Exactly Where Were Supposed To Be
Chapter 5: Baby
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Mitchie panicked. How did he figure that out she asked herself. She had no idea that he would figure that out from just a few moments with the child, even if he did look like him. She wouldn't have let him hold him if she had known that.
"No" she said, hoping that he believed her
"Not for one minute am i buying that" he answered, looking from her to Connie
"Well you have to because its the truth" she said, turning on her heels to leave
Shane grabbed her, he knew that she was lying "Tell me the truth" he pleaded
"It is" she said, tears beginning to well up in her eyes
"I know its not, don't take me for a fool"
Mitchie looked at him, she knew that this would happen if she stayed here. She couldn't do it. She couldn't keep him away. Not like this anyway. She needed to let him know, but somehow, she couldn't find the words.
"I'm not, let me go" she cried, trying to pull him off of her arm
"I'm not letting you go, not until you tell me the truth"
Mitchie sighed, looking into his eyes she saw what she was doing to him, she was denying him the right to be a father because she wanted all the glory for herself, she wanted him to live his dream, yet she wanted everybody to know what she was doing. It was selfish, it was the only way she could get through the day without feeling horrible was telling herself that. But she couldn't do it, not with him here now. She loved him, why was she doing this anymore. Denying it, it wouldn't work forever.
"I have to go" she said, pulling away from his grip
"No you don't" he said, calling after her, tears falling
"Yes i do" she said, sobbing
Connie watched from the car as she saw her child fight for her grandchild. It broke her heart to see that she was denying him this child, when he wanted to be there so badly, she just pushed him away, afraid of being hurt, it was sad in one way, but in another she was glad to see Shane concerned.
"You're not coming home" Connie called from the car, not looking at Shane
"What" Shane and Mitchie asked through the tears
"I said that you're staying here, act like an adult" she said, putting the key in the ignition
As her mom backed away, she looked crushed, her bag had been taken out of the car, and here they were, not knowing where to start.
"You better come inside"
"That baby's yours" he accused, not being able to be angry
"So what if it is" she said, her hands flaying
"That means its mine"
"Hold on a sec" she said, her sadness dissolving "You were accusing me of having an affair earlier"
"Yeah, but c'mon Mitchie have you seen the baby, he looks just like me"
"He's not yours" she said, not knowing why she was denying it
"Mitchie" he shouted "I know that the child's mine"
Sitting in the bed, Mitchie looked up at him and sighed, she knew she couldn't get out of it "Yeah"
Shane looked at her, he had never felt so betrayed in his life. He had a son and if he hadn't come here, he wouldn't have known. He wondered why she would do it.
"I'm sorry" she sobbed
She didn't know what else to say really
"That's about two years too late" he spat
"I'm so sorry but I couldn't tell you" she cried, as she watched the hurt in his eyes
"You couldn't tell me that I have a son" he asked
"No" she said, feeling horrible
"Why" he asked, sitting back on the bed
"I wanted to let you go"
"Why did you think I couldn't do it" he asked, his tears flowing down his cheeks
"No, that was never the case" she sobbed, taking hold of him
"Then what" he asked
"You would have given up everything" she sobbed "Like I had to"
"And whats bad about that"
"I wanted you to live the dream, like you well, dreamed"
"You still had no right" he sobbed
"Sorry" she sobbed
"Who were you to decide whether I got to see my son"
"I know that it was wrong, how many times can I say it"
"More than what you are"
"I can't keep doing this" she sobbed into her chest
"Well im very sorry but that's my child that you denied me, how am i supposed to react"
"I dunno" she said, not able to look up
Shane shook his head, turning away from her, he walked over the other side of the room, knowing that she would make him forgive her. He had just found out that he had a son, he couldn't do that. It would have been shock, it would have been hard but he would have done it and it hurt him to make him think that if she wasn't here he would never have known.
"You know what" he asked, still turned away from her
"What"
"I cried myself to sleep for months after you stopped calling me, because I couldn't be near you, and now, it just seems like a waste of time"
"You did" she asked, getting up from the bed and going over to him
"Go away from me" he cried, pushing her away
"Shane please" she pleaded
"You were prepared to go home before you told me" he cried, turning around
"I had to protect myself"
"How do you think that makes me feel" he shouted, wiping away a tear on his leather jacket
"I don't know" she sobbed
"Hurt, that's how it fucking makes me feel"
"I don't know what to say" she answered, word beginning to not make any sense
"Do you know what the funniest part is" he cried, smiling through his tears
"What" she asked, wondering what he could say
"I still love you"
"What" she asked shock apparent accross her face
"I still love you"
"I don't get it"
"No matter how angry I am at you, I know I won't stay angry for long"
"What" she asked again
"I can't help what I feel, I know that you'll be the only one that makes me cry"
"How is that a good thing" she asked slightly confused
Shane looked at her, she was so beautiful, and sure he was mad now, and sure that it woud take a long time to get over but he knew that he wouldn't be able to trust her, but she was the one that he imagined spending his life with. His child, she had denied him, but she had good intentions, even still it ould be a while before he could kiss her again and know that she meant it, hear I love you and know that she meant it but he was willing to wait.
"Because its real love"