Hand of Sorrow

Chapter 4

I promised revenge and so far I have failed, but I have a few tricks left up my sleeve and I'm gathering power, I will find the hunter and kill it, its ashes will bring you back to life, all I need is the perfect host but don't worry I will avenge you, existing without you is too painful.

I woke up to silence, shocked I glanced at the clock on the wall it was only one am, I had gone to bed at nine after regaling Carlisle and Esme with every moment of my day and then doing homework with mum and dad, I was exhausted. It was annoying being the only one who needed to sleep, apart from Jacob who slept more than I did. Carlisle said it was our metabolism it worked so fast which is why we both ate enough for ten, were grumpy without ten hours sleep and had warm temperatures, although mine was only slightly over 'normal' and I could still feel the how cold mum and dad where and how hot Jacob was. Thinking of Jacob I wondered what had woke me up, back in forks when I would wake up, I would always find Jake awake and we would have a midnight snack together. When I was younger he would take me up to bed afterwards as I would often fall asleep on the plate, I would fall asleep in his arms and he would stroke my hair. As I had gotten older it would happen less and less, but I had a sudden urge to be with Jake, have a midnight feast and a talk.

Feeling sheepish I crept out of my bed and room, thinking about nothing but needing the toilet in case dad was listening out, but there room was empty so I assumed they had gone for a hunt or a run. Mum and dad loved to race each other sometimes I would play too and I was getting faster but still not quite as fast as dad I could beat Emmett easily. Emmett wouldn't like this and would always insist on an arm wrestle, but mum, dad and aunt Rose would not allow it and even though Emmett might go against mum and dad's wishes he wouldn't ever do anything to make Rosalie angry.

I had a secondary urge to run outside and decided that after my midnight feast I would convince Jake to race me.

I decided to take the stair's rather than the elevator in case any of the others tried to stop me, my heart was beating faster than usual, and I wasn't sure why. I wasn't doing anything wrong, was I?

I crept down the stairs even though I knew it was useless, if anyone was listening they would hear my heart louder than my steps.

As I came to the door leading to the first floor I paused to listen I could hear two voices talking and one mentioned my name, intrigued I pressed my ear to the door, it was Rose and Alice talking.

"…stinking dog" that was obviously Rose as Alice would never call Jacob a dog.

"I think it's difficult for him too, I mean she's a child but she's not and Jasper thinks part of him is still stuck in transition from loving her as a best friend older brother and being in love with her…you know"

I felt my heart leap, who was Jacob in love with? Surely he would have told me?

"Does she not get to choose? She should fall in love on her own and not just some mongrel trick" Rose snapped

"She does love him Rose" Alice soothed "It is growing everyday, you heard her say his name when she was sleeping"

"If she was my child, I would throw him out"

"But she isn't, she's Edwards and Bella's and they decided it would hurt her too much them being apart. You know this is hard on them too, she has only been here seven years, they want Jake to back down until she has graduated school at least. And he is trying… don't look at me like that Rose he can't control his thoughts, he is in love with her and my visions may not be clear with regards those two, but I can guarantee you that Jacob and Renesmee will marry…"

Shocked I fled, I didn't run to Jacob which was my original plan but out the back door, I begged my body to run faster but I could hear steps behind me they where not heavy enough to be Emmett's or light enough for Alice's. I pushed my body more even though my muscles were beginning to burn I had to get away, I had to think and feel for myself.

"Go away" I screamed using the last as my energy as I fell to the ground tears streaming down my face.

"Renesmee" my Mum's voice whispered "What's wrong?"

"Why did no-one tell me?" I screamed angry with them all.

"We wanted you to realise on your own" Came my dad's soft voice, as my Mum knelt down next to me holding me in her arms, I showed her the whole conversation I had overheard and she gasped.

"You have a choice" Dad said answering my unspoken question

But Alice, she said it was certain

"Alice is not always right, love, she never saw you coming"

I smiled at this.

"I don't want to marry Jacob, I don't love him that way" I said after a pause.

"You may do one day, honey, but remember we will be on your side no matter what you decide" Mum replied as she lifted me into her arms cradling me as she did when I was a baby.

"Don't keep anything from me anymore" I stated, as I placed my head on Mums shoulder.

She and dad both laughed and I sat up confused "What's so funny?"

"You're Mum made me promise the same thing" dad said brushing some ringlets away from my face "You are so much like her"

"Hardly" Mum laughed "You are so perfect you are practically a clone of your dad, I meanwhile was clumsy, shy easily embarrassed and remarkably average"

"You were never average" My Dad mumbled kissing her on her head.

As we approached the house dad stopped suddenly.

"What's wrong?" I asked him, he shook his head but I pressed him further "You promised me"

"Jacob has gone" he mumbled, sorrow in his eyes.

"What?" I shouted scrambling from mum's arms and running to Jakes basement.

The bedclothes were a mess and shredded clothes where on the ground, on his desk a letter scrawled in Jacob's handwriting; I picked it up and sat on the bed to read.

Nessie,

I'm sorry but I had to leave, Leah is in the process of starting a pack war after a silly comment from Sam. I wanted to say goodbye…

Well, I promise I'll be back soon

Jake

"Dad" I whispered knowing he would here me from the doorway where he was tactfully holding his nose "Is this the real reason?"

He shook his head in reply "He heard you run out, he followed us and he heard everything. He asked me not to tell you, I didn't think he would leave. I thought it would help his feelings cool for you…I mean you're a child, he shouldn't be thinking what he is thinking, I'm sorry Ness…"

I nodded solemnly, and made my way up to my room ignoring the looks of the others, I had said I didn't love him, but I had lied.