BELLA P.O.V

'Shit,' I whispered to myself. 'Shit, shit, double shit.' I hit the keyboard to turn off the computer. 'This can not be happening!'

Where was he? How did he get my email? Oh god, Oh god.

I jumped up out of my chair and grabbed my coat. Okay I need to sort out my thoughts. Ever since living alone in the orphanage I realised to relax I had to walk, I don't know why, it's weird I know. In the elevator I fidgeted and walked in circles, if anyone was in there with me they would think I was nuts.

'Okay Bella, clam down. It might be a prank, I mean what are the chances it's him?'

Probably a 50 chance, I thought grudgingly.

I mean who knew about him besides me, I never told anyone what happened and I'm sure as hell no he didn't otherwise his sorry ass would be in jail. But how the hell did he get my email? The only people who knew it were a few girls at the orphanage but that means nothing, I know for a fact Angela wouldn't give out personal stuff it wasn't like her.

Argh! 1 million questions and no dam answer.

By now I was outside walking god knows where, I'm glad I brought my jacket because it was really windy. I hadn't looked around campus before besides the time I ran out of it in tears but I didn't notice much then. It was so big, the grass was nice and green, and the flowers were really colourful it made me smile slightly. The orphanage never had flowers or a yard for that matter, when I needed to walk I walked up to the attic and looked out onto the city.

This place was so different to there, how could he ever look for me here? No one knew where I left to? I really have no reason to worry, I'm just over reacting.

'Yes, defiantly over reacting,' I said positively.

The whole time I was reassuring myself I didn't notice a stick materialize in front of me, so naturally being the klutz I am, I fell over into the grass, behind a bush.

'Ouch,' I moaned and rolled over to face the sky.

'Edward,' I heard someone giggle behind the bush. 'Edward we have to go back to the guys.'

I froze and rolled over closer to the bush, I peeked through the gap and sure enough there was Tanya and Edward lock in an…inappropriate embrace, per say.

Edward sighed and kissed her cheek 'I guess your right.'

She giggled and kissed him full on the mouth 'But there is always tonight.'

I saw him grin and pull away 'Sounds good,' he flirted.

I felt my heart shatter at the sight of them, Bella leave, you don't need to see this, it will only hurt you.

'That chick, Bella, is there anything going one with you two?' Tanya asked running her finger over his chest and pouting.

'No why would you think that?'

'It's just the looks she gives you and sometimes you look at her like you…' she drifted off.

'Tanya she is an old friend, my best friend that is it,' he said and kissed her again.

Best Friend there is that stupid word again, the only thing I will ever be to him, Why, Oh, Why couldn't he see me as something more. Am I really that ugly or am I boring like he said?

God he was right, I am worthless, maybe I should have stayed with him, he will probably be the only guy I could get. Why do I always attract the freaks? Is there like a neon sign hovering above me saying 'Freaks come here?' People wonder why I'm so shy and quiet if they had been through anything I have they would be as well.

So so what?
I'm still a rock star
I got my rock moves
And i don't need you
And guess what
I'm having more fun
And now that we're done
I'm gonna show you tonight

Crap, I began searching for my phone that I put in one of my pockets in my jacket. Crap, why would any one be ringing me? Who even had my number?

I brought myself a cheap second hand flip phone before I came here. I don't know why I just thought it would be handy to have one. The only people who had my number was Angela and this other chick Mrs Claire at the orphanage, she was nice and treated me like her daughter. I wonder how she is?

I pulled out my beat up silver phone and checked caller I.D. Angela.

I stared at it and slowly opened it.

'H-Hello Angela?'

Silence.

'Angela is that you?' I asked my voice shaky.

I heard deep breathing on the other end, signalling to me someone was there.

'Angela, this isn't funny are you there?'

Beep.

I frowned and turned back to the phone. Call disconnected.

'Okay, weird much?' I whispered.

I felt something grab my shoulder and I jumped up and yanked it forward. I took, self defence classes after the first time I was abused, I am really good, just ask one of my teachers. I flipped the person behind me over and sat on top of them. I felt my eyes widen in surprise when I saw who it was.

'Bloody Hell Luke, are you trying to give me a heart attack?' I screeched.

'Me what about you, you flipped me over like I was a frigging pillow?'

I got off of him and offered my hand to help him up. When we were both standing I dusted myself off and ran my hand through my hair. 'I'm sorry, Luke I really am. You just startled me that's all.'

'Well trust me when I say I won't be doing that again,' he smiled.

'Bella, that was awesome,' Emmett's loud voice came up behind me.

I turned to see everyone staring at me in surprise. 'Since when can you do that?' Joe choked out.

'Umm, since forever,' I brushed it off. 'What are you guys doing here?'

'Walking around,' Alice said staring at my curiously. 'I thought you said you were going to bed.'

I laughed nervously and clasped my hands together; lying was so not my forte. 'Umm, couldn't sleep actually, but I think I might head off, to go to… um…get food, yeah food.' I stood there stupidly looking around. 'Bye.'

I began to speed walk off and as soon as I was out of there view I ran. Could I be anymore obvious?

I managed to locate my way to the music room. Mrs Bryan was there when I walked in as soon as she saw me she grinned.

'Bella,' she exclaimed. 'I'm glad you came back.'

'Glad to be back,' I answered truthfully.

She waved me in vigorously 'don't just stand there come in, come in.'

I hesitantly walked into the room and took a seat near her. 'So, what are you doing?'

She sighed 'Paper work.'

'Already but the semester hasn't even started.'

'Yeah, pre papers, crap if you ask me.'

I laughed lightly, she was really nice. 'Can I play?' I asked gesturing to the instruments.

'Of course, that might help me work,' she smiled.

I got up and looked around. What did I feel like today?

I ended up walking to the guitar and picking it up. It was very pretty a nice blue colour.

I began to lightly string my fingers over the guitar then I finally began to play a tune. I leaned to play this song after I first heard it one day on the radio; it reminded me of Edward and the guys.

Turn it inside out so I can see
The part of you that's drifting over me
And when I wake you're never there
But when I sleep you're everywhere
You're everywhere

Just tell me how I got this far
Just tell me why you're here and who you are
'Cause every time I look
you're never there
And every time I sleep
you're always there

'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
that makes me believe
I'm not alone
I'm not alone

I began to really get into the song, and the world slowly began to vanish. When ever I sung I felt at peace you could say. Relaxed, not stressed, happy…

I recognize the way you make me feel
It's hard to think that
you might not be real
I sense it now, the water's getting deep
I try to wash the pain away from me
Away from me

'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
that makes me believe
I'm not alone
I'm not alone

I am not alone
Whoa, oh, oooh, oh

I wonder if the girl that wrote this felt the way I did, alone, lost. These lyrics that I have learned off by heart never lose meaning to me, I guess that's why I sung them so well. I never thought I was a good singer until Angela began to support me. She was probably my only friend besides the Cullens at that orphanage. I wonder how she is?


And when I touch your hand
It's then I understand
The beauty that's within
It's now that we begin
You always light my way
I hope there never comes a day
No matter where I go
I always feel you so

'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
that makes me believe
I'm not alone
'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I catch my breath
it's you I breathe
You're everything I know
that makes me believe
I'm not alone

You're in everyone I see
So tell me
Do you see me?

When silence filled the room I looked up to see Mrs Bryan smiling at me, but went back to the papers in front of her. I smiled at her, she didn't ask questions or make me sing more. I will enjoy her teaching me.

'Bella,' she called. I looked at her to see her staring at me. 'I saw you sing today with those girls, Rosalie and Alice. I couldn't help but wonder if you wanted to join a compitition?'

'Compitition?' I asked confused.

'Yes people from all sorts of schools sign up, like a battle of the bands, I think you and your friends might get somewhere. I was going to ask you yesterday but you seemed a bit shy at singing by yourself but when you were up there with those girls, you looked more…relaxed.'

'Oh um,' I stumbled for the right words.

'Oh you can think about it Bella, I only brought it up because you are really good and I would strongly advise you do not only as a teacher but as a audience.'

I nodded my head and smiled slightly 'I will think about it.'

I saw her face light up at this 'Okay dear.'

I left the room in a daze, should I do it. I mean it would be fun, not to mention it will be with Rosalie and Alice…

'Maybe I should,' I said out loud.

'Maybe you should what Bella?' A voice asked behind me.

Katie, Alice, Rose, Keira and Tanya were walking up to me. The guys were no where in site.

'Oh hi guys, what are you doing out here?'

'We came to get you, we knew you would be here,' Rose shrugged.

'We wanted to see if you wanted to go back to the dorms with us and see the guys, and well hang out?' Alice asked bouncing in excitement, 'Please say yes.'

I laughed 'Okay I will.'

'Yay,' she squealed and grabbed my hand. Rosalie grabbed my other one.

'Lets go.'