Azami...won't be coming back. I've known this for about three weeks now, but I couldn't do anything Azami-chan related because I'd start crying. Hell, I couldn't even go to symphony practice or play any instruments or sing or anything. Aiko's worse off though...
For those of you that haven't known, Azami and Aiko were the former holders of this account, when it was named Beloved and Defiance. There was a car accident shortly after Azami left the hospital from the first coma (she was hit in the head) and Aiko broke her arm. Azami sustained damage that was considerably more extensive, however, and she went back into a coma. She woke up for about four hours on January 22, 2009 before she went back to sleep. She never woke up.
People, please drive safely. Think of the other people that get hurt in the accident - it won't always be just you.
I intend to keep writing, in her memory if nothing else. I only hope that I can be as good as she was.
It's kind of odd...we never really appreciate what we have until it's gone. I remember visiting her when she was in the hospital after she got hit in the head, and we were talking about what we thought was most important. Dunno how we got to talking about it, but....
For me, I told her that it would probably be my music and my friends. She just kind of smiled the way she did whenever she was being serious about something and was about to say something important, and said:
"Well, I think it would have to be...honor. I mean, if I can protect my family, friends, and what is most important, then I don't really think I need or want anything else. Maybe I'm a little weird for saying something like that, but I always thought that as long as I knew everyone was safe and happy then so was I. Is that too weird?"
I told her that it wasn't weird or anything, just different. She laughed.
I never did really understand her that well, but she was a blessing to everyone that knew her.
This will be the last thing posted to Chuushin. I will try to take up writing myself…soon. It'll be a few weeks, but….soon. I think I owe Azami that much – to write and do better with the music.
Happy Valentine's Day, everyone….