Chapter five!

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Jolene POV

I woke up with a massive headache. I'd never had a hangover this bad. I opened my eyes, closing them immediately to the light streaming through the window and groaned. This sucked.

I leaned up, rubbing my face. Jesus. This was the only thing I hated about alcohol.

I opened my eyes this time, letting my head pound as I adjusted to the light. I gasped. Oh god this wasn't my room. Where was I? I had never woken up somewhere I didn't know. This definitely wasn't a part of my house. It was a large room, with light purple walls, and a full length mirror. The bed was huge with a canopy over it and nice soft sheets. A door was open off to the side, revealing a huge walk in closet. I stood, moving toward it. It held several fancy dresses, and brand name girl clothes. Had I woken up in a mansion?

I tried to remember what had happened last night. I remembered getting drunk, partying with Aiden and Krya. I remember taking the pill... and I a fuzy giant taking me somewhere. Was he taking me here? What had he done to me?

Then I remember Seth. Why was Seth in my memories?

And then it clicked. The glass house, the pale beautiful people, Seth's giant pained eyes.

"You did this didn't you?"

"It's nothing compared to what he did to me."

"Your father?... He's a pedophile."

"SHUT UP!"

Oh god. Seth knew everything. He knew about my dad, he knew about my cuts, my scars. No...

I lifted my arm, shoving the sleeve up to find white gauze wrapped around my cuts. Blood spotted it slightly.

I had to get out of here. I had to leave. I stood, stumbling slightly as my head spun. I moved out of the beautiful room, down the hall down the stairs. I stopped though as I was met at the bottom of the stairs by the beautiful people from last night. They were fuzzy in my memories from last night but they were all to clear now. There were five of them, each breathtakingly beautiful in their own way.

The first one I noticed was the furthest from me, but he was hugest. He had curly black hair, with golden eyes framed in long black eyelashes. He looked no older than 19 or 20. He had large bands of muscles wrapped around his torso and arms that would give Seth a run for his money. He had a childlike innocence around him, but he was all but too serious staring at me his eyes filled with sadness. So they knew all about my episode.

The next was his opposite, a small pixie like girl with short spiky black hair. Her eyes were the same gold, but they were a bit brighter as she stared at me. She bounced slightly on the balls of her heals, looking like she wanted to run at me. She was so small, with tiny little features that fit her perfectly.

The other was the most beautiful, with long blonde hair, perfectly curled. She had black eyes instead of gold, with perfect features. Her body had curves in all the right places. It was a body that would make any guy drool.

The one next to her was tall and less muscular than the giant one. He had reddish hair that was windswept and sticking in all directions. His eyes were a mixture between black and gold. His face was curious instead of filled with pity like the others.

The last one was the oldest looking, around her mid twenties. She had a gentle heart shaped face that was framed by soft carmel curls. She was shorter than the blonde, but bigger than the pixie one. She looked up at me with a worried almost motherly look. It made my heart ache, because my mother never gave me that look and a total stranger could.

Seth appeared behind the large one suddenly, his face panicked almost as he looked over at me. In a couple massive strides he was in front of me, making me take a step back. "Jolene." He whispered, his voice laced with pain and worry. I flinched away from it, not wanting this. I didn't want pity.

"I'm- I'm going. I wanna leave." I whispered, feeling odd having all of them watching me. I didn't want a big production of my screwed up life. Total strangers already knew how screwed up I was, and I definitely didn't need this.

"Jolene," Seth repeated, but this time it almost sounded scolding. Like I was stupid for wanting to leave. "We...we need to talk." He sighed, glancing down at my bandaged arm. I shoved the sleeve down, folding my arms.

"It's none of your business." I said, holding my head up. I squared my shoulder preparing to fight him to get out. "I'm going." I said again, moving toward the door again. He stepped in front of me his hand shooting out to block my way. I gritted my teeth and turned a glare toward him. "Move Seth."

He grabbed my cut arm, holding it up and shoving back the sleeve. I struggled against his grasp but he was to strong. "This," he said, his voice filled with pain, "this has to stop." He ran his fingers lightly over the bandage, his hand curling around my hand. I felt the goosebumps rise again, making me shiver. I yanked my hand away, and he let me.

"What I do to myself is none of your business." I hissed, shoving the sleeve down. I tried to duck under his arm and get out the door again, but he grabbed my waist, making me gasp as he pulled me back and held me firmly so he could stare down at me. He looked almost mad as he stared at me.

"What you do to yourself is my business. If your hurting yourself- I can't have you doing that." He growled, his teeth clenching. I stared up at him in fear for the first time since I'd met him. His hands squeezed my waist harder, making me gasp again. "You have to stop." He ordered. Tears rose up in my eyes as his grasp.

"Let me go...please." I begged. I hated that I was begging. I hadn't begged for anything since my father had ripped my legs apart.

"Stop daddy. It hurts, stop." I begged, shaking as he crawled over me. His dark face loomed over me, as he ran his hand down my little quivering body.

"Say the magic word Jojo." He laughed, his dark eyes boring into mine. Tears filled my eyes as the pain went through my center again. His eyes rolled back, his hand shoving my hands down.

"Please! Please daddy!"

I shook with the sudden memory, frozen in Seth's grib. Tears flowed over my cheeks, as I stared up at him in fear. A growl ripped through the room making Seth look up.

"Let her go Seth." A velvet voice, hard with anger, said from behind. Yes, let her go. I begged mentally. Seth looked at the owner of the voice in confusion but nodded as he released me. I stumbled back, wrapping my arms around my middle.

"Let me go home." I whispered. I didn't want to do this. I didn't want to-

"Face the truth?" The velvet voice said again, making me turn. It was the red haired one, his golden eyes boring into mine. "You don't want to face the fact that you're handling this completely wrong?"

I glared at him through my tears straightening. "You don't know anything." I hissed, wiping the tears from my face.

"I know you cut yourself because you want to make sure it's you hurting yourself, not others. You would rather make yourself bleed than give others the chance to make you bleed." He said, folding his pale arms across his chest.

"Shut up." Who the hell was he to tell me this? He didn't know.

"You will take anything- coke, pills, weed, alcohol- to drown out the pain. You don't care if it kills you, because you've been dead for a long time now." He said, moving closer. I felt tears prick my eyes again, because even if I wouldn't admit it those words were the truth. I had felt like I was dead since I was 11 and my father had made me bleed for his sick pleasures again. The red haired man leaned over me his eyes like hardened topaz. "You're going to kill yourself-"

"Stop." I begged.

"You keep it up and that's how its' gonna be."

"Edward." Seth growled, his eyes frantic as he stared between us.

"You're little sister, Alisa will be left alone and when he gets out he'll do the same to her if you die. She'll end up like you if you go." He hissed, his eyes boring into mine.

"NO!" I yelled, slamming my fists against his chest. That would never happen. I would never let Alisa die under that monsters smiling face. I would protect my sweet little sister. I continued banging on his chest, trying to hurt him. It was like hitting a stone building. My fists ached as I did it but I kept hitting him over and over. "Fuck you! You don't know anything. Fuck you!" A warm arm wrapped around my waist pulling me back as I began sobbing.

I wanted to die. That was true. But I couldn't so I was stuck walking through life like nothing. I couldn't be happy, I couldn't love. There was nothing left to me. My father had broken me away, chipping away all that was good and feeling about me. I was damaged goods. I was a whisper of what I used to be. What use was I to the world?

The arm pulled me close, and hot breath was on my ear. "I want you alive. I need you Jolene." Seth's voice whispered in my ear.

Why? What was I to you?

"I want you happy Jolene. I want you to smile and I want you to mean it. I want you to know I care about you. I will always care about you." He whispered gently, holding me so close I could hardly breath.

I broke down then.

Because I did have someone who cared.

Because he was a stranger and he cared more than my mother, who was supposed to love me always.

Because even though I had wanted to die for a long time, as Seth whispered in my ear with such feeling, with such love, I realized I did want to live.

Somewhere deep down I wanted to live.

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Seth POV

Jolene passed out of exhaustion after she sobbed for what seemed like forever. I just held her, trying not to cry too. I felt like my heart was being ripped out. I couldn't stand her being this sad. It hurt me so bad too. She should be smiling, she should be happy but her bastard of a father had hurt her so badly. If I ever saw that man I swear to god I would rip him limb from limb. I would tear him into small peices and burn him alive. I would-

"Seth please." Edward sighed, glancing at me in half amusment half exasperation.

"I can't help it." I mumbled, not taking my eyes off of Jolene's still form. "She just...I can't take it seeing her like this." I whispered, running a hand over her soft red hair.

"She's going to take a while to heal." Rosalie put in absentmindedly. She was staring at Jolene, her face far away. My eyebrows furrowed trying to understand Rosalie's sympathy for Jolene. She didn't seem to like humans as much as Alice or Emmett. Bella had mentioned a couple of times that Rosalie used to hate her for being human.

Emmett reached out for her, wrapping his arm around her waist and pulling her down on his lap. She leaned down into him, closing her eyes against his neck as he murmured something too low for me to hear. I glanced away feeling like I was intruding somehow.

"She.... surrendered to you a bit." Edward said, glancing at Jolene softly. "She found that she didn't want to die as much as she thought."

I felt hope surge up at that, a small smile coming across my face. That's what I wanted. I wanted her to want to live. If she died- I close my eyes at the thought and tried not to think of that. I couldn't even imagine that. I ran a hand over the bandage on her arm, wondering how many scars she had from her doing. She had to stop.

"She'll get better." Alice put in suddenly. "I can't see very many things of her, you seem to be around her a lot. But from what I can see... she gets happy." Alice gave a small smile, staring at Jolene. I closed my eyes, getting happier and happier. She had me around. She was going to be happy.

"Thank you Alice." I murmured.

Edward gave an amused laugh suddenly, glancing over at Alice. She gave a shrug at him, a small smile playing at her lips. "What?" I asked, glancing between the two. They seemed to have some odd conversations that no one else could get in on sometimes. It was annoying.

"Alice likes your imprint." Edward said, and amused grin on his face. Bella gave a small grin as she looked over at Alice.

"We end up friends!" Alice smiled widely, bouncing slightly in her seat. Jasper gave his wife an amused grin, squeezing her shoulder. "She goes shopping with me." Alice said, glaring over at Bella. Bella shrugged as Edward twirled a piece of her hair with an grin.

"At least you won't bug me anymore." Bella shrugged.

The Cullen's, my extended family, liked her. She was already cared about by so many. I hoped she saw that. I hoped she understood that we all loved her too.

I hoped she would let me in now.

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Jolene POV

I didn't remember passing out. I just remembered crying a lot, and then waking up to the sound of a giant woop followed by the sound of television. I groaned, and turned away from the sound, just wanting to continue sleeping. A cold hand lay on my arm followed by a gentle whisper.

"Jolene?" The voice was soft and tinkling, like chiming bells.

"Mmmm." I moaned, my eyes fluttering open. I stared up at the motherly pale women from earlier. She gave me a soft smile, leaning back.

"Hi," She said tentatively. "I'm Esme Cullen. We fixed some dinner for Seth and you, if you want to eat."

My stomach growled, answering for me. A booming laugh sounded from a couple feet away, making me look up. The big guy from earlier was grinning at me, dimples popping up on his pale cheeks. "The human hungry?" He laughed again, turning back to the TV. Human? What did that mean? The blonde goddess looking one slapped him in the back of the head, giving him a glare. He rubbed his head where she had hit, sticking his lip out in an amusing pout. The girl's lips twitched slightly but she continued her glare.

"Would you like to come eat?" Esme smiled, ignoring both of them. I wasn't sure of what to do. These people knew everything, but they seemed to be fine.

"Come on Jolene. Esme makes a mean steak." Seth piped up suddenly. I glanced over at him for the first time. He had a huge grin on his face, like nothing was wrong here. He moved forward, holding out his hand to me. I looked up at him, his big smile, his plain happiness.

I took his hand, which made him grin even wider. He helped me up, steadying me as I wobbled a bit. He kept his grip on my hand as we made out way to the kitchen, Esme right behind us. The table was set for three, and a couple different dishes of food were set out on the table. "Um, well, there's noodles and mashed potatoes. Rice, steak and mac and cheese." Esme said nervously, pointing to each dish. I smiled at her, and her kindness that I didn't even know what I did to deserve. Seth sat down, letting my hand go as he piled the food onto his plate.

"Thanks Mrs. Cullen." I mumbled, sitting down next to Seth. "It looks really good."

"Of course. You're welcome here." She smiled, setting her hand on my shoulder. I smiled back as she moved away with a grace that made me jelous.

"Esme's the nicest person you'll ever meet." Seth grinned, shoving a pile of food in his mouth. I grabbed a bit of food, not eating any. What was I doing here? I remember earlier, and the harshness of the... Edwin- Edward boy. I remember freaking out in front of everyone and here I was sitting at their table, eating their food. Seth's grin faded a bit as he saw my face. "What's wrong?"

"I- Who are these people?" I whispered, making sure they didn't hear. Seth gave a soft smile.

"Some friends of mine. Embry and Jacob brought you here after they found you at the party. I was over here so..." he trailed off in a shrug glancing at his plate. I gave a nod, staring at my food.

"My aunt... she has to be freaking out-"

"We took care of it. Alice, the little short haired girl, called and said you were staying the night with her. She doesn't know anything." He said, shrugging his massive shoulders.

"Why would they do that? They don't even know me." I asked, perpetually confused at how someone would offer their house to a total stranger. And especially after my freak out earlier.

"They're good people." He said simply. Esme entered again, giving me a kind smile.

"Is everything alright?" She asked, looking at my sparce plate.

"It's great Esme." Seth smiled, the pile of food he had moments before practically gone. Esme laughed, ruffling his black shaggy hair. I took a bite of the rice, tasting the goodness in my mouth. Esme watched expectatly.

"It's amazing. Thanks." I said shyly, but it lit up her face.

"Good." She said simply. "Eat all you want, it's just you to eating."

"You don't want any?" I asked. She just smiled and shook her head.

"We ate before." She said simply, moving out of the kitchen again, leaving me and Seth alone. We didn't talk much, as we both continued eating. Seth seemed fine with that, giving me smiled every once in a while. I'd smile back, wondering what on earth I did to make him care so much about me, or this family too care.

When we were both almost done, the small pixie like girl danced her way down the stairs, followed closely by a blonde haired man. He was the only one I hadn't seen so far. He was like the others, golden eyes and extremely gorgeous. He was different too though, as he stared at me with almost...hungry eyes. His jaw clenched and his nostrils flared, but he stayed calm. The tiny pixie moved forward a giant grin on her face.

"Hi Jolene." She smiled, moving to wrap her arms around me in a cold hug. I hugged her back, a bit surprised by her forwardness.

"Hi..." I mumbled. The blonde boy gave an amused grin as he watched the pixie dance back to smile at me again. "Um...I don't-"

"Alice. And this is Jasper." She grinned, gesturing to the boy behind her. He gave a nod, his jaw tightening as he looked over at me.

"Um... nice to meet you." I muttered, feeling slightly ackward. Alice didn't seem to feel it though, because she continued smiling.

"Seth told us about you. Its good to finally meet you." She smiled widely, looking over at Seth. I wondered what things he could have told her to make her this happy to meet me. I hadn't exactly been nice to him.

"Leave her alone Alice, you're gonna freak her out." A deep voice laughed, making me jump. Alice frowned, sticking her tiny tounge out at the pale giant who had laughed at me earlier.

"Aliceis gonna freak her out?" Seth laughed, eyeing the giant and the blonde goddess. "No." He mocked, laughing as Alice folded her tiny arms and huffed. Jasper chuckled at her from behind. "This is Emmett and his girlfriend Rosalie." Seth said, nodding at each of them. The giant, Emmett, nodded, giving me a wide smile. He made me slightly nervous, but he seemed kind enough. The blonde, Rosalie, eyes me curiously, an odd look in her eyes I couldn't identify. I gave them both a nervous smile.

"Hey." Emmett smiled, folding his arms over his muscled chest. His gaze made me blush. He grinned, giving a snicker at it. "It's about time we got someone to do that again." I didn't understand what he meant by that, but it made me blush redder.

"Knock it off Em." Rosalie scoffed, slamming her hand against this arm. He flinched rubbing the spot she had hit. It was hard to imagine that hurting him.

"Jeez Rosie." He whined, pouting like he had earlier. I smiled slightly at the ridiculous face, making the blonde girls smile slightly too.

I glanced at Seth, who was laughing at Emmett to, and wondered idly if I was finally getting my chance to be happy.

So there is chapter five. Hope you enjoyed. No flames please!

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