Hey guys, wow it's been a really long time. 5 years...since I wrote this story. Not like anyone who read my story still goes to this site. But I'm finally updating it. I'm a lot happier than I used to be since I started...anyways. Here's Chapter 4 after 5 long years. =)
Once upon a time, Mom told me that there's another world after people pass away where you get to spend eternity with those whom you loved. I think about that world a lot lately, wondering if it existed for someone as pitiful and pathetic as me.
Today is the day I move on, today...is the day I would start looking at myself in the mirror with a smile. Today is the day, I will forget about Taichi...
I woke up with an excruciating headache. I felt like a zombie since I had no clue when I actually went to sleep last night. I was so tired that my memory decided to play tricks on me as somehow...my stupid head is telling me that Taichi put me to bed, kissed me good night, and slept next to me till I lost consciousness. I chuckled at the thought of that, wanting to slap myself for being a dreaming fool.
Taichi and I had breakfast together, I didn't bother looking at him since it's my first day...where I refuse to feel disgusted by myself. I felt proud of myself as I almost acted like a real sister. When I finally looked at him, I felt an electricity jolting my heart as it pounded...so quickly I thought I was going to die. I winced and bit my lips till it hurts. Taichi didn't seem happy for some reason...he looked weary, and sad.
"Tai..you ok?," I felt myself asking a pointless question.
"Yeah, of course, why wouldn't I be," he frowned and walked out of the room.
His tone..hurts...I've become overly unnecessarily sensitive over the years, I told myself and tried to brush the comment off.
Taichi drove me to school. I stole glances at him while we were in the car...I wanted so badly to ask him if he was okay again, if there was something I could do. But every time...I held back, I'm such..a chicken. As I got out of the car, Taichi grabbed my arm, and hugged me.
"Tai..." I sighed as I took in his scent...the scent that always leads me into a trance where I can find no way out...where I get so lost..or maybe, I wanted to get lost in it. It doesn't matter now...
He pulled me back into the car and kissed me on the cheeks. I heard a faint moan escaping from my lips and blushed like an idiot. It's all innocent to him...but I'm taking it all wrong..I know I am..I bit my lips again, this time, it bled. The taste of copper made me nauseated as I got out of the car, needing air. I took a deep breath and waved at Taichi, and started walking. I never looked back, because that was the end....for me. The end of a stupid dream that will never become reality because..it's that..disgusting...that it makes me sick thinking about it no matter how beautiful it could be...
Maybe...that world...would accept me, after all. Maybe someone like me deserve love too?...I'm not sure. Maybe...as I was finishing talking to myself, I felt warmth from the back....strong hands, held onto my waist, someone...breathing down my neck that almost tickled. A familiar scent that smelled so...intoxicating that almost put me to my knees..
"Hikari...I care about you a lot..you know that?.." Tai's whispered into my ear...all I could felt was his hot breath making my head spin...
I closed my eyes, I felt...hopelessness enveloping me. No..that world doesn't exist for me because love..doesn't exist for me. Taichi is my brother...I started sobbing.
"You're crying." He sounded pained. I felt him pulling me to a corner. He just held me there, guarding me like a brother should be doing. "I know you have been unhappy lately, I wish you would just talk to me, we used to be so close." I heard what he said...but I was being greedy and just wanted to enjoy being held by Tai.
I looked up, and something..came over me. I felt crazy, I leaned up, and licked his lips. I felt scared for two seconds then realized he didn't back off. He just stood there, looking at me...and it wasn't the stare of horror. I pressed my lips onto his...they opened up...I moaned softly, my entire body hot. I snaked my hand under his shirt, I just wanted to feel his warmth....but I must be insane. I closed my eyes and decided it was too late to care...
Then...it was shattered as I heard the sound of panic..
"What...are you..doing..."
Hope you guys liked it...I'll try to update soon but school has just been crazy...