BELLA P.O.V
'Joe' I said in a sickly sweet voice though on the inside I wanted to scream at him. 'We need to talk.'
'But Bella don't you want to stay here with your friends, you have so much to catch up on,' he replied using my tone.
I narrowed my eyes and clenched my hands into fists 'No, NOW!'
I grabbed him by the arm and yanked him up as I went to stand. I pulled him away from the group not looking back to see everyones faces. I pulled him around the corner of a near by building and out of everyones hearing. I turned to him and glared.
'What Was That?!' I hissed. 'You told them, you asshole after I told you not to. You delibratly ignored me Joe!! How could you do that. I thought I could trust you!'
I felt tears sting my eyes as I took a breath to continue my rant, but Joe took this time to talk back. 'Bella, Yes I won't lie I did ignore you but with a good reason. I saw the way you looked at them and when you were telling me about them I heard the longing in your voice. I know you Bella, and you wanted them to know who you were you were just to scared to do it. I consider you my little sis Bella, and I can't stand to see you upset.'
'I was fine, they were fine, we were all fine, until you opened your big trap.'
'You were not fine Bella, don't lie to me,' he warned.
'But they were Joe, didn't you listen to me back in the dorms they have moved on they have a life and as far as I can see it doesn't envolve me in it. They are happy, happier then before when I last saw them and I will probably just bring back bad memories and I don't want to be the one to cause that.' My voice had started to lower into a whisper, all my energy gone. My life is a god dam soap opera, I thought sourly.
'Bella, how can you think that,' Joe said softly.
Well, maybe becuase I have been told that my whole life. That I'm a mistake, I'm a problem, it seems like know matter where I go I cause pain. I bet Edward and everyone are shocked, I bet they never thought they would see me again. I mean they have been together the whole time, they have been though everything together and they must be so close. Closer then I ever could be, they will most likely pity me and pretend to be my friend so I don't feel left out.
'I-I...' Breathe Bella. 'I just mean that, they won't want me, if they had they would have tried to find me, I mean they have been together this whole time while I've been alone and...I can't Joe I just can't,' I began to feel tears run down my cheek.
'Bella,' he came up to hug me and I buried my face in his shirt. 'What can't you do?'
I let out a few sobs and willed myself to answer. 'I...can't...lose...them...again...Joe.' I lifted my head and wiped the tears away. 'The last time they left me I was so broken, jeez I still am, if they leave me again, I don't think I will be able to handle it. Everyone around me just leaves me Joe, everyone and I can't handle it anymore. It hurts too much.'
'Bella I didn't know,' Joe said his voice full of sadness and regret. 'If I had known that-'
'Joe it's okay I didn't tell you. I haven't ever opened up to anyone since...'
'Since?' Joe asked.
'Edward,' I mumbled. Just saying his name made my heart give a painful tug. 'H-He was my best friend.'
'Was? Bella he still is your best friend. I could tell when they found out it was you I saw them light up, Bella they missed you as much as you missed them.'
'Whatever,' I muttered.
'No, Bella not whatever, I will not let you go until you say you are right Joe they do care about me.' To prove he wasn't lying he tightend his grip around me.
'Joe,' I whined. 'Can't we just drop this. That was my opinion and no matter how much you try it won't change.'
'Stop being stubborn,' he demanded.
'Only when you do,' I retorted.
For the next couple of seconds we glared at each other until something behind me caught his eye. I wriggled out of his grip and turned around, my mouth fell open and I stared dumbfounded. So much for them not hearing, why did they have to follow me, dam it. Edward, Rosalie, Emmett, Jasper and Alice stood there staring back at me all looking hurt and sad. Tanya and the others were looking on in shock, probably from finally being filled in at what was going on.
'How long have you been standing there,' My voice quiet, my eyes never leaving Edwards green ones.
'Since the start,' he whispered. He took a step forward and I took one instantly back. He looked even more hurt when he looked me in the eye. 'Bella, please.'
I shook my head and continued backing up 'I have to go.'
Without waiting for a answer I took off. This is the 3rd time in my life I have ran rather then face my fears up front and I am beginning to realize it is the worse solution.
As if it was programed into me I ran straight to the music building. I stood outside for a while admiring it and then slowly opened the door to go in. It was empty as far as I could see all that was in there were various instruments, all waiting to be played. I unconciously walked over to the piano and ran my fingers over the keys. It has been a while but I found that when I was upset or angry, it helped to let it all out through music, that's another reason why I took it up in the first place.
'Can I help you?'
I jumped at the voice and looked up. An older lady maybe in her 40's was watching me curiously. She had brown hair up in a bun and wore casual clothes. She must be the music teacher. 'Umm, I was just looking?' It sounded like a question.
She smiled kindly at me 'Do you play?'
I nodded slowly.
'Can you play me something?' Her voice was calm and caring and I couldn't help but say yes. As I sat on the little bench I took a deep breath and ran my fingers over the keys again.
It's been 5 months since you went away
Left without a word, nothing to say
And I was the one who gave you my heart and soul
But it wasn't good enough for you, no
So I asked God
God send me an angel from the heavens above
Send me an angel to heal my broken heart from being in love
Cause all I do is cry
God send me an angel to wipe the tears from my eyes
And I know that it might sound crazy, but after all that I still love you
You wanna come back in my life, but now there's something that I have to do
I have to tell the one that I once adored that they can't have my love no more
My heart can't take no more lies and my eyes are all out of cries
So God
God send me an angel from the heavens above
Send me an angel to heal my broken heart from being in love
Cause all I do is cry
God send me an angel to wipe the tears from my eyes
Now you had me on my knees, begging God please, to send you back to me
I couldn't eat, I couldn't sleep, and you made me feel like i could not breathe when I
All I wanted to do was feel your touch, and to give you all of my love
Took my love for granted want my loving now, but you can't have it o god
God send me an angel from the heavens above
Send me an angel to heal my broken heart from being in love
Cause all I do is cry
God send me an angel to wipe the tears from my eyes
When I finished the last note the room went quiet. I looked up to see the teacher staring at me. 'Wow, that was amazing what is your name dear?'
'BELLA!'
I turned to see Alice staring at me 'That was...just...'
'Beautiful,' Edward finished for her. He was staring at me so intently I had to look away to breath.
'Bella, is it, your the new girl starting in my class. I'm Mrs Bryan, I'm looking forward to having you in my class. Did you take lessons?' She sounded so excited I blushed.
'No, I taught myself with a bit of help from some other people,' I shrugged, blushing harder. I hate being the centre of attention.
'Thats amazing Bella, you have a talent. And your voice was lovely.'
'Thanks,' I mumbled.
'I will leave you alone with your friends now but feel free to come back when ever you want. You are always welcome.'
I smiled at this 'Thank you so much.'
With that she left and I felt suddenly self concious. My old friends were now sitting on the desks beside me and I didn't know what to say. I turned to face them and waited for one of them to begin. When they didn't I simply stated the obvious.
'How did you know I would be here?'
They looked at eachother then to me 'Joe' was all they said. I frowned and when Alice noticed this she spoke up.
'Don't blame him Bella, we practically had to beat it out of him. We really wanted to talk to you,' she sounded sad.
'Why?' I asked looking down at the keys, not wanting to look at them.
I felt someone move in front of me and then a warm hand was under my chin lifting my face up to met a pair of green eyes that I knew all to well. 'Bella for once in your life stop being so stubborn and listen to what we have to say. We have missed you, whether you choose to believe it or not is up to you but it is the truth. We have never forgotten you how could we your part of us.'
'Yeah Bells, your like my little sister, I could never forget you. Especially your clumsy streak,' Emmett added. I stuck my tongue out at him but his words made me feel light on the inside.
'And I missed my Bella Barbie, Rose never lets me touch her,' Alice pouted. 'And I missed having to drag you on shopping trips.'
'I didn't miss that that's for sure,' I mumbled to myself only Edward heard and he chuckled lightly.
Rose talked next 'I missed how you made everyone happy Bella. You could light up a room without even trying and you are so selfless. I missed your friendship and trust more then anything.'
This meant alot coming from Rose if there was one thing I remembered about her was that she didn't trust people easily. This brought tears to my eyes but this time for a whole different reason.
'I agree with Rose, you were always there for us never expecting anything in return. Your one of a kind Bella and I missed that, and the way you fought with Emmett,' Jasper smiled.
Lastly Edward began to talk. He hadn't moved from in front of me the whole time the others had talked. He held so much emotion in his eyes I couldn't look away.
'When I heard you and Joe arguing Bella I was surprised how could you think those things? That we had moved on and forgotten you? Or that you were no longer my best friend? Bella that could never happen. Yes we might have looked happy but that didn't mean we were completly. I missed you Bella there wasn't a day when I wasn't thinking about you. It broke me as much as it broke you to leave, I didn't want to. When you said you brought back memories you were right you brought back some of the most happiest moments of my life. And most of them are with you. I won't let you push me away Bella, I care for you to much and I always will, now that your back I can't see my future without you in it, as my friend.'
I stared at him unable to say anything. That was the nicest thing someone had ever said to me. Edward had always had a way with words. But even so I felt my heart fall at the word friends, I had always loved Edward but after a while I realized it was more then a friend. At first I thought it was a crush and it would die down but it never has...
'I-I,' I gave up on words and instead wrapped my arms around Edward in a hug. 'I'm sorry.'
'Sorry, Bella, it wasn't you fault, so don't apologise.'
I nodded and breathed in Edwards scent. it was still the same from the last time I saw him. I felt my eyes close and for once I felt my life my take a right turn instead of a wrong. Maybe things mught start to go right. Just maybe...