(Please read and review…I appreciate it so much….here's chapter 11...I hope its good and better!!!!J)

Bella's point of view:

On Sunday evening I was sitting on the couch in Edward's living room.

Trying to think of a way to ask him my request and get the answer I wanted.

Edward was talking to Alice in the kitchen, I really hoped she didn't tell him.

He came back in the room and I got up the nerve to ask.

"Edward, can I ask you something?" I asked sheepishly.

He tried to look my in the eyes but I couldn't meet his stare.

"Sure, love." He replied as he sat down next to me and pulled me into his lap.

I loved being near him but this was going to make my question harder to get out.

I decided to just get to the point.

"I need to go to La Push……" I said while looking at my hands.

He interrupted me with a sharp, "No."

I knew this was going to be difficult.

I sighed as he pulled my chin up so he could look me in the eyes.

"I need to talk to Jacob, he needs to know about everything and I want him to come to the wedding." I said.

"He'll find out anyway and then I know he won't come, I'll be safe." I said with great conviction.

I knew I would be safe, I wanted my friend Jacob to be there one last time, and I wanted him to find out the truth by me.

Edward groaned and said sadly, "He might not hurt you physically but he will hurt you emotionally. Why do you want him to come?"

"Edward, I need to do this, he was my best friend. Please don't think for one second that I would decide against the wedding and you after seeing Jake." I said shocked.

I wrapped my arms around his neck, and he said while his liquid eyes turned solid, "I don't really think that you'd leave me but he still won't come, no matter what you do because you choose me."

I was getting upset now that he started blaming this on him like everything else.

"Edward Cullen, I am unbelievably happy we are getting married and that I get to spend forever with you. I want to give Jake the chance to come and understand what you mean to me!" I almost yelled at him.

His eyes turned back to liquid as he said, "Not as happy as me."

He leaned down and kissed me softly as his arms wound around my waist.

He was trying to distract me, I was about to argue back but I could barely concentrate.

Edward smiled slightly and said, "I know he won't come and this whole process will just end up hurting you."

I groaned and decided begging was my last choice. I need to do this, getting hurt was a chance I had to take.

"Please, let me do this, you can drive me there and wait on the border while I am gone." I pleaded.

He was on his breaking point and when I pouted he gave in.

"Fine, but you call and tell him your coming tonight, and I will take you there, wait at the border and take you back." He said.

I squealed and kissed his cheek and said, "That's fine with me."

He handed me his cell phone and whispered in my ear, "Him hurting you is going to hurt me."

I had to do this……I wanted to, but was Edward right?

I dialed Jacob's number, trying not to think about that possibility.

He sounded sort of happy when I told him I was coming.

I hoped he didn't misunderstand. He already knew that we were getting married, that Edward was going to change me and he should know that there was no more Bella and Jacob.

I handed the phone back to Edward and he looked very upset as we got into his Volvo.

The ride to the border was completely silent until I said, "Please, Edward don't be mad at me for doing this."

He turned to me and stroked my face, "I could never be mad at you, love."

I smiled and got out of the car as we reached the border.

Edward came to my side and said, "When you need me again, I'll be right here."

I felt like I could cry and I had no idea why, "I know." I replied.

He pulled me into a hug and kissed my forehead then said softly, "Go get this over with, love."

I walked away from Edward, across the border to where Jacob would be waiting.

As I looked back at Edward he looked as if he wanted to run after me.

I continued walking until I heard a husky voice say, "Hey, Bella."

I smiled and said, "Hey, Jake."

He walked over to me and smiled back then asked coldly, "Why did you come over here? I am surprised you bloodsucker let you come."

I took a deep breath, I need to do this now but I also realized that this wasn't the same Jacob that was my best friend because of my decisions.

"I wanted to invite you to my wedding and tell you that no matter what I choose, you'll still be my friend." I said.

He looked at me and said angrily, "I am not coming to your wedding, I just can't Bella. You choose him, we can't be friends, we can't be anything."

I was shocked and felt the tears coming.

I knew my choice hurt him but, he said that we could before.

He frowned and said, "Bella, go back to him, please. I don't want you to cry but that is the truth and you know it."

He looked as if he was going to cry when he said, "You love him, your going to be like him. Just go."

I bit my lip so I wouldn't cry and said, "I love him more than anything, I can't live without him."

"He left you before and you still choose him, I gave you the choice and you choose him!" He shouted at me.

I was so angry and sad I could barely hold it in.

"He'll never leave me again, I know it." I shouted back.

He started walking away from me and said rudely, "Have a nice life, hopefully this works out, I doubt it though."

I felt like someone just took out my heart and stomped on it. But then I felt like screaming.

If Jacob didn't care anymore neither did I.

A part of my still wished he would come though.

I needed Edward, I wanted Edward.

I ran back to the border, crying my eyes out.

Edward was right, just like usual.