Exactly Where We're Supposed To Be Chapter 10, a camp rock fanfic

Exactly Where Were Supposed To Be

Chapter 10: One in the same

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An: Sorry for the long wait, my own laziness really lol, thanks for the reviews, anyway Ive barbed on long enough so here it is...on with the story

Four weeks had passed and this was her usual haunt. Every night, after she and Shane had made love, she would end up here, her shaking body perched over the toilet bowl, and yet he still hadn't noticed. She couldn't bare to tell him, because every time she tried, she just wanted to reach out and hug him, like she never would again, and if it came out that it wasn't his baby, she could never live with herself. So she had decided that she would enjoy this time with him, and let him meet Tadhg, but after that she was gone, letting history repeat itself.

Though she had decided to make one minor change; tell Jason that he was a father, let him be as involved as he wanted, but she couldn't involve Shane, no matter how much she loved him, she would never be able to tell him that his band mate had slept with her, and didn't even let him know where she was. She had broken his heart once, she couldn't risk doing it again by telling him that she was pregnant and telling him that it wasn't his child, it would be easier to leave him.

It was a lose lose situation. A catch twenty-two, no matter which way she went somebody would get hurt.

"I didn't wanna say, I'm sorry, for breaking us apart.
I didn't wanna say, it was my fault, even though I knew it was.
I didn't wanna call, you back, 'cuz I knew that I was wrong.
Yeah I knew, I was wrong"

While she had been in the bathrooms the past couple of weeks she had begun writing songs; her way of letting her feelings out without bursting in front of Shane. Every single song she had written was about him, now more than ever. She had a feeling that Shane would never forgive her if she told him, and to upset him again, so soon, that would just crush him.

And here she was, pregnant with her second child at the age of seventeen. This was not what she had planned in life, she wanted to make it big, be a star, but her dreams had to be put on hold so she could have children. She was in a job she hated because of Tadhg, he had stopped her from living her dream, sometimes she wished that she had kept her promise and gave him to her barren aunt, then sometimes, the times when he smiled and called her 'moma' were the times that made her dead end job all worthwhile.

Her mom would kill her. She had contemplated telling her, but she knew that she would think that it was Shane's, she had contemplated the worst possible solutions, but she knew that the guilt would be unbearable, she would have to have the baby, cope on her own with a toddler and a newborn, just when she thought her life was getting back on track, when she had Shane to fall back on, she would have to lose him again.

Her fault. Her mistake.

"One in the same, never to change.
Our love was beautiful.
We got it all, destined to fall.
Our love was tragical.
Wanted to call, no need to fight.
You know I wouldn't lie.
But tonight, we'll leave it on the line.

How would she tell Jason, she would never know. He wasn't the settling down type, but she had been the one that he craved, that he couldn't live without, yet she didn't want him to be the father, she wanted Shane. Shane would be such a good dad, and she knew it, there was no way he would fall for it being his. She could never do that to him either, one way or another she was in a mess.

One in the same, never to change, that was how he used to describe him and her together. He told her that he loved her and that he never wanted her to change, they were completely right for each other. And yet, here she was, her eighteenth birthday coming up and pregnant with her second child. Not even Shane's. If it was Shane's she could deal with it. They could be a family, but things didn't seem to want to go that way

"Listen baby.
Never would've said forever, if I knew we'd end so fast.
Why did you say, "I love you", if you knew that it wouldn't last?
Baby I just can't hear what you're saying.
The line is breaking up.
Or is that, just us?
Or is that just us?!

Tears fell down her cheeks as she lifted herself up from the floor. The sun was rising and she was going to have to go back before Shane knew how long she had been in there for. She needed just to be with him, knowing that she had to leave him at the end of the summer was enough. She needed all of the time she could have with him before she had to go face the real world, the photographers and now the scrutiny of the media.

Opening the door to the cabin, she looked at him as he lay there, just awake, he was so beautiful. She didn't know how she would hold her tongue this time. He was here. He was so nice to her, how could she do this?

"Hey" he greeted her, pulling her into a kiss

"Morning" she smiled, pulling her fears away from the surface

"We have a day off today" Shane smiled deviously, his eyes suggesting the thing she could no longer do

"Shane not today" she smiled, kissing him tenderly, taking in his beautiful scent

He nodded understandingly "Ok" he said, kissing her back

Pulling away, she looked at him, taking in his every feature, she couldn't take it anymore, she didn't care any longer. It was Shane that she wanted.

"I'm pregnant"

Shane looked up, his eyes searching hers, taking a gulp "Are you sure"

"Yes, I took the test"

She couldn't believe that she was doing this. She had sworn to herself all along that she wouldn't tell him. That she would leave him, she would never come back here even if it meant stardom, she would reject it, now she didn't care, she wanted him, she didn't have to tell Jason, she could pretend that it was his, if it meant lying to him, this once to give her unborn child a good father, she would do it.

She didn't know how he would take it though.

Shane looked at her momentarily, he couldn't believe what she was saying, this wasn't what he had planned, he wanted to get to know Tadhg and be with her a little bit longer before they even discussed an addition to the family. She was beginning to search him, for an answer, for anything, he had no idea what to do, he needed answers for her.

It couldn't be that bad could it? He asked himself repeatedly, he was in love with her, he couldn't imagine life without her, sure he didn't know his first son, but hey, he was going to get to know him and he really wanted Mitchie, no matter what. He could do this, she needed him, he would be there. He had to be there, he couldn't just leave her. He had to keep her close at all times, he didn't want her to leave or go anywhere. He needed to be a part of her life.

A smile rose in his face, pulling her into a hug, he had never felt so happy in his life

"Thank you" he said, tears forming in his eyes

Pulling away from him, she looked up at his overjoyed face "For telling me, I know this probably isn't what you wanted, but honestly Mitchie this could be great, we could get a house and buy a car an-"

Cutting him off with a kiss, she pulled him down on to the bed, kissing him as passionately as she could manage. He hadn't thought anything of it, he was going to be the father of her child. Pulling away from him, for just one second, she smiled as his hair hung limply around his face

"I love you so much" she said, tears forming in her eyes, guilt setting in

"One in the same" he smiled "I love you too"

They made love all afternoon, not letting the pressures of the day get to them. Mitchie had never felt so guilty in her life, she had told a fib, a massive fib, that couldn't be undone, yet when he made love to her, so slowly and passionately, she didn't feel anything bad, she had done right, or so she thought.

"Yes..mom..yes its true" Mitchie overheard as she rolled over in her bed

Wiping her eyes, she looked up at a half naked Shane, pacing back and forth, a smile on his face, as he spoke on the phone.

"Yes mom, I'm going to be a father again" he said, trying to explain to a very confused mother "Yes..you saw the pictures..yes mom I know..no mom I don't know him"

Mitchie smiled sleepily as Shane looked at her, she couldn't help but smile at him, he was so cute when he was exited. She had never seen him like this before, and all it took was telling him that she was pregnant. Jason would never know that it wasn't his baby, he would just presume that it was Shane's, he would never have to find out that he had fathered a child. Shane would be great, she just had a feeling.

"Because I love her mom that's why...yes mom i know...i know you're disappointed mom...of course its my baby Mitchie's only ever been with me"

Mitchie gulped, he was so innocent, he honestly believed that she had never been with anybody else. What reason had he to believe otherwise, they had promised themselves to each other when they lost their virginity to one another. He had never been with anybody else, it would have been in the papers or somebody would have blabbed, and she knew that he loved her too much to even go there.

The guilt was beginning to take over.

His smiling face. His cheeky wink as he paced the room listening to his mother. All he wanted was here, he loved her. She had never felt so guilty in her life, she was giving him this, false promise, this untruth, this child that he thought was his, growing within her. He could never know, yet she had never wanted to tell somebody something more in her life.

Try to call again and get in your mailbox.
Like a letter left unread.
Apologies are often open ended,
but this one's better left unsaid"

Hanging up the cell, Shane clambered back onto the bed, giving Mitchie a tender kiss.

"Who should we tell next" he asked, looking through his phone book

"Shane I-I don't know if it's such a good idea"

Shane's face fell "Huh" he asked, scratching his head

"I just don't think its such a good idea" she answered, feeling extremely guilty

"What, why" he asked dialling Nate's number into the phone

"Because" she answered, taking the phone from his hand "I don't want to tell everybody so early on"

"I'm not telling everybody" he answered "My cousins and my mom aren't everybody"

Mitchie looked at him, she couldn't do this, this was so hard, she had kept something like this from him years ago, and look how it ended up. This was a much bigger lie than she had ever told in her life. If she was going to keep this up, she knew what she had to do, she had to let him ring Nate and Jason, they would find out anyway.

Sighing, she looked at him, his eyes twinkling like a child for a Smarties tube

"Ring them" she said, kissing him

Dialling Nate's number, he lifted his toned body from the bed, anticipating the answer of his cousin

"Hi"

Mitchie looked up at him, he seemed more nervous to talk to Nate than to talk to his mom

"I'm gonna be a dad again" he said, a smile rising on his face

"Yeah..sure..yeah just one sec" he said, covering his phone with his hand

"Mitchie he wants to talk to you"

"Hi" she said, in as much of a happy voice as she could muster

"That baby's not Shane's, is it?"

One in the same, never to change.
Our love was beautiful.
We got it all, destined to fall.
Our love was tragical.
Wanted to call, no need to fight.
You know I wouldn't lie.
But tonight, we'll leave it on the line.
We'll leave it on the line.
(Yeah, oh yeah)
We'll leave it on the line tonight