Expressing Yourself

Pairings: Remus/Sirius, James/Lily

Warnings: Slash! You know you love it.

A/N:

Disclaimer: None of these characters etc. are ours.

Remus snapped his eyes open and saw his look of horror mirrored in Sirius' own face. But they were so close now...

Remus started to push Sirius off but soon gasped instead as Sirius just leaned closer and carried on faster.

"Siri...they...uh..."

"Just...a bit...more, Rem..."

"Oh...god...this is just embara-embaras...fuck, Sirius!" Remus cried, his wolf, once again, getting the better of him as the two boys' eyelids fluttered and their muscles tensed and relaxed in quick succession. Losing all feeling in his legs, Sirius slid down the bumpy, hard stone wall, pulling Remus with him.

Remus lay there feeling warm and sluggish for a few minutes until he got his breath back. Then he sat up suddenly.

"Shit. Sirius!" Sirius' eyes cracked open.

"Wha...?"

"Who's down there?" At the sound of the voice again, Sirius jerked upwards and started grabbing his clothes, joining Remus in hastily redressing.

"Oh Merlin's bollocks, we're in trouble now!" Hissed Remus into the darkness, uncomfortably aware of how they must look and smell to anyone, even without the heightened senses of a canine.

There was a sound as the mirror was drawn back, and footsteps shuffled towards the bend in the tunnel, where the two, mostly dressed, teenagers stood clutching each other in terror. The light of a lantern suddenly threw the two of them in sharp relief and they shielded their eyes against the glare.

"Black and Lupin?" Oh crap. They knew that voice. The leering face of Argus Filch loomed at them in the small tunnel. "You two are in for it now."

"Why's that, exactly?" Asked Sirius as he stepped in front of Remus to shield him from the gleeful caretaker and his lamp.

"Why, boy? Because you are out of bounds, that's why! Not to mention I have..." he raked his eyes over the boys' disheveled appearance and hot, flushed faces and necks, "...suspicions," the caretaker continued, leering, "about your activities in this out of bounds corridor"

Remus tugged uncomfortably on his shirt but Sirius widened his eyes innocently.

"What on earth do you mean?" Filch glared at him.

"Illicit activities! I know you two were..."

"Were what?"

"Were...messing around with each other." finished Filch, lamely. In an undertone he muttered "S'disgusting...not naturaaaargh!" Upon hearing this, both boys lunged at the caretaker, knocking him back into the opposite wall, their wands pointed at his chest with looks of pure outrage on their faces.

"Say. That. Again." challenged Sirius through gritted teeth, reaching out to find Remus' hand in the darkness. He wondered briefly how he'd ever survived Filch without Remus' hand to hold in the past. But he needed it now - he was torn between rage at Filch's homophobia and fear over what would happen to them if Filch reported it to someone. Filch spluttered with outrage.

"How...how dare you! Attacking a member of staff!"

"You insulted us." Remus said quietly, his gaze fixed coldly on Filch's face. "You attacked us verbally. That's also not allowed." Filch's expression flickered from annoyed to mulish.

"Never said anything."

"Of course you didn't. And we were never here. Come on, Siri." The boys left, shooting looks of outrage over their shoulders at Filch, who stood shakily against the wall. He shouted to their retreating forms,

"Rule number 29, section b, A boy and girl caught acting romantically beyond reasonable boundaries may be given detention or suspended for a period of up to 1 week!" At this, Sirius turned sharply on his heel until his face was inches from Filch's own.

"You forget, neither of us are girls." Stalking away, Sirius grinned at Remus who, in full view of the caretaker, took his hand and kissed him on the cheek before jumping out of the tunnel and out of view.

Once they were a reasonable distance away from the passageway, Remus stopped and slumped against the wall. Sirius looked at him, worried.

"Remie, what's wrong?" Remus looked at him, clearly upset.

"He'll tell everyone, won't he? All the teacher's will know, all the students...maybe even our parents."

"Sshh, Remie. Don't be like that. Filch knows he can't say anything, and I doubt the professors would care much if they knew, anyway." Sirius waited until a gaggle of second years walked past on their way to lunch, before wrapping his arms tightly around Remus and kissing him fiercely on the mouth.

"See? Some people think that's wrong, but I don't care what anyone says about us as long as you're OK with it." Remus glanced up at Sirius from under his lashes.

"You know, Siri? That has to be the most unselfish...the nicest thing..." To his horror, Remus could feel tears pooling at the corners of his eyes, and threw himself at the darker boy, gripping him tightly around the waist. Sirius let out a small 'oof' as Remus collided with him, then put his arms around him and hugged him tightly back. Remus buried his face in his shoulder and murmured,

"But what if he does tell?"

"He won't, Remie. You made sure of that!" Remus chuckled and loosened his grip a little bit.

"Thanks Siri."

…

"Hey, look! It's Sirius and, Oh, Cathy, what was his name again?"

"Remus," Cathy snapped back as the fan girls rounded a bend in the corridor and spotted the two boys in a tight embrace.

"Oh yeah, that was it. Wow, they look pretty involved."

"Oh look, Sirius' shirt is untucked!"

"Oh, he's such a bad boy!" Cathy rolled her eyes and sauntered over to the couple, other fangirls following her in a whispering, giggling pack.

"Hello, boys." The two sprung apart like they had been stung, and turned hastily to confront Cathy and the Fanpack.

"Er...Cathy, right?" inquired Sirius, the first to regain something akin to composure. Predictably, the fan girls began to giggle again. Cathy raised an eyebrow.

"Right." She turned and smiled glowingly at Remus, who looked highly surprised. "Hi, Remus."

"Erm...hi, Cathy."

"Hi. Look, boys...we know."

"Sorry?" Cathy shot a warning glance at Sirius, who chose not to continue.

"There's no need for you to be sorry- I just warn you," she jerked a thumb over her shoulder at the gang of giggling girls behind her, and lowered her voice somewhat, "They're really, really sorry you guys are, uh, seeing each other rather than them."

Remus' mouth dropped open and he gaped at Cathy in shock. Sirius blurted out,

"Wh-what? How did you..." Cathy gave him a full on glare this time, and he subsided again. Rolling her eyes impatiently, she said,

"It doesn't matter. But basically, we know." Remus seemed to have recovered a little bit and he swallowed and said,

"You...you haven't told..." Cathy widened her eyes.

"Oh of course we haven't told anyone! We wouldn't do that to you!" she smiled at Remus again. Sirius frowned a little bit.

"S'cuse us for a minute," he said, tugging Remus into the nearest available classroom and sitting him down on a desk.

"What are we going to do about them?" asked Remus, fear hidden in his brown and gold-flecked eyes.

"Look, Moons, she likes you! She wouldn't dare do anything that'd make you unhappy!"

"So...what's the matter, Pads?"

"S-she...fancies you rotten, you moron!" Sirius exclaimed, throwing his arms wide to emphasize his point. "She was sending you all these signals, smiling- I think she even bloody winked once!" Remus gazed at his agitated friend and lover, comprehension dawning. His mouth curled up at the corners as he jumped off the desk and caught hold of Sirius' shoulders.

"You're jealous, aren't you?" Sirius pouted.

"No." Remus raised an eyebrow.

"You sure you're not jealous?"

"Positive."

"Well then. Why don't we go outside and talk some more to them?" Remus turned away, smirking, "She seems like a lovely girl..." Sirius grabbed Remus' arm.

"I don't want to talk to her."

"Whyever not?" Sirius huffed and folded his arms.

"Alright then, I am jealous. She was all over you, Moons! Like a...like a fungus!" Remus snorted and wrapped his arms around Sirius' waist.

"Well, I wouldn't want to snog a fungus, would you?" He leaned up and pressed a soft kiss to Sirius' lips. "She might not say anything, but your adoring fans might. We have to go and make sure." Sirius sighed.

"Fine. But if she even touches you, I won't be held responsible for my actions."

"Like I'd stop you. The thought of a girl toughing me like you were doing back there is truly revolting. I never told you that, did I?" Remus mused as he pulled away from Sirius and towards the door. "Girls aren't my cup of tea at all. Unlike you, I don't find them remotely attractive."

As Sirius caught up with him, Remus traced his jawbone with a long finger and Sirius pinned him up against the door, placing hot kisses on his skin. Between kisses, he said,

"As far as I'm concerned, I feel the same as you do. Girls equal eurgh." He made a face, making Remus laugh.

"Denial, huh?" he asked and opened the door onto the corridor, pulling Sirius slightly as he did so.

"You got it." Cathy, who had been leaning against the wall, looking bored, straightened up and fixed a smile on her face.

"Everything alright?" Sirius placed his arms round Remus' waist from behind and did his very best not to glare at the girl. Remus grinned,

"Fine, thanks." Cathy tossed her hair over her shoulder.

"So, yeah, as I was saying before..." Sirius interrupted her.

"Actually we kinda want to talk to the others." Cathy glared at him but this time he returned her stare. Remus decided it would be wisest to keep quiet. Eventually Cathy crossed her arms and snapped,

"Fine, then." and stood aside. The Fanpack crept forward, none of them wanting to go first, still giggling and whispering.

"Look, gir-ladies," Sirius amended in response to the sharp dig in his ribs from Remus.

"Hiiiii, Sirius!" They squealed, crowding around him and giggling. Remus found himself shoved sideways by the mob. He fought his way through the throng to stand beside Sirius, a hand reaching up to press softly for an instant in the small of the animagus' back.

"Ladies!" Sirius roared, back in full performer mode. The girls all fell silent, staring up at Sirius with adoring eyes. He adopted a serious expression.

"I've heard that you all know about me and Remus." Remus suddenly found himself the victim of several death glares. He found it extremely unnerving. Sirius continued hastily,

"Remus means very much to me and he makes me very happy. You all want me to be happy, right?" All the girls nodded sycophantically up at him. Even Remus felt an urge to nod- it made him feel very warm and fuzzy inside, knowing that Sirius was happy when he was around him.

"So...could you possibly...you know, keep it to yourselves?" The girls all hesitated. Remus mused how amazing it was that they seemed to work as a unit rather than individual people. Sirius put on a sad, pleading face. "Please, ladies? It would mean a lot to me..." Remus could see the girls physically melting under Sirius' puppy dog eyes.

"Of course, Sirius!"

"Yeah, we'll keep your secret, Sirius!" Sirius beamed at them all.

"Thank you! You're all wonderful! Come on, Remie." He grabbed Remus' hand and made his way expertly through the crowd of girls, dragging Remus with him.

"How can you stand them?" muttered Remus as they left the gang behind them, finally making their way to supper in the Great Hall.

"Hmm...?" Sirius moaned from his position wedged up against Remus, his mouth mouthing the section of skin just below Remus' ear.

"I said...oh...never mind..." Sirius didn't reply, moving a respectful distance from Remus in order to enter the Hall unobserved.

"Where've you two been all day?" James asked them as they sat opposite him and Lily at the Gryffindor table. Lily shot him an oddly significant look and he hastily corrected himself. "On second thoughts, guys, I don't want to know..." Sirius smirked and glanced at Remus, who was determinedly avoiding eye contact and looked extremely interested in the bread rolls and butter. Then Sirius returned his gaze to James.

"What about you, Jamie boy? What have you been doing in our absence?" James suddenly looked a little bit nervous and glanced at Lily who said sweetly,

"Well, boys, I'm gonna go. I have work to do." Then she turned and smiled at James, "See you later."

"Yeah! See you!" James' voice sounded a little bit higher than usual. As soon as Lily had left the room, James collapsed with his head in his hands.

"Oh Merlin..." Sirius frowned at him.

"What's wrong with you?"

"I have a date with Lily." Remus coughed.

"I'm sorry, you'll have to repeat that. I could've sworn you said you and Lily have a date together." James groaned.

"You heard right. I asked her out, she said yes blah blah..."

"Erm...and yet you sound do un-thrilled."

"Yup." Sirius raised his eyebrows.

"May I inquire as to why you are moping and moaning rather than jumping for joy?" James looked at him desperately.

"Because it's a date with Lily!"

"Yes...?" Remus suddenly smiled knowingly.

"James, are you nervous?"

"You don't say..." he muttered, reaching blindly for the butter dish, sticking his hand straight into the middle of a soup tureen.

"Smooth, mate." Remus swatted Sirius playfully away, and turned to look around the table.

"Hey, uh, Prongs? Where's Peter?" James shrugged. Remus frowned.

"He was with you after class." James looked up distractedly.

"What?" Remus sighed.

"Peter." He said impatiently, "Where's Peter?"

"You know, I don't think I've seen him since transfiguration. I was waiting for Lily and the I- oh, God." Remus waited for a moment, then prompted him again.

"Yes? Then you what?"

"I asked Lily out and she said yes."

"And Peter was where?"

"No clue. I think he headed for the tower, but i don't remember. Sorry."

"S'ok, Prongs," muttered Sirius out of the corner of his mouth, which was stuffed with bread roll. He looked wounded when Remus dragged him up by his collar and off the bench.

"What? I'm not done-"

"We have to find him, Sirius!" Sirius looked at him as though he were mad.

"Why on earth would we want to do that?"

"You know perfectly well, why, Padfoot." sighed Remus as they left the Great Hall.

"He's not really taken the news too well that we're...you know..."

"Feeling each other up in the corridors? Kissing each other senseless at every opportunity?"

"Yeah. That."

"So? Shouldn't we be staying away from him then?"

"That won't help, Sirius."

"It would make me and probably him happy though."

"It wouldn't make me happy though." Remus adopted a puppy-eyed expression. "Don't you want to make me happy, Siri?"

"Fine...but you owe me sexual pleasures for this, you know."

"Done!" they had reached the portrait of the fat lady, and Sirius helped Remus through first, holding onto his rear for a little longer than necessary before hoisting himself up. Remus sent Sirius a smirk over his shoulder, then continued up to the dorm. Peter was in there, lying on his bed. As soon as Remus and Sirius entered, he jumped up and stared at them nervously.

"Oh...its you."

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