I didn't want to go to sleep, I wanted to stay up until I made everything okay. Until I didn't have issues with not seeing him…until I didn't love him, but it didn't work like that.
I went to Steph and Matt's room. Locked.
I went to Shannon's room. Locked.
So I went to my room.
Jeff was laying on the bed, sadly the only free spot was next to him.
I sat down and did my best to avoid touching him.
"I'm sorry." Jeff mumbled.
"What?"
"I was wrong to do what I did, Jess." He sat up.
"I just missed you," Tears rolled down my cheeks.
"I missed you too…"
"Then why didn't you just come home?" I sniffled.
He sighed, "You want to hear the truth?"
I nodded, "I'd sure as hell like to hear something."
He smiled and rolled his eyes, "I'm afraid of hurting you."
"You're doing it right now."
"Sh! Let me finish!"
I chuckled, "Okay."
"I'm scared of hurting you like I've been hurt. I walk around you like you're made of glass. You're precious to me. I'll do everything and anything to keep you safe. Even if that means keeping you away from me."
"No, I'm safe right now. I love you. I'm not scared of getting hurt. And I trust that you're not going to hurt me."
He shook his head, "Don't say that."
I pulled my hand back and slapped him.
"Don't ever fucking say that you're a danger to me!" I yelled.
Jeff was nervous, his hands shook slightly and his face screamed I'm scared.
"I-I am."
"No you're not!"
"Yes."
I put my hands on his shoulder and pinned him against the bed. He groaned and ran his hands up my thigh's.
"Tell me who's a danger to who?"
"No one." He breathed out.
I grinned smugly, "That's what I thought."
He grabbed my shirt and pulled me down so that he could kiss me.
"God it's been so long." He whispered.
I smiled against his lips, "I know."