then I moved back up to the tip and opened my mouth to engulf his whole erection. I made an up and down motion as I had done before but instead with my mouth this time. Near seemed to learn from my movements because then he too, was pumping my member with his hand.

Both Near and I began to pant harder and harder as we sped up the pace with our movements.

Before I let out my own burst of little Mello's, Near let out his with several shaky moans that escaped his mouth, in contrary to his sperm that shot into my mouth that I then swallowed. Then I fell to his side on the bed and went under the covers to cuddle with my new little one night stand.

His viriginity was now mine and no one else would be able to take it away. Although I had thought in the beginning if I had stolen his viriginity he would no longer be pure, I was wrong. His sleeping face was just like the sleeping beauty in story books, the foolish, innocent, beautiful... a person purer than any snow fall; someone that I had always dreamed of.

Now he was all mine, but sadly, I couldn't stay, Matt was waiting.

So once the little sleeping beauty fell softly asleep in my arms I slid away, minding his arms. It would be too much trouble to lull him back to sleep if he was to awake suddenly. I walked a little away from the bed to get my pants and tug them on. Then I took Near's smooth pajama bottoms and dressed him, trying not to wake him up as I did so, which was extremely difficult.

Before I left the room I kissed his cheek gently and quietly whispered, "Sweet dreams." Then I went over to the door and slowly closed it behind me. I passed by the nurse with a nod and went out into the dark hallway to see my Matt in-waiting.

Never had I really thought about how dark it was in the hallways at night, well, there is light, just not enough from the little night-lights down at the bottom of the walls. 'Maybe I should try to get Roger to place actual lights in the halls, but Wammy's probably doesn't have them because it would be to expensive to have a few in every hallway. Oh, well... '

I noticed a few other orphans rushing to get to their rooms as I walked by more and more doors throughout the hall. Then finally I ended my journey at Matt and I's bedroom door.

I knocked first to make sure he was in there. "Matt?" I asked to the door. "Are you in there?"

There was a long silence before I almost left. "No..." muttered a sad boy's voice from inside. "There's no Matt in Mello's busy life." his sulking tone made me feel even more guilty than I was.

"Sorry..." I whispered as I placed my hand on the wood of the door. After what seemed like ages I sighed and asked a final question. "Can I come in?" I asked.

There was no response in the first few seconds I waited. "It's your room too." answer he.

So I placed my hand that was on the door to its knob and turned as I pushed it open then closed it softly behind me but I didn't walk in all the way into our room.

Above on the top bunk was a frowning Matt with his Gameboy in hand. He was still in his day clothes but his hair was wet which suggested that he had already taken a shower.

"Matt?"

He didn't look down to where I stood. "What?" he irritatingly asked. Usually I would have hit him for such a tone, but I deserved it this time.

"Can I come up?" I put my hands in my pocket and looked down at the floor in shame. "I can still make it up to you." I added in.

Then he looked down at me with a raised eyebrow. "Really..." he didn't show any sign of being pissed, so I guessed I had what he wanted and looked up back at him. "And how are you going to do that?" he asked with a smile before turning back to his Gameboy.

I smiled wickedly and made my way up to his bunk. "Anyway you want me to." I replied.

He didn't look at me at all as I crawled over the ladder attached to the bunk and snuggled on top of his body. I kissed his neck softly and ran my finger down his cheek bone.

He seemed to smile a little more, but then a frown caught on his expression followed by wide eyes. "Y- You didn't!" he exclaimed. "W- WHY!?" He pushed me off and huddled away from me.

"Matt, what are you-"

"YOUR HAIR!" He screamed.

I froze and my eyes widened to match his. 'Was there really something about my hair he noticed that hinted at Near's touch?' I wondered and took a look in the mirror on the wall to the side of the bunk bed where our dresser and closet was. Hidden between my regular blond, straight hair that curved inwards at the tips was a small strand that was just as curly as Near's, which was actually probably caused by him, but how would Matt come to that conclusion?

"WHAT WERE YOU DOING WITH NEAR?!" Matt yelled at me accusingly, not even thinking rationally or letting me explain 'what happened.'

I sighed and regained my cool then looked back into his shocked eyes. "Just because I have one curl doesn't mean anything." Then I shook my head and tried scooting a little closer, but he only went further away. "How the hell did you come up with that shit?" I accused with narrowed eyes.

He glared right back at me, not dropping what he believed was to be true -and was! "You know exactly, Mello. Don't act stupid."

"I'm not stupid, stupid. You're the one who thinks I was with Near! Near, of all people! I would never in a million years be with that fucking asshole." I cursed, still keeping up my lie.

Matt stared back again with searching eyes, probably to try and find a break in my facade, but the gave up with a sigh and sat back with his eyes closed. "Fine, I believe you." he muttered then looked back at me. "But I don't want you touching me right now, okay?"

I nodded and climbed down the ladder with a smirk that he couldn't see from where he sat. "Good night, Matt."

"Yeah... 'night, Mello."

Then I walked over to my bunk and heard him as he turned down the volume on his game and went underneath his covers. I had escaped from being caught for now, but I thought better than to rush back to Near since Matt still suspects me. 'So after some time goes by I'll go meet up with Near again for another session...' I promised myself as I crawled into bed.

After hours passed by, I heard Matt click his keys on the game and then turn it off, so I closed my eyes just in case he might come down, which he did. Matt went down the ladder from his bunk to turn off the light. Then he stopped for a while before walking back in the ladder's direction, or at least I thought he was going to go back to the ladder, but his presence felt closer to my bunk than the ladder.

"Mello..." I heard him whisper. "I- I love you..." his voice was serene, and I did my best not to startle at his words so I didn't break my cover. "I just can't get up the courage to tell you, but someday, someday, Mello, I'll confess to you so you can hear." I heard him gulp then felt his lips down on my lips. He didn't force anything or say another word and walked back to the ladder and climbed into his bunk.

I laid in my blankets quietly, not even daring to move the most smallest inch, until I heard his soft snores from above. I breathed a sigh of relief and opened my eyes to the darkness so I could think better.

'Matt's in the love with me?' I questioned inside my thoughts. 'Since when?! Did Matt think that all those intimate actions were real? I thought he knew it was just to relieve sexual frustration... not love! Hell no! Mihael Keehl does NOT fall in love with anyone!' I shut my eyes tight and shook my head in annoyance.

"Ugh..!" I groaned out to the dark room. "No...." I moaned aloud to no one but myself. "Why did it have to be Matt who fell for me?"

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To be Continued...

A/N: GOD DAMN! xb Do you realize how long and difficult it is to write a longish lemon?? It's awful! I usually don't put this much work into my writing so please critique me; it really helps! :D

Lately I haven't gotten any... but I still love the reviews! :D Thank you!

-Jun-