BELLA P.O.V

I ran to my dorm room and fell onto my bed and cried. I have no idea how long I cried for but when I was done I felt a bit better. I haven't cried in months and it felt good to let some of my emotions out.

'Bella,' Joe's soft voice said. I didn't turn to him I just kept staring at the lamp on my beside table. 'Bella.' I felt the bed sink as Joe sat next to me, he laid down beside me and I rolled over to face him.

He was worried, the emotion was clear on his face. I felt a sense of guilt wash over me. I shouldn't have run out like that, I probably scared everyone.

'Bella what happened?'

He stared at me and I felt more tears on there way to spill out. I had never told Joe about my friends from the orphanage. I never told anyone about anything these days. I kept my pain inside never letting it be seen, the only person who might be able to get it out of me is Edward but I doubt he even remembers me. Joe has no idea at what I have been though, when ever he brought up the subject of the orphanage or past foster families I would change the subject quickly.

'And don't say it's nothing,' he said as I opened my mouth to say it.

If I wasn't so depressed and wallowing and self pity I would have glared and hit him.

'It's just…' I began, I may as well tell him. Not everything but I will tell him the outline. I sighed. 'Those people the Cullens and Hales. I knew them. I went to the same orphanage as them. We were very close friends, my first and only friends actually before you. But one day they left and I was shattered, I haven't seen them since and seeing them now, its just…A lot of feelings came back and hit me all at once…hard.'

Joe put his arm around me and pulled me into him. He didn't need to know about how much I missed them or how much it hurt to see them now all together and me on the outside.

'I'm sorry Bella,' was all he said.

That's the good thing about Joe he let you let it all out and didn't try to talk to you our make you talk.

I sighed and smiled sadly 'I must have shocked the others at my sudden outburst, I bet they think I'm nuts.'

'Hardly, they are worried you ran out so quickly, I'm amazed you didn't fall at the speed you were going. Everyone watched you leave even the Cullens and Hales, they looked concerned.'

I snorted 'Ha, whatever I'm sure they think I'm some emotionally unstable person. They won't recognize me and I don't want them to.'

Joe looked surprised at this. 'Why there your friends, ones from your childhood why don't you want to talk to them?'

'Because they have a life now, I will probably bring back bad memories for them. They don't want to be reminded of their past,' I mumbled.

'Bella-,' I cut him off before he could finish.

'No Joe my mind is made up.'

He sighed in frustration and shook his head 'You are so stubborn. They will find out eventually you know. Secrets are always found out.'

'Yeah well better later then now.'

Sure enough Joe was right the others were worried about me. The next day when we met up to go around campus they kept asking if I was okay and Katie and Keira were constantly hugging me. The whole time I was with them there was a smile on my face and I laughed a lot. I completely forgot why I was crying only 10 hours ago. Well I had until I saw them again. They were on the oval playing football. Luke and Ryan ran over yelling at them to toss the ball. Obviously they were closer friends then Joe. I noticed Joe stay back with me shooting me wary glances.

'Joe, go play I will be fine,' I reassured.

He looked disbelieving but listened to me and jogged off over to the game.

Katie, Keira and I walked over to a bench near by and sat down watching them play.

'Did they play a lot of football in high school?' I asked.

'Yeah, all of them were in the team along as Edward, Emmett and Jasper, they won every game. They were incredible.' Katie said.

I smiled watching Joe, he was having so much fun and even though it was a playful game I could tell he was good.

'Hey Katie, Keira how are you,' a voice said coming from next to us.

I looked over and my breathing hitched. Alice, Rosalie and Tanya were walking our way waving happily and grinning.

'Hey guys,' Keira waved back. 'Where good how about yourselves?'

The girls sat down in front of us and I tried my hardest to ignore them and to keep watching the game.

Here were one of my 2 closest friends close enough to touch and I was scared. After all these years of longing to see them again and here they were right in front of me and I draw up blank. Oh well they wouldn't care they've moved on with there lives anyway, so really it is no ones lose…

'So who is your friend?' Alice asked looking at me.

'Oh, this is Bella,' Katie said pointing to me. 'Bella this is Alice, Rosalie and Tanya the ones we were talking about yesterday.'

I smiled nicely to them still not talking.

'Oh you were the girl who ran out yesterday from the food court,' Tanya said remembering.

I nodded and grimaced. Joe wasn't lying when he said everyone saw that little episode.

'Bella, I used to have a friend called Bella,' Rosalie said. 'I haven't seen her in years. Do you remember Bella, Alice?'

I saw Alice nod 'Yeah she was so nice.'

By now the guys had decided to trail up to us after finishing there game. Emmett and Jasper gave Rosalie and Alice a peck on the cheek and sat next to them. I smiled a little to myself. I always knew they would end up together. I then turned to look at Edward who eyed me curiously as he sat next to Tanya. Tanya leaned over and gave him a kiss on the lips and leant on his shoulder. I felt my heart give a tug of pain and I quickly looked away.

'What are you girls talking about?' Emmett asked. His voice was still as loud as I remembered; I dare say it has gotten louder.

'Oh guys I would like you to met Bella,' Alice said.

I hate all this attention and Joe sensed this and sat next to me pulling me towards him.

'Bella you okay,' he whispered in my ear.

I nodded slowly but refused to talk. If I did I would give myself away.

'Bella you say,' Emmett boomed. 'I'm Emmett and that's Jasper and Eddie.'

'Edward,' he hissed. 'My name is Edward, not Ed, not Eddie.'

I laughed lightly to myself, they haven't changed a bit.

'Yeah whatever Edward,' Emmett said drawing each syllable out.

'So Bella where are you from?' Jasper asked breaking up Edwards and Emmett's fight.

'Umm…Actually I'm from New York, I came here recently for schooling,' I lied. Well kinda.

'New York that's so far don't you miss you parents,' Rosalie asked.

I looked away 'I don't have any.'

'Oh,' she said looking startled.

Lead away from the subject, I thought. It is to close to common ground. But Joe had other ideas.

'Yeah I met Bella through a Foster Family program,' he said.

I glared at him signalling him to shut up. I could see what he was doing trying to drop them subtle hints at who I am. He sent me a look saying Try to stop me.

'Oh really Bella did you live in orphanage?' Edward asked.

'Yes,' I said through clenched teeth, dragging my gaze away from Joe to Edward.

He exchanged a few glances with the others who looked at me hopefully. 'What orphanage?' He asked.

Before I could make up one Joe jumped in before me saying 'The one in New York. What orphanage did you guys go to?'

'One in New York,' Alice said slowly staring at me.

'Joe,' I said warningly. 'Stop before I personally make you stop.'

'Bella I have no idea what you mean,' he said innocently.

'Of course you don't,' I half whispered half yelled. 'Joe you're basically paving a path for them.'

'Wait…what do you mean paving us a path?' Rosalie said confused.

Alice suddenly gasped and Edward's eyes widened as they finally put the pieces together. They looked at each other then looked at me.

'Bella, Is that you?'

Rosalie, Emmet and Jasper frowned still confused.

I didn't look at them instead I glared at Joe. I am so going to give it to him when we are back at our dorm, so help me god…

'Yes,' I whispered. 'It is me.'

Finally realization washed over the others and they stared at me shocked.