Last time I talked to you, you were lonely and out of place, you were looking down on me, lost out in space.
The only think I can think as I drive away, watching him hit his knees, crying, screaming in defeat, is that I'm going to miss him.
I drove until I was out of sight or I drove until I couldn't see for the tears in my eyes. I never thought that I would be the one leaving. I always expected to be the one on their knees begging.
"Why?!" I sobbed as I slammed my hands against the steering wheel.
I groped around in my bag for my cell phone.
I found Jeff's, his wallpaper was a picture of me and him from thanksgiving. It was a goofy smile…
I'll miss your purple hair, I'll miss the way you taste.
I dialed Shannon's number, I counted every single ring. Five of them.
"Jeff! Man! You got to go home! Jess is---" He said, in the biggest 'bro' mood ever.
"Shannon, it's me." I said fighting back tears, knowing my own brother would lie.
"Jess?! Why are you answering Jeff's phone."
"Because!" I screamed.
"God almighty help me! What's wrong with you?"
"He cheated on me. Because he thought I was cheating on him. I'm sick of it. I'm done with it. I left him, sitting there crying in our front yard." I cried.
"Baby,"
"No, Shannon. Don't even start. I want to leave, I want to go away, I want to go far away. I just…" I sighed hard, "I want to go somewhere. Somewhere so I can forget him." I cried softly.
"Where are you?" He asked.
"Parked."
"You drove?!" He yelled, worriedly.
"Yes, I drove. I wanted to leave so bad I would have strapped my duffel bag to my back and ran to the airport."
"Well, just wait on me." He sighed.
"Can I crack a window?" I asked politely.
He laughed, "Of course sweetie."
"Bye bubby."
"Bye bye, Jessie."
"I love you, Shan'"
I could hear a smile in his voice, "I love you too."
I hung up the phone and threw it out the window.