Exactly Where Were Supposed To Be
Chapter 4: Let me go home
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Mitchie ran to her room and cried. She thought that she could do this but she couldn't, it was too hard, every time she saw Shane it broke her heart to know that she couldn't let him know that he was a father. He deserved to know that he was. But her head hurt, too much hurt had been here the last few days, she couldn't bear it anymore.
This time she was going home.
Her case was already packed, so she didn't need to put anything in. She had tried, she really had but she couldn't do it. She had changed when she was young, she couldn't go back now. It didn't feel right. It wasn't, leaving a one year old by himself, she had only just moved on from Shane, and now all this, all the drama, she didn't need it.
Picking up her cell phone, she dialled her home number, hoping her mom would pick up.
"Mom"she said, tears flowing down her cheeks, tissue in her hands
"Mom can you come and get me" she cried into the cell phone
Her mom knew that this would happen. She missed her baby too much, she couldn't be a normal teen anymore, that's not the way she was built, she had changed. She knew that Mitchie would be doing this.
"Honey, can you not stick it out i know its hard, but you will be fine" her mother said, phone in one hand a tin of baby food in the other
"Mom" she sobbed "Mom it's not, Shane's here I can't" her emotions raw
"Can you not avoid him, honey you need this" she reasoned
"Mom, my dance class is with him, everywhere I go he's there"
Her tears were now stinging her. She really wanted to leave. The guilt had taken over, she couldn't be around him, not when he thought so little of her. She wanted to tell him, but it wasn't on the cards, she wanted him to live his dream, that's why she had to get out of here before she spilled.
"Ok, ok honey I'll be there in an hour" her mother sighed
She was disappointed that she was leaving, she couldn't be a normal teenager. She was an old head on young shoulders and it wasn't right, Connie thought to herself. She didn't want her to come back, she wanted her to be her baby. She wanted her to live again, maybe even find Shane, that's what she had hoped, that's why she had told her to go, because she wanted her to be a teenager not just a mom. She didn't seem happy anymore, sure she loved her child, but she didn't love the monotony of her life.
Mitchie walked into the staff room, looking for anybody in charge, she needed to tell them that she had to get out of here, that she was going home and she was sorry but she didn't care, she had to go.
"Where's Dee" she asked Debbie, a worker there
"She's just over there" she said, pointing towards the red head
"Dee" Mitchie exclaimed
"Mitchie" she smiled back "How's things"
"I'm sorry I have to go" she said, looking at Dee's expression
"Why" she asked, her face falling
"I just have to" she sighed "Sorry"
Dee looked at her, not understanding why she needed to go home, she seemed fine, but she knew that it was something serious because Mitchie wouldn't give up her dream like this, not unless she really had to.
"Ok, but are you reallly sure, we really need you around here" she said, trying to make her stay
"Yes" she sighed, thinking about what she was giving up.
"Well then I can't stop you" she sighed, looking at the young girl
"Thanks" she sighed, turning on her heel and heading back to her room
Her mind was consumed with worry as she headed back to her room. She wanted to leave, but this place held so many memories for her that she couldn't leave, but she was used to it by now, she couldn't do much else. She ran, she was used to it by now, it was nothing special. She had to. She wondered if Shane would ever know about his baby, in one way she wanted him to, but in another she didn't, she wanted him to find out by himself, she could never find the right way to tell him.
Opening the door, she walked into her room, bumping into something.
"Ouch" she said, to the nothingness
"Watch where you're going" came the voice
Mitchie looked up, finding Shane looking at her "What" she asked, confused by the whole situation
"Watch where you're going" he repeated
She looked at him, this was what she was leaving behind. She was used to it by now, but so much hurt were in his eyes, she didn't stop to ask why he was even here, but here he was, he looked like he had been crying all night. He was broken hearted.
"Sorry" she said, sitting on her bed
"It'll never be enough" he said, sitting beside her
Looking at him, confused "What the heck is going on here" she asked as he held a photo in his hands
"Wh-where'd you get that" she asked, pointing to a photo of Tadhg
"Your bag" he answered, honestly
"What the hell were you doing in my bag" she shouted, grabbing the photo
"I was searching for reasons why you wanted to leave" he answered, hurting inside
"I don't have to tell you, they don't concern you" she shouted, tears flowing from her eyes again
"Yes they do, when its my heart that you're playing with"
"No they don't okay, I just have my reasons, they don't concern you"
"Why did you want this photo back" he asked
"Because its mine" she answered "I don't answer to you anymore"
"But why is that the only thing you're interested in, you don't care about me, it's just this baby"
"Get out" she said, pointing towards the door
"Why did you want the photo Mitchie"
"Get out" she said, trying to sound as calm as possible
"Are you hiding something Mitchie" he asked, not even moving
"No" she said, unable to look him in the eyes
"You are"
"He's my brother ok, now just leave"
"That must have been a shock" he said, not fully believing her
"Yeah it was" she answered, trying to force him out the door
"How old is he" Shane asked, suspicious of her
"19 months" she answered, trying to make him leave
"Add nine months on to that and that's around the same time we stopped talking"
"What are you trying to say" she asked, panicking that he was figuring it out
"I'm saying that you had an affair" he answered "I'm saying that this baby is your son"
Mitchie couldn't believe it, he was doing this, she thought he would have went for the other option, but this was unthinkable, he was the only man she had ever made love to, she would never have with anybody else.
"I never had an affair" she said, tears spilling from her cheeks
"And I can believe that how" he asked, his eyes red about to shed tears too, his body aching from need
"Because I love you, and Tadhg is not my son"
"Love" he laughed "You, love me, it doesn't seem possible at this point"
"I do" she said, kissing his lips tenderly
Pushing her away, he looked in her eyes, he couldn't trust them anymore "You cheated on me" he answered
"I don't care if you go now"
"I never cheated" she sobbed "Please believe me"
"How can I when all you keep telling me is lies"
"I don't lie" she sobbed, rubbing her eyes
"You are now" he said, tears falling freely on his clothes
Mitchie heard the car pulling up outside, she knew that it was her mom, she was going. She just hoped that her mom didn't have Tadhg with her, though she doubted she would have been able to get a babysitter at such short notice. Panicking, she ran from the room to the car, seeing the car seat and her mother out of the car, taking him out.
She knew that Shane was behind her, but she couldn't help it, she had to see her son. "Tadhg" she called, as the baby called out
"Mitchie" her mom called, pulling her into a hug
"You wanna hold him while I get your stuff in the car"
Mitchie nodded eagerly as she took an eager Tadhg off her mother's hands. "How have you been baby" she cooed, rocking him "I missed you" she said, laughing with the baby
Looking over her shoulder, Tadhg spotted Shane and began calling out for him, Mitchie tried to distract him, but it wasn't working, he was eager to get over to him. Shane just stood there, staring.
"Ooh he seems eager" Connie said, as she carried the bags into the car
"Why don't you let Shane hold him" she asked, hoping for the best
Mitchie hesitated but she saw her lover's expression, she had to let him hold his son at least once.
"Here" she said, handing him over to Shane, watching them eagerly
"Hey little fella" Shane said, his anger dissolving
The baby cooed and laughed as Shane played with him for a few minutes. She couldn't help but get emotional. It was the day she thought would never happen. It was really when it hit home just what she had done.
Tearing up again, she watched as Shane reluctantly handed him back over to Connie "Mitchie can I speak to you for a sec"
Mitchie nodded, unsure of what he was going to ask
"What" she asked
"He's mine isn't he"