Sorry it's taken so long to update. I got some writers block and I was focusing on finishing my other story Broken on the Inside! Yay! I finally have completed a multi chapter story! Hooooray! lol
Now back to Coming Home! lol
Chapter 11! Wooooooooot!
P.S. To Perfect Love Kills All Fear- first off, thanks for the reviews! and second, Her dad isn't aloud to stay in the room with them without parental supervision. And he's not aloud to live or stay the night with them, that's why Jojo's mom bought a house for him.
Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight or any of the characters.
Jolene POV
"They know about the cutting?" Seth asked, his eyes filled with concern. I nodded, shoving around the mashed potatoes on my plate. He sighed, looking torn. "What did your... what did he say?"
I shrugged, rolling my eyes. "Nothing really. He said "things are going to change." Which means hes gonna set some "ground rules" or some dumb shit. Try to be my "daddy" again." I gagged, shaking my head. Seth gave a growl, a deep rumbling in his chest. The girls sitting near us at the caf table glanced over at him, their eyebrows raised and a couple giggles escaping. Seth ignored them completely.
"Do you wanna come to my house after school?" He asked, staring at me longingly. How could I resist that look?
"Yeah, Alisa too." I said immediately. I would never send that her home alone with him. Seth looked annoyed for a minute, but nodded. "We can leave her with your mom and then head off to the beach or something. Just as long as she's not at home alone with him." I said. Seth perked up a bit, smiling at me. I smiled too, never able to resist smiling when Seth did. His happy demeanor was infectious.
The bell rang overhead, making me jump. Another 2 and a half hours of boring school. At least I had the next class with Seth. So I stood with him, throwing out the food and walking with him, hand in hand toward class.
Seth took me home after school to get a couple things and pick up Alisa. I told him to stay inside the truck, saying I would be a couple minutes. I really just didn't want to take the chance that he would see my dad. I wasn't sure if he was home, and I wasn't taking the chance. So I made my way inside on edge. Alisa's back pack was inside, left on the floor. I headed toward her room, glancing around for any sign of my father. Her pink door was closed, and I didn't hear anything inside. I jerked the door open, stopping in my tracks.
My father was there, all alone with her. She looked nervous and scared, as dad had her up against the headboard, his had reaching toward her. His head snapped up when I jerked the door open, his hand coming back to his side. I felt anger and blinding rage fill me.
"Get away from her!" I shouted, as Alisa ran around him and hiding behind me. Dad stood still looking calm and collected.
"Don't start Jolene." He sighed, pinching the bridge of his nose. "I was just talking with Alisa. Just talking with my daughter." He glared, his eyes challenging me.
"Your not supposed to be alone with her. You're not supposed to be here at all." I hissed, grabbing Alisa's hand and squeezing it tight in mine. "I swear to god if you touch her I'll-"
"Jolene?" Seth called, his voice panicked. "Jojo!"
"Seth!" Alisa cried, running toward his voice. He was already down the hall and scooped her up.
"Who is this?" My dad asked, sounding angry. I felt Seth's body heat pulsing behind me as he walked up. He loomed over my father menacingly, his free shaking hand coming to rest on the small of my back.
"What are you doing here alone?" Seth growled, his hand shaking worse than ever behind me. My dad straightened, his nostrils flaring in anger.
"You need to get out of my house away from my daughters." My dad snapped back, of course avoiding the question. Seth took a step forward, a loud growl emanating from his chest. I turned, shoving back on his chest.
"Lets go Seth, lets leave." I urged, shoving against him. It was like shoving against a brick wall. He was strong and immovable. "Seth, please." I begged. He took a deep breath, glancing down at me with flat black rage filled eyes.
"You're not going anywhere with this boy." My dad snapped, standing up straighter and glaring at Seth. What the hell was he doing? Didn't he know that Seth could kill him with one shove. Not that I wasn't apposed to that. I didn't want Seth getting in trouble for murder though.
"I have to go for school." I lied immediately, turning back toward him. He glared at me for a minute, challenging me again. But I just stared back, my hand still against Seth's shaking arm.
"Fine, Alisa can stay here and wait for your mom." He said, evening out the score. I clenched my jaw.
"Okay, and I'll go down to the station and tell them your alone with a 6 year old." I evened it, making his face pale slightly. I reveled in the slight triumph.
"No court is gonna tell me what I should do with my kids. I can stay alone with both of you if I want." He snapped, stepping forward.
Seth set Alisa down and pushed past me standing like a giant wall between me and my father. "You take another step toward either of them and I'll beat you so bad-"
"Hello? Who's here?" Tylee's voice rang through the house, instantly silencing us all. Alisa was down the hall in her arms in an instant. Tylee and my mother stepped into the hallway looking at the whole scene. "What is going on?" She asked, instantly on edge.
"I came home to him," I jerked a finger toward my father, glaring at my mother. This was her fault. "Home alone with Alisa. You know he's not aloud to stay with either of us alone! I could call the police and-"
"Stop Jolene, I can't deal with this right now." She snapped, glancing at Seth nervously. She always wanted to keep the picture of a sweet perfect family in everyone head. "Your father is fine being here with both of you."
"The law says he isn't." Tylee snapped, glaring over at my mother. "If the police found out-"
"They can't tell us how to live our lives. This is my family-" My father started, still glaring full out at Seth.
"Oh SHUT UP!" I yelled, making his face turn toward me in shock. Seth looked back at me too, his eyes full of worry. "This isn't your family! I'm not your family, Alisa's not your family! The only family you have is her," I snapped, pointing at my mother. "And that's because she's to blind and ignorant to face the fact that your a sick perverted bastard-"
"Jolene Taylor I won't-" My mother started.
"Who rapes children! You raped me over and over, and you made me bleed! He would sneak in my room and touched me all the time! All under your nose mommy! You don't even care. You won't even look at me!" I cried, tears all down my face by now. None of them said anything, not even Seth. He stared at me, pain and rage written all over his face. I took a deep breath, my whole body shaking. My father glared at me, his eyes almost... betrayed.
"This is just the two of us, Jojo. We're all alone together."
I closed my eyes against the memories, running a hand over my hair.
"If I ever find him here alone with Alisa again, or if you leave him alone with me, I'll call the police." I breathed, glaring straight at my mother.
"You won't do anything like that." She snapped back, taking a step forward. Seth pulled me back, obviously remembering the time she hit me. She glared over at him, her eyes then coming back to me.
"Try me mom. Fucking try me." I glared back. I'd never wanted to hit my mother before, but my hand tingled for me to hit her. I wanted to slap some sense into her. I wanted to hurt her like she hurt me.
"Go to your room, you can stay there all night till you apologize and admit that your lying." My mother said, straightening. Her face smoothed over, that fake calm and none caring look replacing the anger.
"She's leaving with me." Seth ordered his hand wrapping around my waist. My father watching his hand snake around my waist, his anger seemed to double on his face.
"She's staying home." My father countered. Seth was already pulling me away, ignoring my father like he wasn't even there.
"Alisa." I begged, stopping and reaching out for her. She came into my arms easily, burying her tear streaked face into my neck. "We'll go see Alice." I assured her. But my father was there suddenly, jerked my arm toward him.
And that was it for Seth's self control.
He shoved my father so hard that he flew back into the wall. My mother gave a cry, immediately moving toward him. Seth jerked toward him again, but Tylee grabbed his arm, making him jerk to a stop. His whole body quivered, his eyes so rage filled it almost scared me. Alisa was sobbing now, shaking in my arms.
"Don't ever TOUCH her again!" He roared, as my father began to stand.
"Get out of this house!" My mother shouted, looking near tears.
"Seth, lets go." I whispered, grabbing onto his other arm. "Seth, please!" I begged, crying too. This whole thing was too much. I just wanted to get away. I just wanted to leave. "Please." I whimpered.
"Get out of here Seth, go sweetie." Tylee mumbled. Seth backed away, wrapping his arm around me and holding me close. Tylee followed us out, seeming so shaken. "I'm following both of you."
"I want Esme." I whimpered, feeling like a child again. I couldn't take this anymore. I wanted Esme. I wanted my mom. Or the closest person to my mom. Seth nodded, kissing the top of my head.
"I love you." He breathed, helping me into the truck. Alisa didn't let go of me as we made our way to Esme's, Tylee's car right behind us. I stared out the window in a daze. Seth could have killed my father. I could kill my father. I didn't want this anymore. I couldn't stay with them anymore. I couldn't stay near him everyday. If my mother was going to leave us alone with him, I couldn't stay there anymore. It was hardly safe before, but now there was no where to go. I was done.
"Oh, Jojo what happened?" Alice asked, already at the door when we arrived.
"I-I want Esme." I whispered, tears already filling my eyes. "Please I want Esme." I begged, shaking with sobs. Alice moved toward me at human speed, careful around Tylee, and wrapping me in an embrace.
"Shhh, she'll be back soon. She's out hunting. She's coming." Alice whispered, rubbing my arm gently. She leaned back, wipping my tears away softly and turning her head toward the house. "Jasper." She called.
I knew it was coming but it still caught me off guard. The overwhelming calm that settled in my stomach and spreading through my whole body. "I just want Esme." I repeated, closing my eyes against the calm. Alice nodded, wrapping a strong cold arm around me and pulling me toward the house. I was just so tired and exhausted. I was tired of this life. I was tired of trying to be strong. I wanted to just give up. I heard Tylee murmuring with someone behind me, but I didn't really care what she was saying. Alice led me to the couch, letting me settle into it and bringing me a blanket.
I stared at the white couch, feeling so tired. I felt like something was broken inside me again
I wanted to be someone else. I wanted to be in a different life. I wanted to get my release, cut myself. I wanted some drugs to float away for just a little while. I just wanted to die away.
"Don't start that again. If Seth finds out he'll freak out. Do you want Seth scared again?" Edward asked from somewhere behind me. I didn't turn, I just continued to stare at the white blankness of the couch.
Seth doesn't understand. You don't understand.
"No, I don't really understand. My parents were good people. They were what parents were suppose to be. As are Esme and Carlisle. And Seth doesn't either. But his love for you makes up for that." Edward said, his velvet voice soft and low, like a sweet lullaby.
Love doesn't help anything. I still hurt. I still feel like I wanna die.
"Maybe because you haven't let yourself be open to Seth's love. You don't really let anyone love you." Edward said simply. "You still don't think your lovable. You still don't care enough to let others love you."
You don't know anything.
"Of course. I wouldn't know at all what your thinking." He chuckled, his voice sarcastic. I just glared at the white couch.
How do I let him love me? Why would he love me like that? I'm just damaged goods.
"Rosalie thought that too. She did the same thing you did. She pushed Emmett away over and over until she realized that he was the only thing that could make it all better." He sighed. "You're not damaged goods. Seth views you as hurting. Not damaged. He wants you to stop hurting. He wants to help you stop hurting. He loves you unconditionally. Forever." He gave a soft sigh, his voice soft and kind. "Not many people get that."
I bit my lip now, trying to fight back the tears. I didn't want to cry again. I didn't know what else to say. I knew Edward was right, he knew all that Seth was thinking. Seth didn't view me as damaged goods. That made me... happy.
I just want Esme.
"She's almost here. I can hear her thoughts already. I'm sorry Jolene." I heard him stand, turning and leaving me alone with my thoughts.
I couldn't go back home. I couldn't go back to the yelling and the constant fight. It was to much. I would break eventually, and he would swoop in. He preyed upon the weak and I was nothing but weak right now. I hated being weak.
"Oh, Jolene." Esme's voice filled me up, and and knocked over whatever wall I had up. I began sobbing again. She came to the couch, wrapping me in her arms and rocking me gently. "Shhhh, love. It's okay."
"I don't wanna do this anymore." I whined, laying my head in her lap. She ran her fingers through my hair, rubbed my arm, wiped away my tears.
"Don't say that Jolene. It will all be okay." She murmured.
"It won't. She won't l-leave him-m. She'll a-always choose his side. S-she's never c-cared." I sobbed, my shoulders shaking.
"I'll always love you Jolene. You'll always be my daughter." She assured me.
"You don't think you're lovable."
"I don't wanna go back." I whispered, sniffing. "I don't want them anymore."
"We'll work it out sweetie. We'll make it work." She sighed, leaning down and kissing my temple. "You're a part of this family now. We'll protect you."
"I love you Esme." I whispered. She gave a soft sigh, rubbing my arm gently.
"I love you too Jolene. Forever."
I want to let them love me.
I want to let Seth love me.
Love felt so sweet.
There you go! No flames! A lot of drama in this chapter!
Peace loves.