A/n: okay, here's chap 2! It gets more in depth of what happened to Roxas in his younger days!

Hope ya'll like it!

Chapter 2

Well, I have been unpacking my boxes for over four hours now. The room seemed to fill with a homey feeling very quickly. It made me sick. I decided to move around my bed, dressers, and desk. I didn't want this place to be like home anymore than it needed to be. I was here to forget my life, not relive it.

I was going to start a new school in three days because everyone had a long weekend. Oh, I never mentioned that here on Destiny Islands, college doesn't start 'til your 20 or you get to skip grades. It's not fun, but hey, life isn't always fair. I learned that the hard way…

"Roxas, come down for dinner, okay honey? It's your favorite!" My Mother yelled up the stairs, still not having a change in her voice. It was still sickeningly bitter-sweet.

"Okay, Mom, I'll be down when I'm hungry." I never liked eating with people, it just made me feel…..watched. That's why it was hard to be in jail and eat. I always made sure I just didn't eat. That's why I'm so pale and skinny.

"Okay, Sweetie! If you're too long I'll warm it back up." I knew she would anyways, she's just like that. I can't say I hate my Mom, but I can say she gets annoying a lot and very easily.

Either way, I ignored her and went about my boring life. I had put my clothes in messy piles all over my floor and room, not feeling like packing them away. It made me feel normal. I knew I wasn't, and I tried my best to though.

Before drugs and everything, I wasn't a bad kid. In fact, I was the perfect child, really. I did what I was told, and never threw a fit. I was cute, small, and just damn adorable. Everyone loved me. It was up until 13 that I was like that. I got into Seifer's gang, and it changed me completely.

I had parties at your normal kid places, hung out with the sweetie pies and angels. No one would have ever thought that I would become a reckless ganger. But no one knew that I had anger issues and serious manic disorder. I never even knew 'til my first visit to juvi. It explained nothing at all, considering I had never done anything wrong in my life.

My Mother cried for weeks after she found out I was going to prison. I didn't care though, really. I just wanted to die after killing my best friend, Hayner. I was high and drunk. Not a good combination when you have a machete on hand.

--Flashback--

"Hey, Roxas! Wa'sup? Mna, you don't look too good….. you feelin okay, man?" Hayner was walking towards me, with a worried look on his face. I was smirking darkly, hiding the knife behind my back.

"Oh, I get it, your mad about me turning you in, right? Look ,I'm sorry 'bout it man. But my 'rents need the money and I couldn't let you get away with that murder. Or any of them for that matter. It's for your own good."

He walked forward, and I laughed, menacingly. He cringed, and I smirked darker.

'Just a little closer, Hayner. You'll understand it all soon enough.' I just laughed more evily to myself, proud of the plan. I was proud of what I had done to that lady. She deserved it. They all deserved it! Hayner was going to be an easy kill. He'd never expect me of all people.

Hayner took a step closer, and was now in range. I pulled out the knife, and it glistened in the small light of the lamp post above us. His reflection was in the blade, and I smirked darkly yet again. My mind was telling me this was right, and it felt good to know it would end. My hands shook as I lifted it to him. He stumbled backwards, in fear.

"Sorry, buddy, but you've gone too far this time. No one turns on me, no matter who they are. They got what they deserved, and so shall you!" He gasped and tried to scream, but he couldn't out of fear. I raised the knife to his throat, and slit it smoothly. Blood spurted out, and onto my own body. I stabbed his heart, just to make sure it was the end. He fell over onto the blood splattered ground.

I put down the knife, and laughed to myself. "Maybe you've learned a lesson, huh? Hayner? Is that the last time you'll bother the guys and me? I hope it is, or we'd have a big issue to take care of."

With that, I turned my back to the dead body, and now flickering light post. I stalked off into the night.

--End Flashback--

If only I had known that didn't have to happen to save myself. If only I had never gotten involved with Hell's Worst Nightmare. None of this would have ever happened, and I'd still be home. Home was gone now, along with Hayner. I did something really stupid and regrettable that night. I can never forgive myself for it. Now, I must live with it for the rest of my life.

Hayner was the brother I never had. I had two other close friends; Olette and Pence. They were brother and sister. I hung out with the three of them every day of my life. We all hated Seifer and his gang. But that didn't stop me at 13 when I joined them. I left my old, good gang alone, and it ruined my life. They wouldn't even look at me; let alone hang out with me.

I hated when they would look at me. Their eyes filled with hatred and rage. They all wanted to kill me, except Hayner. He knew I was lost, confused. He tried to help me. That was why he called the police on me that night. I killed him right after.

I was lost and confused, he was right. I didn't know what to do, who to trust. It was hard when I finally chose my side when I killed my best friend. I got a horrid rep with the town, and no one liked me. My gang just used me, and I knew I screwed my life up.

I took out a photo album I found in one of my boxes. I had put it on my bed to look at later. I sat on my bed, and opened it. I flipped through some pages. They were all of me and my first gang. It was our trip to the beach. Olette and Pence were in the water, and me and Hayner were chasing each other with water guns.

The other pics were of the four of us doing other things. There were some of us at the amusement park. Some more of them were more beach ones. Then the others were of us just hanging out at random places. I really did miss those days. But I chose my life, and they weren't part of it.

I still wasn't hungry, so I turned on my laptop that I had found, and plugged it into the wall. I went onto my Facebook, and looked at all my emails. I had quite a few…

Most of them were 'Where are you?', 'Did you get bailed?', and 'When will you be back?' I didn't feel up to answering any of them right now, so I just went onto You Tube, and watched random videos that I had made with Hayner when we were kids.

I started getting bored, so I went searching through my files. One was a school guide for Destiny High. I opened it up, and started looking through it. I had apparently already been applied for it, thanks to Mom. It didn't have uniforms anymore, apparently, so I was fine. It had mostly preps, so I was pissed. Preps made me ticked off because they always thought they were special.

Mom, how could you do this to me?!

A/N: so, here's chap. 2! It was hard to write because I kept having writers block. It sucks, man!

Well, hope you all liked!

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