Exactly Where We're Supposed To Be Chapter 6: Ordinary Day, a camp rock fanfic

Exactly Where Were Supposed To Be

Chapter 6: Ordinary Day

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"You wake up,
And its far too late
You never saw,
The writing on the wall
Buts its no use
When the love is gone
And you try but you just cant carry on
When every right just turns out wrong"

Mitchie paced around her room, she couldn't sleep, and it wasn't for the baby, because he was at home and she was here. It was because of Shane, she had admitted that he was the father only hours ago and she had no idea what to do next. Before he left he kissed her, a kiss so full of love that she begged him not to go, but she knew that this would take time it wasn't just something that could be fixed over night, she was prepared to wait, but if she was truthful, it was eating her up inside.

She had decided to stay, though she knew she'd regret it. Shane was going to stay mad at her for a long time, and she knew that too, but somehow, she just wished that she had gone with her mom, with their baby and left him, because this, was a pain too hard to live with.

Shane lay on his bed, he couldn't sleep, he couldn't help but think about the news he had figured out. If she hadn't have come he knew that he would never have found out that he fathered a child. He felt hurt and annoyed, he couldn't believe what she had done, Mitchie wasn't like this. She would never do something like that, yet she didn't, and now here he was four am in the morning and he couldn't close his eyes without seeing his child, a child he didn't know yet felt such love for.

"Now i am lost without the two of us
And your not the one to blame
It was me who turned the sunshine into rain.
When I'd finally came to realize I'd thrown it all away
Cause with you there was no Ordinary Day
No Ordinary Days
Yeah no Ordinary Days"

He couldn't believe that he was here, he had planned on never coming back, because this was the place where he had fallen in love and gotten his heart thrown away all at the same time. He couldn't stay here, yet he couldn't face going home to Nate and Jason, telling them what he couldn't yet comprehend.

She had begged him not to go, and it was all he had not to go back and ravage her, but he couldn't because she had hurt him too much, a hurt that took him by surprise because it had been so horrible, so not like what he expected. He knew that if he ever met her he would be mad, but not like this, this was just too much. He had a son, with her, and she never thought she was getting to meet him again, so she never told him, that was what hurt the most.

"Now I cant believe
I could be so blind
No I didn't see
I didn't see the warning signs
You took the weight off my shoulder
You were the light in my life
But you just could not carry on
'Cause every right just turned out wrong"

The thoughts of her filled his mind, he wasn't there for the birth, for when she found out, everything. He felt so guilty, that he was out rocking and she was at home with the baby, he would have found a way to be with them, or at least know that he loved him. He would have let them know that when she really needed him he would be there for her.

Twisting and turning in her bed, Mitchie had decided that she was going to try and get some sleep, it wasn't for lack of trying, but she simply couldn't, it was too hard, thoughts filled her mind that she just couldn't erase, there was no way of getting rid of them, other than to talk to him, but she had a feeling that she wouldn't be able to talk to him now, not when the hurt was so new.

Finally they both succombed to sleep, sleep that they needed, it wasn't a good sleep though, his mind was constantly preoccupied with thoughts of them.

The next morning brought odd looks and whispers, but Mitchie tried to ignore them as she prepared for the class. Shane was in a corner, cap covering his face, he too had gotten a bad nights sleep, yet he didn't want to let anybody know that there was anything wrong.

"Ok we ready" Shane called out, as all the girls jumped to their feet

It was the same routine that they covered the last day, so both tried to not look at each other as much as possible, the hurt was still clear in Shanes' eyes no matter how much he tried to hide it, as for Mitchie well she too was no better, though she felt guilty as well as hurt.

As the class let out, Mitchie packed up, she was afraid to look over at him, she was afraid at how hurt he would look, and she couldn't take that, knowing she had caused his pain was quite enough.

"So what's he like" Shane asked from the complete silence

"What" Mitchie asked, turning around, slightly

"What's he like, you know Tadhg"

"Ehhh"

"Or am I allowed to know" he asked, sounding hurt

"Why wouldn't you be" she asked, confused

"Seeing as you kept him from me for over a year"

"Then I woke up
And it was way too late
Oh how I miss
I miss those Ordinary Days"

Mitchie looked at him, he looked so hurt, so angry, so completly unlike Shane, the Shane that she loved, the Shane that she couldn't live without. She didn't know where to start. She had so much to tell him, but she knew that it would hurt him too much to know that he had missed out on all of the important events of his childs life, like the first birthday, first word, smile everything.

"How many time-"

"I don't need to hear it Mitchie, I can't get it out of my head"

"What else am I supposed to say"

"I don't know" he said, turning away from her

"Why" she asked "Why can't I do anything for you"

"Just go" he said, looking at the wall, tears stinging his eyes

"What" she asked, slightly confused

"Just go" he roared

Mitchie headed outside, tears stinging her eyes, as she looked inside she saw him, punching the wall in a fit of anger and sliding down it, tears in his eyes, as he put his head in his hands. He was nineteen, not thirty nine, he shouldn't be dealing with this now, he was a teenager, he shouldn't be crying like this over children, people his age should be out partying, not stuck at a camp, crying your eyes out over the son he never knew he had.

This was supposed to be the summer of a lifetime, meetng kids, inspiring them, but all it had been so far was a big drama fest, he needed a break, he wished that he could just get away, not feel anything for a while, but he couldn't, the most dangerous thing he had was a bottle of jack daniels and he had confiscated that.

It seemed like the only option now.

Heading to his room, he opened the wardrobe where he had put it after he had confiscated it on his way to Mitchie's yesterday. Taking it out, he looked at the marmalade-coloured liquid for a few moments before unscrewing the cap and taking a large gulp

The liquid burned his throat, but it took away some of the pain, so he kept on drinking, trying to block out the pain he felt, and the hurt that he had never felt in his life. As he took another gulp, he felt the pain disappear, the pain that no nineteen year old should ever feel. It seemed better somehow now that he had downed half of the bottle, though his vision steadily blurred he felt so much better.

Not even noticing the knocking on the door, a figure entered, looking at him with pity and guilt "That's gonna make things better" the male voice asked

"Go away" Shane said, bringing his head to his knees, an empty bottle in the right hand

"No" came the voice again

"Please" he pleaded

"Not until you tell me what's wrong" came the voice again

Shane hesitated, he didn't want anybody to see him like this, what would they think of him, what if the press caught it, what would he do. But he needed somebody to talk to. Looking up, his eyes sore from crying, his vision blurred from drinking he said

"Uncle Brown, I'm a father"

"No Ordinary Days
With you there are no Ordinary days"