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Jolene POV
I didn't want to go to school. Which wasn't unusual because school bored the shit out of me. But this wasn't because of being bored, it was because I didn't want to see Seth. After our last little time together I didn't want to see him again. Even if Aunt Tylee was all excited telling me that Seth would be there and he would show me around take care of me. I didn't have the heart to tell her I had ruined the friendship with the first person that had talked with me here. So I just nodded and smiled acting like I was excited to see him again.
"So, Sue said Seth would meet you by the office, and he would show you around." Tylee smiled, pulling into the parking lot. I gapped at her.
"You called her?" I gasped, making her glance over at me curiously. Did Seth tell his mommy about our little talk?
"Yeah, she was happy that you and Seth are getting along." Tylee assured me. I calmed. What mom would be happy about her son being friends with a druggie? She obviously didn't know if she was going telling Tylee that. So Seth wasn't as much as a mommys boy as I thought. Still didn't change my view of him.
"Oh," I mumbled. She gave me another curious look, before parking.
"So have a good day. Your mom will probably call you later." She smiled nervously. She didn't know what to think about what had happened the night before. She wasn't used to the craziness that was my mother. She would learn soon enough. I just nodded, grabbing my bag and exiting the car.
"Thanks Tylee." I smiled, waving at her as she drove off. I sighed, looking at the school. A couple of kids that were outside, stared outright at me, their eyes following me as I squared my shoulders and entered the small school. People's eyes followed me as I walked toward the office. I was taking my time, not because I liked the stares, but because I was dreading seeing Seth again. I didn't want any of his shit again. I finally reached the office, glancing around for him. I'm sure he would be easy to spot, with his giant buffness. There couldn't be a lot of kids like that here. I entered as fast as I could, just in case I did miss him and he was coming for me. I looked around the small office to spot a chubby middle aged women at a desk. I went up, giving her a small smile.
"Hi, I'm Jolene Summers. I need my schedule and stuff." I said, giving her a smile. She grinned back, nodding.
"Of course. Tylee's little niece." She said. I flinched at the word little but held my smile. She riffled through some papers, before handing me a couple. "There you go Hun! Have a nice day and if you have any questions just come back."
"Thanks." I smiled heading out the office. I glanced around again, searching for Seth before I began heading down the hallway. I shoved down my sleeve absentmindedly, making sure no one could see my cuts. I had a long sleeve shirt on, so I knew no one could, but I was being paranoid.
I found my locker easily, as I began to shove my stuff in. I organized everything perfectly, before turning around and-
"Jolene!" Seth's husky voice rung throughout the hallway, as I turned to see him pushing through the crowd. I gave a growl, turning back around and trying to be busy with something. He came to my side though, so close I could feel the heat coming off of him. I sighed, leaning up to glare at him.
"What? Wanna give me the D.A.R.E speech?" I hissed, folding my arms in confrontation. He held up his hands up though in surrender.
"I just wanna talk. Show you around and stuff. Tylee called my-" He jerked to a stop, his eyes going wide as he looked at my face. He took my chin gently, his flaming hot fingers burning against my skin. "What happened to your face?" He gasped.
I jerked my face away, glaring at him. "Nothing, I fell. Leave me alone okay?" I snapped, folding my arms.
"I can't." He mumbled. What did that mean? I looked up at him, his eyes wide with something I couldn't identify. He sighed, reaching out and brushing a piece of hair from my face. He left a trail of goosebumps where he touched my face. I felt my breath come out in shaky gasps. How was he doing this to me? Making me freeze with....with I don't know what.
The bell rang shrilly overhead, making me jump. Seth sighed, glancing up at the ceiling. "I'll see you later Jolene." He whispered, giving me a smile before he turned and left me shaky and breathless.
Why could he do that?
Why could he make me hate him...and want to kiss him too?
He scared the shit out of me.
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Seth POV
I wondered what happened to her face. If someone had hurt her. She said she fell though, so I took it. But if someone had hurt her.... I clenched my fists at the thought. I had had a couple of classes with Jolene, watching her. She ignored me, not even glancing my way. Even as she walked past me down the aisle she stared straight ahead as though I wasn't there. It broke my heart every time. She was obviously still mad at me for the other day with the drug thing. But I couldn't let her go do drugs!
I sighed, shoving my backpack over my shoulder. I headed out, walking toward my car. I saw a flash of red, seeing Jolene walking across the parking lot. I ran after her, calling for her. She turned her head, glancing over her shoulder, and came to a stop.
"What?" She snapped furious, shocking me with her anger. "What the hell do you want Seth?"
"I-I just wanted to talk...see if you needed a ride home." I stuttered. She gave me a disbelieving look, rolling her eyes.
"Why so you can tell me off again?"
"No," I said immediately. I wasn't going to bug her about it anymore if it meant having her around me, at least civilized. "I just wanna...hang out with you." I gave her a smile, hoping she would just give me one chance. I needed her. I needed her to be civilized at least.
"No." She said simply, making my heart sink. What did it take to get to this girl? My face fell. "I...can't. Tylee is already coming." She mumbled. She glanced up at me, her eyes confused.
"How about Monday?" I smiled at her, my heart beating faster and faster. It was like this whole thing counted on her answer. Her eyebrows furrowed, as she stared at me for a long moment. She looked down after a while, her red hair falling over her eyes. I wanted to reach out and brush them away, but I contained myself.
"No, I'm getting another ride from Tylee." She said gently, as a honk came from behind her. I felt my breath leave my lungs, like I had been knocked breathless. She gave me a look that I didn't understand before she turned and headed toward Tylee's car, leaving me alone staring after her. It felt like she was taking my heart with her.
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Jolene POV
When was he gonna give it a break? When was he gonna just get the picture that I didn't want anything to do with him? He was so weird. Did he often do this? Start liking girls and wanting to "care" for them. I wondered absentmindedly if he was just trying to get laid. Like that was ever going to happen.
I shoved my bag over my shoulder getting in the car and slamming the door shut. Tylee gave me a curious look, before turning the car out of the parking lot. "How was the first day?" She smiled, looking over at me.
"Fine." I said, staring out the window. Well, glaring.
"Did Seth find you?" She smiled. I felt a wave of anger pass over me.
"Yeah, he did. Can you tell him to leave me alone? Seriously, he's annoying. God." I snapped. Tylee looked shocked, her cheeks going red.
"I'm sorry...I just thought you guys got along...and you didn't know anyone." She mumbled, turning into the house. I felt guilt well up.
"Well I don't like him... okay. It's fine. I met some people today so... I'm fine." I said, getting out of the car with her. I glanced over at Tylee who was still red. "Its fine Tylee." I said, hoping she would feel better. She nodded, looking a bit better.
"So your new friends?" She prompted as we entered the kitchen. Alisa was there with grandpa eating a sandwich. She hadn't talked to me much since the incident with mom. I ran a hand over her curls as she glanced over at me with a small nervous smile.
"Hi hun." I smiled, kissing the top of her head. She smiled wider, sitting up straighter. I wondered if she thought I was mad at her too. I turned back too Tylee. "There cool..." I said thinking back to Aiden and Kyra. "They invited me over to hang out with them. Can I go?" I asked, looking up at her.
"You're gonna have to ask your mom." Tylee said, giving me a small smile.
That was a yes.
I sat down with grandpa and Alisa, knowing very well I would go even without my mothers permission. There was going to be alcohol and I had to get away from my mother.
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Seth POV
I was nervous the last few days. Nervous because of what Jolene had said. What if she did go and do some drugs? What if she overdosed? God what the hell was so bad that she would need to turn to that? I knew she couldn't stand her mom, but I didn't know it was that bad. What would that women do to make Jolene so angry? I wished I knew so I could help her. I didn't want her hurting like this. Ever. I wanted to run and protect her from whatever was hurting her. If I knew what it was it would be ten times easier.
"Slow Seth. This Jolene obviously needs some space first." Edward put in suddenly making me look over at him. I sighed, rubbing my eyes.
"I have to be around her. I've waited three freaking years for her, and now she hates me." I growled, clenching my fists. I couldn't take this. I wanted to go running to find her here and now, make sure she was okay. How the hell did the others stand this? How did any of them go a second without their imprint? I knew it wasn't easy, but Jesus!
Edward gave a chuckle at my thoughts. "It's fine Seth, I'm sure she'll be fine." Esme piped up, giving me a motherly smile. I sighed, nodding.
"I would tell you if everything was going to be okay, but you and your damn blocking everything out kinda gets in the way." Alice huffed, glaring at me. I laughed, watching as she glared at the chess board she was playing over with Jasper. He grinned, giving me a nod. It was the first time they had played fairly since 1962.
"Sorry Alice."
I stayed for a couple hours, playing with Alice a couple times, winning each time. She would growl at me, her golden eyes frustrated. Jasper would rub her shoulders gently, trying to calm her but even his gift couldn't keep her from getting angry. She eventually gave up, slamming down her hand and sending chess everywhere. Edward and Bella burst into laughter watching her as she through herself into the chair.
I grew tired, and eventually fell asleep on the couch, snoring away... (this next part is a dream just in case you don't understand)
"Having fun there?" A giggled reached my ears, as two tiny hands slid around my neck, hugging me from behind. I smile, as I felt a kiss against my cheek. "Hey." Jolene smiled.
"Hey," I repeated, turning toward her. She immediatly came into my lap, as I wrapped my arms around her. "You alright?" I asked, glancing over her. She laughed.
"Fine, werewolf boy." She giggled, laying her head in the crook of my neck.
"Jolene." I sighed, kissing the top of her head. "Why can't you really be like this? Why are you so angry?"
She glanced up at me then, her eyes sad and worn.
"Because he hurt me."
"SETH!" A booming voice jerked me awake, making me gasp. I glanced around, finding Emmett standing over me, his golden eyes worried. "You're girl is here."
"What?" I asked, still groggy. He just shook his head, walked out of my room and down the stairs. I sighed, rubbing my eyes. My girl. Jolene? I bolted up, following Emmett into the living room. I heard a hysterical giggle, as I turned the corner and saw Jolene, held up by Jacob, her eyes blood shot. I could smell the acohol radiating off of her, making me gag. She glanced over at me her eyes going wide as she laughed again.
"Uh, oh!" She giggled. "It's the D.A.R.E romodel! I'm in trouble now." She burst into a fit of giggles, as my heart broke.
"We found her up at that party Sam made us break up. She's pretty whacked out." Embry mumbled, giving me a sympathetic look. Jacob released her, as she stumbled forward slightly. Esme gasped, reaching out, but I caught her first. She blinked, looking up at me with wide amused eyes.
"You are tall!" She giggled. She swayed a bit, making me grab hold of her waist. "I am seriously fucked up." She laughed. Esme gave me a sad look, almost like she was near tears with worry. That was Esme for you.
"Jolene," I said, my voice weak. She glanced around her head rolling. "Jolene, look at me." I whispered. She glanced up, the goofy smile on her lips.
"Yes mommy's boy!" She said, straightening and trying to look attentive. She bit back some giggles.
"What the hell did you take?" I asked, my hands shaking slightly.
"Um...well I had some vodka...and then I took this pill." She listed, flipping down her fingers with each thing she named off.
"Pill? What kind of pill?" I asked, my voice rising with panic.
"Wow, calm down Sethy! It was just a little pill." She shrugged, pulling back from my hold on her waist. I tightened my grip, holding her close to me. She frowned, shoving at my arms. "Let go." She snapped, hitting my arm. "I wanna go home."
"Seth, she's out of it-" Embry started.
"No." I mumbled, moving her toward the couch. "Just stay here for a minute." I urged.
"No!" She said stubbornly, squirming as I sat her down. "God, get away from me." I grabbed her arm as she began to try to hit me again. I didn't grip it hard, but she gave a cry, yanking away. "Stop!" She cried, tears filling her eyes. I immediately yanked my hand away, feeling worried. Jasper's nostrils flared, as he back away from Jolene. He darted upstairs, Alice following him immediately. Jolene didn't seem to notice, she was to busy glaring at me. I wondered what that was about.
"I'm sorry I didn't-" I stopped, watching as blood spread across her purple sleeve. That was why. "Jo..." I took her hand again, ignoring as she cried out in protest. I lifted her sleeve, revealing several different criss crossed cuts, some healed, some halfway healed and a couple freshly bleeding. I gasped, tears pricking my own eyes. She jerked her hand away from my frozen hand, shoving her sleeve back down. "Carlisle..." I called. He moved forward, glancing over her sleeve. I lifted it again as she struggled against me.
"Fuck off! Leave me alone!" Jolene cried.
"Oh, sweetie." Esme gasped, staring down at her too. Jolene glared at her, and then back at me.
"You did that...didn't you?" I whispered, my voice cracking. She just glared tanking her arm away and cradling her arm to her chest. Carlisle gave a sad look toward her, glancing over at his wife.
"Yes," She spat. The answer was like a dull knife shoved into my heart. "I cut myself. I use scissors and I cut myself and make myself bleed." She gave a little giggle, her face mocking. "You can look at me like I'm all pathetic, but you don't understand."
"Your can't hurt yourself!" I bellowed. Emmett lay a hand down on my down on my shoulder, pulling me back. I jerked away, grabbing Jolene's shoulders. "You can't do that anymore! You can't hurt yourself like that!"
"I can! I do! It's all that helps!" She spat, glaring up at me with angry eyes.
"Why do you hurt so bad that you have to do that? That you have to hurt yourself like this? Why?" I begged, grabbing her face in my hands. She shook her head, looking away from me tears filling her beautiful green eyes.
"He gave me scars on the inside. These are nothing compared to what he did." She whispered, tears falling from her eyes. I thought back to my dream for a moment. "Because he hurt me."
"Who? What did he do?" I asked, my hands shaking. I would kill anyone who hurt her bad enough to make her do this. She just glared at me, shaking her head.
"Your father?" Edward put in suddenly, raising his eyebrows. Jolene looked over at him, her eyes wide. "He... " Edward sighed, pinching his nose.
"What?" I said, glancing back at him.
"Shut up." Jolene put in her voice an angry growl.
"He was a pedophile. He's in jail now." Edward sighed, looking at Jolene with sad eyes.
"SHUT UP!" Jolene yelled, standing. I held her back as she lunged at Edward with wobbly feet.
"He hurt you? He did that stuff to you?" I gasped, frozen. She turned, hitting me. It was like a feather slapping against me. She began punching me again and again, and I just let her.
"Shut up!" She moaned, gasping as she gave a choked sob. Esme's face was filled with pain as she stared at Jolene. I wrapped my arms around her, holding her. She struggled a bit, before she finally slumped against me. Rosalie's fist was clenched as she stared at Jolene with a look of anger. I didn't understand what that was about.
"Esme, can she stay-"
"Of course sweetie. You can-"
"She can sleep in our room." Rosalie put in, her fist unclenched. Emmett glanced at her, putting his massive hand on her shoulder, kissing her hair. She leaned into him. I didn't understand Rose's sudden helpfulness...she had never really cared for me or Jake, but I nodded, lifting Jolene. Jolene gave a sniff, her eyes half closed.
"Thank Rose." I whispered, moving her up the stairs. I felt everyone's eyes on me, as I found Rose's room. I had never been in, but I opened it, setting her down on the large lavished bed. Whether she had passed out, or was asleep I wasn't sure. I smoothed back her red hair, kissing her forehead. I felt tears prick my eyes. What had her father done to her?
He was a pedophile.
It's all that helps.
He gave me scars on the inside.
I closed my eyes, a tear slipping. My shoulders shook with sobs. My poor Jolene...
"I'll never let anyone hurt you again." I whispered, kissing her hair.
Never again.
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