(A/N) Well Well Well. Since I can't post as usual as other writers, I wrote a 4,660 word chapter. I personally thought that was pretty good considering how many exams and assingments I have at the moment. For this I would LOVE reviews. The song used in this chapter was Sara Bareilles- Love song.
DISCLAIMER: I do not own Twilight! Although I can dream about Jaxon and Jasper!
I'd like to send my thanks to
Daphne13 - as I thought about her idea as writing this chapter.
Rupture de l'aube - whom copied all my pdh textbook from school just so I could write more!
I'd also like to thank all my reviewers, and story alerts.
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I hated road trips when I was little. I used to whinge to Renee about them, even as I felt the motion give me headaches and drive my stomach into oblivion. She was either driving too fast – or not fast enough. I always found it so irritating that time went so slow. 10 minutes was like 10 hours, and it drove me insane. Turning into a vampire was different; you had all the time in the world. It's a wonder why I wasn't lazy. Time and seconds, light and day, day and night, dark and light – every moment, every thought at a million miles per hour;
and enough time to think about the past.
"Moommmmmm are you even going anywhere?! I bet you're driving me round and round just to annoy me."
I moved down the seat with a sick feeling in my stomach, I only just had a massive Maccas meal and now I was regretting it.
"Would you LIKE to turn back dear?" Renee said, whilst turning into the right lane – over taking a massive truck that missed our mirrors by millimetres.
"Just drive Mom, I need to see Charlie."
I shook my head; I never got to see Charlie, and when I was away I used to dread the fact that he could die and that I never got to spend enough time with him. I used to be such a pain to my mother when I was little. Then I ran her life – Keeping her in healthy boundaries. Funny how that works isn't it. I sighed, I would never see my mother again – she would notice my differences and I'd have to lie. I could never lie to my own mother – It would turn me into a break down.
I blamed Edward for this – Even though I would have chosen this life anyway, I at least wanted to say goodbye. Jasper told me that I was reported as missing, and that I had to fake my death soon. Who wants to turn up at their own funeral?
Jasper looked over me at that – My feelings had turned from wonder to pain. With a shocked expression he took my hand and kissed it, keeping one hand on the wheel and no eyes on the road.
He stared deep into my eyes and waited, he knew I would crack in 5, 4, 3, 2, 1…
"I was just thinking about Renee, and Charlie." I whispered. He looked at me in awe, then questioning.
"Do you regret it Bella?" He asked. He then pulled over to the side of the road, pulling Carlisles black Mercedes into the stopping lane.
He stroked my granite skin, from cheek to chin. "Do you regret the loss of your blush?"
He stroked my eyelids and kissed each one. "Do you regret the loss of your beautiful deep brown eyes?"
He kissed me slowly, then licked my teeth playfully. "Do you regret the sharp teeth that you have? Or the venom that runs through your body?"
I gasped.
"Well now you put it that way…" I joked, a smile playing on my lips.
He looked at me with a sad expression.
"Do you, like Rosalie – think that if the opportunity came up – that you would give away everything in the world – even me, just to be human?"
I almost screamed at him. "I wish you could read minds! Then you would see that this is not true! I love you Jasper, never doubt that. Nothing is as important, not children, not a family or a stupid white fenced house." I moved my hands to frame his face. "This is what I want; this is my future; Right here in my hands."
He smiled half heartedly; I knew he would just continue to think like this. So I couldn't have a mind reader who could understand straight away? I have an empath.
I moved quickly before sitting gracefully on his lap. He probably didn't see me coming since I still had newborn blood. Good.
I leaned into him and pressed my forehead to his, grasping my hands at his temples and staring hard into his eyes.
I gathered all my emotions and threw them into him head first; staring into his eyes at I did so. I noticed that his eyes slightly swirled under the weight of my emotions. So strong, so quick.
He burst into a colossal smile, and drew me in closer, hugging me.
"More Bella more!"
He gasped, half laughing.
I remembered the feeling I had when he first kissed me, the feeling I had when he looked after me after Edward, that feeling of Love so strong that it coaxed you to comfort.
He visually crooned at my emotions; sliding into the seat and hugging me as if he needed me melted into him.
Never in my life have I felt needed. With Edward I always felt insignificant – and when he told me I wasn't I knew he lied. But with Jasper – he made me feel like I had to be a part of him for him to survive.
Like I was supposed to be here in his arms, being held and loved.
I smiled, and he smiled too. Knowing exactly what I was thinking about. He kissed me softly, then let me climb back into my seat.
Yeah living for a few lifetimes isn't going to be bad with THAT sitting next to me,
Oh no I don't think it will be.
We were only a few hours into the car ride, but I had an idea.
I thought of the saddest thing I will have to experience; the death of Jasper. I threw it to Jazz and sat back and watched.
He slouched over the steering wheel and wailed, Intrigued I continued.
I thought of the first time I realised I loved Jasper, and brought it to my skin; this left him breathless – I could almost see love hearts shining above his head. I had to put my hair in front of my face to hide my silent laughter.
Best idea; I thought of my time as a human during PMS and made Jasper feel it. He started crying and shaking, then looked at the car beside him angrily. "How can they even be sitting in the right lane? That is an OVERTAKING LANE!" He wound down his window and started screaming through to an old blue Holden.
"HEY YOU!? Can't you see you're in the OVERTAKING LANE? PEOPLE DON'T GO 35 miles an hour IN A OVERTAKING LINE!!! GET OUT YOU BABOON!"
I started rolling around my seat; if I was human I would have been passing out from lack of air. I could not stop laughing. His Face!
He looked over at me then, shocked at his actions.
"Baboon?" I shuddered, still in hysterics.
"Isabella Marie Swan –Whitlock – Cullen, You are going to pay for that. When you leeassttt expect it."
By my gasps of breaths, he knew I didn't care.
It was so worth it.
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The wind whistled through the slight gaps of glass; the air whistled around me and though my veins. Igniting them with a blissful sent;
Humans driving around from place to place, trying to fulfil their every day jobs and lives; - Struggling on the little things, concerned for what to eat or whether someone would like a gift. It was so odd to think of that when they had such short lives, so fragile – like a flickering flame.
Who were we to disturb them? I laughed.
"Jasper, Come on I am not going back to that stupid car yard! I don't care how much you want a bike for that house. Anywhere but here!"
"Bell," He laughed, teasing me. "Stop being so much like Rosalie."
I gasped. "Jasper Whitlock how could you!?"
"I told you I'd get you back."
He laughed, pulling into the dreaded caryard. They didn't notice the car; but as soon as they saw my face, peering out of the window with a sullen expression they jumped up from their seats and rushed to the car.
Jasper leaned towards my ear and whispered quickly; "They have seen your face and think that we are fighting," He coughed into my shoulder to hide a laugh. "Play along by pulling away from me and storming into the dealer."
He temporarily dazzled me with his eyes; - that's my only excuse for getting off the car, storming past the dealers swinging my hair as I went, and slamming myself down on the seats. At human strength, of course.
Within seconds I had men all around me, Asking me if I wanted water, or tea. – Maybe I would like something stronger – like whiskey? We were in Mexico after all.
I turned behind me and saw Jasper looking at bikes; He looked up and winked at me. I grinned.
I ALMOST asked them whether I could have their blood. They were all over me, filling my nostrils with their burning sent. It was apparently different to me, it didn't burn – It called to me. I preferred my way, since burning didn't sound too fun.
Carlisle said it was because I had already adjusted to the scent of blood, I could see the pride in his eyes when he said that, he was just as excited for Jasper – Saying that finding his missing link was what helped him along.
I put my hand in one of the youngest of my 'group.' He seemed stand offish – more like he was there because he wanted to see why everyone else was. I pulled myself up with his hands and moved real close to his face, blowing my sent over his skin.
"Could you please take me to your office, Sir?" I whispered. Pulling on his arm to the general direction. He was genuinely dazzled, how gratifying.
He led me over to a small box cubicle with a desk, computer, and small window with heavy blinds. I stalked through the door, swaying my hips and sat on the desk; motioning with my fingers to close the door. I spoke quietly then,
"Close the blinds, and wink to the others as you do so. Then look at me as they are almost closed."
He did so, and I heard the men go crazy on the other side.
When the room was just us, quiet. I could see that the young man wasn't going to try and seduce me, good choice Bella. I motioned him to come to me and I whispered in his ear. "Can I please use your computer? I will only be here for a minute, you can stay here, just don't watch me."
He did, moving to the chair in front of the desk, this was obviously a conference room. I logged into my email account and read some of my messages; wincing. My mother's messages to me were so painful to read.
"Where are you Bella? I haven't heard from you in so long. Ring me soon?"
I will never be ringing her again, never feeling her head on my shoulder as she talked to me about her problems, never hearing her talk about Phil and how amazing he was. Was it bad that I only mildly missed her? Because I had so much more in this life? Probably, but I know that if Jasper wasn't with me I'd be going insane.
I slid my fingers through my long hair, and half stared at the boy in front of me, whom was reading from some car magazine he had in his office. He was handsome, blonde hair and blue eyes. Mildly built, obviously of German descent. He had long arms and legs, but wasn't lanky. He had angular bones around his cheeks, and delicate skin.
"Why are you staring at me, Is there something on my face?" He asked, still deep into his magazine. I smiled.
"I'm Bella," I said, sitting back into the computers chair, half reading the news lines. Obama became president? Wow. I shook my head, there was so much change going on in the world, and I was missing it – because there would be so much change elsewhere.
"I'm Jaxon." He said, showing his hand and looking up at me – Polite.
I shook his hand and smiled, it was nice talking to humans.
Jasper tapped on the glass, and sent a wave of humour to me. I didn't understand why people didn't feel it. You could feel your emotions changing – why didn't they notice?
I got up and kissed Jaxon on the cheek, I gave him my number and in turn he gave me his. I would be talking to him soon, it seemed bad form to meet such a nice boy and not become friends with him. – Especially when he didn't look at me like I was a sex toy.
Plus.
I re arranged my clothes to make them look ruffled, and walked outside, winking to Jaxon as I went. He looked at me thankfully and playfully blew me a kiss, which I returned.
Jasper held out his arm to me and I took it, walking to the car which now had a trailer and two shiny motorbikes; one sleek and silver – One red and subtle. They both looked extremely fast.
I could hear all the men on the inside whooping with Jaxon, he shrugged them off saying it was nothing, just like I hoped he would – that boy was going to be a fair bit more popular around his work place now.
We got into the car and I gave him my smug face, he grinned. We drove out the car dealer leaving a handful of sullen looking men. I laughed hysterically as soon as we were out of sight.
Jasper lifted my hand and kissed it. I swooned.
"Well at least you don't smell like human men." He teased.
We reached a highway and travelled on our way into the dawning sunset – Night was closing in this town, just as our trip was. But we will be back soon; I would miss the Amazons too much to leave them for long.
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"Tell me that you're alright." Jasper asked, looking at me then the road.
"Everything is alright." I said with a grin.
And it was.
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We reached Denali at about 6 am; which was so incredulous since it was quicker to run, but Carlisle wanted to see the Amazon clan a bit longer. He still had Edward.
Esme wanted to start decorating the Cottage, and drawing up its foundations so she could plan it from home. I laughed when she told me and told her she could take her time; we had years to figure it out. She laughed too.
The house looked a lot like the Forks mansion, although it looked bigger. It had a lot more glass and was covered in snow. It reminded me a lot of Ice vs. Metal. I loved it.
I heard Emmett and Rosalie inside; I shuddered. They would be 'Finished' by the time we walked in.
Jasper took some bags from the back of the car and led them inside. I kept most of my clothes in the cottage, and the others with me. I could always buy new things when I needed them. I was planning to buy a lot of houses over the world. I needed a lot of things to share around.
I ran into the house, carrying more than a human should even think about carrying – but this house was so secluded that I needn't have worried, so I didn't. It was in the middle of mountains, and had a hidden driveway. I supposed this was the Cullen Lair.
Flashback:
I whispered in fake fear; "Jasper this is the Cullen Lair isn't it. This is where you kill me?!"
He burst into laughter and continued to move boulders away from the mountain, which covered a large tunnel that looked more like a freeway then a driveway. I sighed; these Cullens never did anything half way.
I walked inside and inhaled the rich scent of my family. I could smell Esme and Carlisle in the lounges, Rosalie and Emmett on the Sofa. I could smell a slight taste of Edwards scent, although it was worn with time. I smelt Alice next to him. I missed her already; I wanted my Alice back.
Jasper ran upstairs and I followed him. We left our bags in a massive spare room, and ventured off into Jaspers old room that he shared with Alice.
On one side, there were Alice's clothes, and makeup Barbie-Time-Bella kits. On the other side was Jasper. There were old books of history, and old pieces of art. There was an easel and a magnificent amount of paint and paintbrushes. Oils, water colours – everything. There were pieces of coal, white and black, Crayons of expensive sort, pastels. Every art movement of the sort.
I looked at Jasper with wide eyes and pouted. "You never told me you were an artist." I said, moving to an angry expression. He just laughed and scooped me up, carrying me bridal style – just like he used to – back into our guestroom where we kissed and hugged each other.
"You'll see my latest idea the end of this week, when I can finally bear to be more than a metre away from you. The car dealer almost killed me." I sighed in contentment and nodded. He sure will.
Rosalie walked into our room then, flanked by Emmett. She rushed in and gave us both teddy bear hugs – too long with Emmett. Emmett kissed me on the forehead and gave Jasper a brother-like hug.
"You better have washed your hands guys." Jasper said shuddering.
"You would be wet if I didn't Jazzie." Emmett said with a corny grin.
We both shuddered then, but Rosalie just looked at Emmett giggling. Stupid over-physical sister.
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After our reunion, I was split from Jasper and taken into the studio to have some girl time. Rosalie played with my hair, curling and straightening. She said that she needed some time out since all the family was gone. She didn't look either happy or sad about it.
"Rose, I'm so sorry that I broke this family apart you know that right? I didn't mean to. I didn't know they would come back looking for us." I sobbed, looking to her – pleading.
She shook her head; her blonde hair rippled in the hair and shimmered from the light hitting its platinum base.
"You ARE our family Bella, they are not. Plus you look absolutely stunning – Look." She showed me my appearance in the mirror, I did look good. She had flicked up the ends of my hair, and twisted some of it elegantly. My makeup was light, yet Smokey around my eyes – perfectly outlining my eyes that had a tone of black to the edges.
"But Rose…"
"No buts, this is the truth and I'm not repeating it again. They deserve what they got, although Edward is at lost. Carlisle will get him back to normal, especially since he was already getting better for you. Alice on the other hand, I can wait a few centuries before seeing her again – although she will be back before that."
She began going through a pile of clothing she had arranged. She picked out an elegant deep purple number, straight to my heels. It had thick straps that laced my white skin perfectly.
She picked out some black heels to go with it, and some jewellery. It looked Devine on me.
She changed into a silver dress, almost identical to mine – although she didn't wear as much jewellery as she 'didn't want to look like a Christmas tree.'
We walked down stairs to find Jasper and Emmett playing some sort of Xbox game, fools.
They turned around for a greeting, but I could visually see the words caught in their throat.
I slid with Rosalie down a grand spiral staircase that looked marble. We descended to see both Jasper and Emmett waiting at the bottom of the stairs, arms out. We both giggled.
We were led into the dining room; where we talked about the family and everything that was going on in it. We all got into the idea of a hunting trip soon; Jasper had been circling my eyes saying they are getting to dark.
Edward and Carlisle would be back in only two days; we needed to make some space for them upstairs.
At that point of the conversation, the phone rang and I went to answer it – not used to the fact this was my house too.
Carlisle said, "Why Bella how was the drive?"
"Yeah good thanks Carlisle, we stopped off at the car dealer against my wishes, (he was filled in by Jasper before we left) Jasper got some bikes you'd adore."
He laughed. "I'll make sure I get myself excited for it, I know Jaspers extravagant taste." He stopped, laughing again. "Edward and I will be arriving shortly with Esme, it seems she out did herself and is finished your cottage already. There is a slight issue although; Edward remembers nothing of your change. He also doesn't remember the connection between the woman he loved and you. He is in love with Alice although, and will see her from time to time as she adjusts herself again. He loves you as a brother already; it's almost as if his mind bent itself to make his life easier. It's so inconclusive – I'm not sure how you feel about it." He sighed at the end.
"Carlisle I can handle that, I have Jasper and I feel no anger for him loving someone too. His memory loss doesn't bother me, it seems more like a solution to all of our problems."
"Of course Bella, I'm so glad you are thinking the same as me." He laughed then, a joyous sound. "It's so good to have you back Bella, I missed you."
I smiled. "It's good to be home Dad."
He laughed again, we said goodbye. He would be here in roughly an hour.
I told the rest of the family my news; Jasper and I headed upstairs to have some time alone before the family came back. Rosalie and Emmett set up Edward's room and brought some small livestock close to the house.
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I cuddled into Jasper onto the Guest room bed, we bought a fire of ecstasy between each other before we heard footsteps coming up heavily – almost tired. I continued for a few more moments before finishing. I went to the shower, cleaned up faster than lightning, with Jasper trailing behind me.
As a quiet joke, we both put on pyjamas – Both with over sized grey shirts that had vampire teeth on them. Mine had hot pink and baby pink stripes for shorts, Jasper had dark blue and baby blue stripped pants.
We hurried down the stairs to see the whole family sitting in the lounge room, Minus Alice of course. I gathered myself into Esmes side, and she wrapped her arms around me. Cuddling me and kissing me on the forehead. A true mother.
Jasper and I moved into the play room, which had all the art skills, such as Edward's piano and an easel for Jasper. It had a bookshelf full of all the old favourites, which had a spike of fun in them. The secluded side of the room had a pool table, air hockey, pinball, a small bowling alley, more Xbox games, and another computer. It was like a heaven for game nerds.
In the artsy side, I sat down on Edward's elegant best friend. I ran my fingers across the glistening white plates. I traced back along my memories which had began to fade around the edges. I remembered the way each cord sounded when Edward played them for me. I remembered the way that his fingers were gathered; I started to play from my memory, and almost had an exact replica.
Edward slid next to me then, and placed my hands on the keys. "A," He said, matching my fingers with the keys. "b, c, d, e, f, g." He went through highs and low notes and which position. He taught me a few jingles before I got the real hang of it. Jasper looked up from his drawing and smiled, I knew he had forgiven Edward.
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Edward had gone to visit Alice, and I was sitting on the piano practicing. I was getting as good as Edward now. I was playing a few tunes and humming along. Jasper was resting on his elbow on top of the piano, looking down at me. He was drawing pictures of me, and every now and then he would kiss me, or tickle my ribs.
I started my new song, I played the keys at the correct pace and it was beautiful.
"Head underwater,
and they tell me,
to breathe easy for a while," I sang. Jasper looked down at me startled. I had a good voice as a human, now I was a vampire it was even better.
"Breathing gets harder, even I know that
made room for me;
it's too soon to see
if I'm happy in your hands
I'm unusually hard to hold on to." I started playing a bit harder now; releasing more of a powerful beat. I could hear the rest of the family were at the door – watching me now.
"Blank stares at blank pages
No easy way to say this
you mean well, but you make this hard on me,"
The chorus was hard, but I got it right with my new calculating brain.
"I'm not gonna write you a love song
'Cause you asked for it
'Cause you need one,
You see
I'm not gonna write you
A love song
'Cause you tell me it's
Make or breaking this
If you're on your way
I'm not gonna write you to
Stay
If all you have is leavin',
I'ma need a better reason
To write you
A love song
Today
Today, Yeah"
I continued my song until it finished, I didn't even make a mistake. My family clapped and cheered. Carlisle kissed me on the forehead, Esme hugged me. Then they went upstairs for some time to themselves. Rosalie and Emmett went to their bedroom… for… well yeah.
I moved to Jaspers lap and kissed him gently on the lips, laying back into his skin that flamed red for me.
We went hunting close to home, catching some wolves and draining them dry. When we came home we had our RosaliexEmmett moment, and then spent the morning wrapped up in each others skin.
I breathed all over Jaspers neck, spreading kisses all over his scars which were so soft to my lips.
In the background, I could hear Edward playing the piano – my lullaby actually. I could hear Rosalie and Emmett laughing and Carlisle and Esme sharing loving words.
I was well and truly home,
like I never had been before.
"Love seeketh only self to please,
to bind another to its delight,
Joys in another's loss of ease,
and builds a hell in Heaven's despite." Jasper whispered the sweet words of Shakespeare to me.
"I love you Jazz."
"and I you Belle."
(A/N) So what did you think? Love/Hate?
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xo MoonPhase-