Chapter 13 loves.

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Jolene POV

My aunt called about an hour later, telling me that Alisa and me should come home. I felt a sudden nervousness in my stomach, feeling Seth's handshake in mine. "Tylee I can-"

"I'll be staying here the next few days. I talked to your mom, and I assured her that I would be saying something to the police if he was alone either of you again." Tylee said gently. "I'll be here the whole time, I swear."

I sighed, closing my eyes for a moment. I didn't want to go home. I wanted to stay here with Seth and the Cullen's.

"It's just for now, sweetie." Esme whispered, brushing a peice of my hair back. "We'll get you away from him as soon as possible."

I sighed, looking up at her. Her golden eyes were wide and her sweet face stressed. I nodded, taking a deep breath. "I'll be home in a little bit." I sighed, closing my eyes against Esme's motherly touch.

"Alright, I'll see you then Jojo." Tylee said, and with a click the phone was off.

"I'll drive y-" Seth started, standing.

"Um, no." I said immediately. Seth gave a growl, glaring at me.

"I'll take them." Jasper said suddenly. That surprised me. Why on earth would Jasper suddenly want to take us?

"No, I can-"

"You nearly killed my dad yesterday." I said, folding my arms and staring at him. "As much as I want you to take me, I don't think it would be good to have you there again."

He glared at me for a long moment, but I could tell from the look in his eyes he knew I was right. His hands, already quivering, were a testament to the fact I was right. "We'll be fine." I whispered, and he gave a defeated sigh.

"They will be fine, Seth." Alice seconded, her words having more meaning than mine. They seemed to calm Seth more than mine did too.

"Fine, but I'll be patrolling around your house." He assured me. I nodded, feeling a bit better about that. I wrapped my arms around his muscled waist, savoring the feeling of his warm body and his familiar scent of rain and fresh cut grass. "I love you Jolene." He murmured, kissing the top of my head.

"I love you too." I said, leaning back.

I gathered my things and Alisa's, heading out to Alice's Porsche, Jasper and her not far behind. Seth gave me one more giant hug, assuring me he loved me and that he would be there tonight. Alisa hugged him too, squealing as he gave her sides a squeeze. Esme came forward, wrapping her arms around me and kissing my hair gently. "I love you Jojo." Esme whispered, bringing tears to my eyes.

"I love you too." I whispered back, blinking back the tears. Jasper sent a wave of calm over me, and for once I was thankful.

I sat with Alisa in my lap on the way home, holding her as close as I could. Jasper kept us both calm, so I just lay my head against the window and closed my eyes. I hated all this. I hated my father I hated my mother. They had ruined so much for me already, and somehow they still had the right to ruin my happiness now.

What could I do? Could I lie? I could go to someone, the social worker... say dad touched me. Anything to get him away again. I wouldn't feel the slightest big guilty for sending him away again. It was nothing he didn't deserve.

"Alice will be watching both of you." Jasper said suddenly. I glanced over at him, my eyebrows raised. "Not just because of what your father will do." He said, looking over at me meaningfully. I groaned.

"I said I wouldn't do it." I snapped, squeezing Alisa tighter.

"You're calculating right now." he said, watching me carefully.

"I was thinking of something to do to get away from him." I mumbled, running my fingers through Alisa's curls. She snuggled into my neck, sighing. She had been up late with Emmett playing video games, and was still half asleep.

"We're going to go to Charlie Swan, Bella's father. He's Sheriff of Forks, he'll help figure something out." Jasper said softly, glancing at both of us as he pulled into the driveway.

"Why did you drive us?" I asked, watching him. He gave a small smile, one of the few I had ever seen on his face that wasn't a direct result of Alice.

"Alice loves both of you, so I do. I'll help protect both of you because it would hurt Alice if something happened to you. I won't have anything hurt Alice." He said simply. I nodded, understanding. From my understanding, Jasper chose this lifestyle that was so hard for him and the Cullen family because of Alice. I had the feeling that Jasper would do anything for my little pixie of a best friend. She was so lucky, having someone like Jasper to love her. Jasper's eyebrows furrowed together as he watched me. "Why are you... longing?" I blushed red, glancing down at sleeping Alisa.

"You all are really lucky... having someone to go to.... to have all the time. You and Alice, Emmett and Rosalie, Edward and Bella. Its a lot of love in your face all the time." I mumbled shrugging. Jasper gave a deep chuckle suddenly catching me off guard.

"You don't see how much love comes from the dog when he see you. You have just as much love as anyone in my family." He said, giving me a soft smile. I blushed redder. Seth loved me... but I knew it wasn't like anything him and Alice had.

"It's not the same." I muttered, feeling suddenly sad. I wanted what they had. Alice and Jasper were like two halves, not complete until they were with each other. Jasper was never a step behind Alice, and Alice wasn't never to far from him. They had to have each other. Seth wasn't that into me.

"It is." Jasper said simply. "The imprinting compulsion is odd. Like nothing I've ever seen. But when it happens it comes with as much love as any of us have for our mates. All there is to Seth now is you. You define him."

I stared down at my hands, wondering if what Jasper was saying was true. He would know Seth's feelings better then me. I wondered if that was true. How much he loved me. The thought of that much love for me, just like Jasper had for Alice, was over whelming. It was more than my mother had ever given, more than my father.

"Th-thanks Jasper." I whispered, looking over at him one last time. "I love Alice too. She's more of a friend than anyone has ever been for me."

Jasper smiled, a soft gentle smile he only ever had for Alice. "Another reason I like you."

I smiled too, opening the door and slipping out of the car. I waved to him, Alisa still sleeping in my arms. I took a deep breath, opening the door and going in.

This was going to be hell.

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Seth POV

I paced back and forth outside Jolene's house, watching and listening for any disturbance inside. Edward and Alice were around the house somewhere too, watching over her.

I gave a soft whine, sitting down at staring. I wanted to walk in and take her away. Even if I didn't hear anything or see her, I knew Jolene was suffering. She didn't want to be there. She shouldn't have to be there with him. That sick bastard.

"She's tolerating it." Edward said, suddenly behind me. I glanced up at him, watching as he concentrated on Jolene inside. "She's dreaming of you."

My ear's perked up at that, as I looked back toward her house. What was she dreaming? Good or bad?

"Good. You should know she's been contemplating telling you she wants to be more than friends. She's afraid though." Edward mumbled.

I felt a sudden burst of overwhelming happiness. I gave a howl of joy, my tail wagging back and forth. Edward chuckled, rolling his golden eyes. Easy for him. He had the girl of his... well not dreams. He had his girl. I wanted nothing more than to be with Jolene, but had been distancing myself from her. I didn't want to make her think I was pressuring her. I didn't want her to run away from me.

"She's not sure yet though." Edward put in, killing my joy. I gave a grumble. "She's afraid you'll think she's damaged goods. She wants to talk to Rosalie about pursuing a relationship with you."

Rosalie? No! She'll say Jolene should jump a cliff before getting with me. I whined, shaking my giant head. Edward gave a soft laugh.

"Rosalie won't. She likes you better than Jacob and she realizes Jolene's feelings for you. Jolene's view of her relationship with you is similar to how Rose and Emmett used to be." Edward said, his eyes following a shadow moving across the window.

Rose and Emmett? We're nothing like them.

Edward turned toward me, a crooked smile on his lips. "Rosalie isn't as shallow and vain as you believe her to be. You'd be surprised how much in common you're Jolene has with her." Edward said.

I don't see it. I grumbled, shaking my head again. Does it have to do with what Jolene likes about her?

"Yes."

But you won't tell me? I sighed, looking over at him again.

"No, Rosalie's story isn't for me to tell." He said, and for some reason his fist clenched slightly. "As her brother, I will respect her past that much."

I never really see much... love between you two. Not like Alice and you.

He chuckled at that. "Rosalie and I aren't exactly compatible, but she is still my little sister. I still love and care for her. She's not as close to me as Alice, yes, but she's still my sister."

Jolene likes her... so I don't really have a problem. But if she ruins Jolene getting together with me I will. I growled, my tail twitching.

"She won't. Jolene loves you to much to be swayed. Even if she doesn't realize it." Edward assured me.

I gave a wolfish grin at that, happier than I had been all night.

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Jolene POV

"Seth?" I called, running. It was black... everywhere. No matter how far I ran it never got brighter. "SETH!" I yelled, falling to my knees. I began sobbing, my whole body shaking. "Seth please... please Seth."

My arms hurt, fresh cuts dug deep in them. Blood trickled down my pale skin, just like all the other times. "Seth.." I whined, rocking back and forth as I sobbed.

Warm hands wrapped around my waist, pulling me up and pressing me against his chest. "Shhh, I'm right here." He whispered, Seth's sweet voice filling my ears.

"It hurts." I whimpered, looking up at him. He was different, a glowing light around him. He looked like an angel, just like the Cullen's did.

"I'll take it away." He whispered, pressing his lips to my arms. The stinging lessened, and the cuts healed over. "Beautiful." He whispered, his hands running over the new angry scars.

"I'm not beautiful." I whispered, my eyes filling with tears. "Not like you."

Seth gave a smile, leaning down and pressing his lips to mine. Sudden overwhelming warmth filled me, and all the pain I held suddenly slipped away. "You've always been beautiful."

"Jolene!"

I gasped, jerking out of my sleep and blinking. My mother stood over me, her hard eyes angry. She leaned up, folding her arms and glaring at me. "Get up, we're going out today and I won't be late because of you." She hissed, turning on her heel and exiting my room.

I sighed, falling back against the pillows. My mother was beyond furious when I got home. Between Tylee's threats and my acts before she could barely even look at me- well beyond normal- she was so angry. She didn't say anything while Tylee was there of course, but once Tylee left she went at me.

"How could you do this to your father?" She hissed, her body shaking with anger. Her face was so furious, beyond anything I'd ever seen. "That stupid boy comes in here and hits him! And you just walk out like it was nothing? Don't you care at all?"

"No..." I snapped, glaring over at fridge. My mother sucked in an angry breath. "Dad's lucky Seth didn't do worse than give him a little bruise." I mumbled.

"You're ridiculous. All this bull shit about your father, getting him locked away because you were jealous of his relationship with-"

"Jealous?! I would never be jealous of anyone's relationship with him!" I cried, standing and glaring at her. "I hate him! What don't you understand about that?"

"Get away from me." My mother snapped, shaking her head and turning away. "I'm sick of looking at you. Sometimes I can't believe what a disappointment you are."

"Funny, I think the same thing about you." I growled, turning on my heel and heading toward my room.

I sighed, going out to the kitchen. My mother was there, her back to me, waiting for some toast to get done. I glared at her back for a long moment before plopping down next to Alisa. "Where are we going?" I asked. My mother didn't answer for a long moment, waiting till I was annoyed before finally answering.

"Shopping. We're getting things for your fathers house and some clothes for him." She stated in clipped tones, not even looking at me. I gritted my teeth and put on a smooth face.

"I'll go hang out with Seth." I said, stabbing at the food on my plate. My mother slammed down the plate she was holding turning toward me.

"No. We're going out as a family. And I swear to God if you ruin this for us, you're not going out anywhere for a long, long time." My mother hissed. Alisa looked between us, shrinking in her seat.

"Why do I have to go? I don't want to be there, you don't want me their. You want him all to yourself so why the hell would I go?" I sighed, rolling my eyes. She clenched her jaw, shaking her head.

"I just want our happy family back." She sniffed, looking away.

"Oh, please. This family never was happy." I mumbled. She turned back toward me, her eyes flashing.

"Before you had to go and ruin your father. Before you helped put him away." She snapped, folding her arms and glaring at me. There it was, the gap. The blame. It was all me. Not Trevor. Not the pedophile. Me. All me.

"What is it going to take for you to realize what he is? You gonna have to walk in on him rapping me?" I snapped, glaring over at her.

"You know," she continued as though I hadn't even said a word, "if Trevor was so horrible, why didn't you tell before? You said he did it for years, why did you wait until someone else told?" She hissed, her eyes hard and horrible. I froze. That was worse than anything she had ever said. I knew she didn't believe me, I knew she didn't want to, but that was worse than anything. I clenched my jaw, staring down at my plate. My mother took that as her winning, a vicious smile on her face. "Because you lied just like the others." She huffed, staring at me with a smug look.

I bit down on my lip trying to hold onto the anger that was going to burst over. And the pain. All I'd ever wanted was for her to believe me. Even if I had found a mother in Esme, I still wanted mine deep down. I wanted to just cut her off, not care what she thought but she was my mom. No matter how hard I tried I never really could just shut off the caring about what she thought. I still wanted my mommy to love me.

But she never had. She never wanted me. And my father had never wanted me for anything but to fulfill his sick pleasures. To my mother I was an object to please my father, and to my father I was a sex object.

I stood suddenly, dropping my fork onto my plate. My mother looked up at me, her eyes weary. "Go get ready." She ordered.

"No, I'm going to Alice's." I said, running a hand through my hair.

"Don't start with this. I swear-"

"I'M GOING TO ALICE'S!" I shouted, causing her to stop a look of shock on her face. I took a deep breath, before glaring back at her. "I'm gonna go to Alice's and be with Esme, because she loves me. She loves me like you're supposed to, like I'm her daughter. She's known me for 3 and a half months and she know's and cares about me more than you do." I hissed, slamming my hand down. "She's a better mother to me and Alisa than you have ever been. So I'm going and spending time with my mom, with Esme."

I looked at her shocked, angry face and realized how ugly and small she looked. I stared at her for one long moment before turning and heading toward my bedroom. My mother didn't follow, but I heard a glass smash and a string of curses. I grabbed up some different things, clothes, notebooks, a picture of me and Seth and shoving them into a bag.

"Jojo... don't leave." Alisa whispered suddenly. I turned, looking over at her, her little lip quivering and her eyes filled with tears. I sighed, going forward and picking her up. "Don't leave me sissy."

"Oh, 'Lisa I'm not leaving you." I assured her, running a hand through her hair soothingly. She sniffed, her little shoulders shaking. "I'll take you with me, I promise."

"Why doesn't mom love us?" She whimpered. "Why doesn't she love us like Esme does?"

I sighed, kissing the top of her hair. What was I supposed to say to that? What was I supposed to tell my six-year-old sister, for the reason that my mother didn't love us? "I... I don't know sweetie."

She wrapped her arms around me. "But Esme, Alice, and Rosalie love us. Right?"

I smiled, kissing the top of her head. "Yeah, they love us."

There was a sudden knock on the door downstairs, and I heard my mother rush toward the door. I heard several muffled talking and then someone making their way up the stairs to my room. I immediately was up and locking to door.

"Don't!" Alice's chiming voice called as I turned the lock. I undid it immediately, jerking the door open. There was Alice, Jasper just behind her, in all her glory. I sighed in relief, thankful for my physic best friend. I immediately wrapped my arms around her, savoring the sweet fragrance of freesia and roses. She hugged me back, chuckling.

"I thought you could use some help." She said, leaning back and smiling at me. Jasper sent a wave of calm over me, quieting the hurt and anger churning inside me.

"Thanks." I whispered to both of them. Alice nodded, her tiny head bobbing.

"You're both coming with us, so grab as many clothes as you can." Alice said gently. I nodded, dropping Alisa for her to run off. Alice followed after her, and I packed up some more things. Within minutes we were both packed and made our way downstairs to their car.

"Bye mom." Alisa called, watching my mother as we passed her in the kitchen.

My mother didn't say a word, just continued sorting through the papers she was looking at. I glared at her back as Alisa teared up. My mother didn't ignore Alisa like she did me, so Alisa wasn't used to this end of the stick. "Hope you're happy with him," I hissed, picking Alisa up again and exiting the house.

I hoped to God this was the last time I would ever be in there.

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Alice dropped me off at Seth's before heading off toward their house with Alisa. I wanted to be near Esme and the Cullen's, but I needed Seth more. Sue greeted me at the door, and something on my face must have made her realize how bad I needed to see him because she beckoned me in without a word. "In his room." She said, giving me a small smile. I nodded and thanked her, heading toward Seth's tiny room. I knocked, barely containing my tears.

"Come in." Seth called. I jerked the door open, seeing him on his little bed going through a magazine. He looked up, a smile spreading across his face at the sight of me, but quickly turned to a frown. "Jojo…" He whispered.

I crawled onto the bed, wrapping my arms around his waist and burying my face in his chest. His warm arms wrapped around me, kissing the top of my head. I began sobbing immediately, knowing I was in a safe place to break down. No one would hurt me here just love me.

"Shhh, I got you." Seth whispered, pulling me close and rocking me. I couldn't stop crying. I didn't want to be strong anymore. I didn't want to wear the mask of stone. I wanted big strong Seth to be strong for me.

At least for tonight.

There you go! Sorry it took so long.

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