Expressing Yourself
Pairings: Remus/Sirius, James/Lily
Warnings: Slash! You know you love it.
A/N: Just to remind you lot that there are two people writing this fic – EvilSatsuma and Psycho Hippy. Some didn't seem to realise that…but you'll know, yes? Now onwards! Will there be smut? Or won't there? Muahaha…
Disclaimer: None of these characters etc. are ours.
Sirius blushed harder and peeked up at him through his lashes.
"So...?" Remus bit his lip. He was nervous. Their relationship was moving fast, almost too fast. After all, technically, they had barely been together a day. But Sirius had said that he loved him.
"Alright." Sirius looked up then, not sure if he had heard correctly.
"Sorry...you'll have to repeat that, just so I know what you-" Remus pounced, knocking Sirius onto the floor as he leapt at him and ending up tangled in the curtains. He extracted himself and crawled over to Sirius, panting slightly with red cheeks. Sirius couldn't stop the grin spreading over his face as he sat up, leaning on his elbows and watched Remus crawl towards him. The amber eyed boy straddled him and pulled him into another kiss, running his fingers teasingly down Sirius' chest, ghosting lightly over his sensitive flesh.
Sirius kissed back, his tongue begging for entrance. Remus opened his mouth, drawing out the kiss as his hands moved over Sirius' torso with reckless abandon. He loved him. Needed him. Now.
As one, the two boys struggled to somehow maneuver themselves back onto the bed without breaking the kiss, Sirius using the bedpost to push himself up from under Remus.
They toppled over to land on the mattress with a thump. Remus whimpered quietly in the back of his throat as Sirius' body settled on top of his, skin pressed deliciously against skin. He parted his legs to allow Sirius to slide in between them, clutching at his back and holding him close.
Already sweat was sticking fluffy curls to Remus' forehead and as he dragged his hands slowly, sensually, through Sirius' mane of dark hair, he felt it slightly dampened, and his neck was fiery with heat and passion when his wrists and fingers brushed across it. He grinned.
"Remus..." Sirius breathed, moving his mouth over the other boy's neck and jaw. Remus couldn't suppress a shiver when he felt Sirius' hot breath on his skin.
"Mmmn...Siri..."
"Less talk. More-" he grunted, his breath hitching as he felt something hard poking suddenly into his abdomen. "Action." Sirius suddenly drew away slightly, much to Remus' chagrin.
"What...?" Sirius sent him a wicked grin and leant over to open his bedside drawer. Remus' breath hitched. Oh.
"Erm...Siri, mate?" Remus recovered quickly, mostly to save himself from the embarrassment of what Sirius held in his hand. "Out of interest, how long have you had that there?" Sirius just grinned wider as his lips returned to Remus' jaw.
"Long enough." he murmured against his skin, making Remus' inside squirm pleasantly. "I think it's high time I tested it out." Nimbly he unscrewed the top, all the while kissing Remus' collarbone, eliciting gasps and other little noises telling him not to stop.
"One last time," Sirius whispered, his hot breath on his lovers' ear tickled pleasantly. "Are you sure, Moons?" Remus rolled his eyes to the ceiling and back.
"Don't be thick, mate. I already said I wanted to. I love you too much not to right now." He ran his hands down Sirius' sides, hot skin on hot skin, until he reached the small of his back. "I love you. Now, get moving." This final utterance was more of a strangled breath as Sirius straddled him, the movement causing their hips to grind together with more than a little repercussion.
Carefully, Sirius applied the stuff inside the small tube to his fingers. Then, even more carefully, he reached down. Remus laid back and tried to brace himself.
"Ahh...!" Merlin, that felt weird! Remus wriggled a little, trying to relax and get used to the strange new sensation.
"Moony?"
"M'fine." Remus let out a long breath and nodded. Sirius added the next finger, then the next.
And then Remus could feel the fingers move inside him. He winced and hissed slightly as his muscles complained at the stretch. Pausing a moment to make sure his lover was alright, Sirius slid an arm around and under Remus at his waist, pulling him gently onto all fours, his fingers moving slightly faster than before. Remus groaned, pushing back into Sirius.
"Siri-us. Just...just..." Sirius leant down and kissed him gently just behind his ear, before pulling his fingers out. Remus blew some sweaty strands of hair out of his face. This was it.
"Ready, Moony?" Remus nodded, biting his lip.
"Go."
"GO?" Sirius let out a chuckle. "Well, if you insist..." He gripped the hips in front of him, pushing himself forwards- slowly at first, then more forcefully as they both became accustomed to this new position. Remus arched his back with pain and pleasure. Seeing this, Sirius reached around Remus to cup him gently. Or rather, he would have done, had he not felt so aroused at that precise moment.
"Merlin...Re..." Sirius couldn't quite bring himself to finish his lover's name. Slowly he began to move backwards, then forwards again. Remus' head dropped and he moaned. Hearing that, Sirius moved a little bit faster, breathing heavily.
Remus was feeling so many mixed up, intense sensations. The feel of Sirius in him was almost overwhelming in itself, but added to the heavy breathing mingling with the stillness of the air and his own moans- not to mention Sirius' hands so obviously gripping him, well, it drove him to the edge. He dug his fingers into the bedclothes and began moving his own body, meeting Sirius' thrusts and forcing Sirius' hands on him to move as well. He felt Sirius lean his forehead on his shoulder, felt the sweat pooling in his arched back.
"Siri..." Sirius wanted to reply, wanted to hear Remus respond, yet he could only grunt. He burned, sweat trickling onto Remus, whose skin had taken on a slight sheen of perspiration. Sirius couldn't take it anymore.
He drove into Remus faster and faster, feeling the burning heat gather and coil in his belly until finally, he lost control completely with a muffled cry. Remus quickly joined him, both of them shuddering and gasping. Remus' arms trembled and he collapsed onto the bed, pulling a dazed Sirius with him.
They lay there together, Sirius not caring that the hand still wrapped around Remus. The boys listened to each other as their breathing patterns became deeper and more regular before speaking.
"Fuckin' awesome, Moons..."
"Well, we've never done that before..." Sirius yawned and nuzzled the back of Remus' neck.
"We should do that again sometime. Again and again. Lots of times." Remus chuckled, closing his eyes.
"Agreed." They lay there contentedly for a while, half dozing. Remus couldn't remember a time when he'd been more warm and comfortable. And sticky. He glanced down and sighed.
"Sirius...I need a shower."
"You know what? Showers seem like a sensible plan to me." Remus half turned towards Sirius, one eyebrow raised.
"And because, as we both know, 'Sensible plan' and Sirius are not exactly synonymous, you suggest we..."
"Go to the prefect's bathroom for a bath? I though you'd never ask, Rems." Sirius grinned, removing his hand from under Remus and sitting up. Remus raised the other brow.
"And what exactly makes you think I would break the rules and allow you into the special, highly exclusive prefect's bathroom?" Sirius leaned down and kissed him slowly, relishing the way Remus made an almost indistinguishable noise and shifted closer. Pulling back, he grinned down at Remus, face flushed.
"That's why."
"Oh." Sirius laughed and pulled Remus into a sitting position. He bounced off the bed and began grabbing his clothes, chucking Remus' over his shoulder in the general direction of the bed. Remus sighed resignedly. Of course, secretly he was more than a little excited of the thought of being in the prefect's bathroom with Sirius.
Sirius was obviously rubbing off on him, who was himself bouncing on the spot, trying to work out why his trouser zip was at his back. Remus was mid laugh when his expression froze. Someone was knocking at the door and clamouring to be let in at once
Without thinking, for this was indeed the great Sirius Black, Sirius lifted the locking charm on the door with a flick of the wand which lay discarded on his feet. Remus only just managed to roll off and under the bed into the relative safety of the dark, dusty underside of the mattress as the door opened, admitting one Lily Evans into the room.
"Black, where's Remus? I need..." suddenly she stopped and took a closer look at Sirius. His hair was mussed, his face flushed and his clothes severely rumpled. In fact, the buttons on his shirt were done up wrong. "What...?" her eyes flicked to the bed, with its duvet hanging half off and its sheets haphazard. "What the hell have you been doing, Black?"
"Er, well, actually, that's kind of a funny story..." Remus stifled a groan. If Sirius said anything stupid now...
"What was that?" Lily held up a prefectorial finger to stall any further uttering from Sirius, her eyes jumping wildly around the room.
"What was...uh, what was what, Lily?" Sirius asked, overdoing every syllable in some feeble attempt to sound unconcerned and ignorant. Remus groaned, though much quieter than before. He had tried to introduce Sirius to subtlety last Christmas Eve, when it had been just the two of them in the common room. Sirius, of course, was ever the drama queen, however, and avoided subtlety like the plague.
"That noise. Don't play dumb with me, Black." Sirius decided to try the charming approach. He smiled winningly at Lily.
"I would never lie to a lady! I honestly didn't hear anything!" Lily stared back at him, unimpressed. Sirius swallowed. "Um...weren't you looking for Remus?" Lily took a step closer.
"Don't change the subject! You've got someone up here, haven't you? Some girl!" Not quite, Remus thought wryly, trying to quiet his breathing. His heart was thumping a million miles an hour. Please don't let her look under the bed...
She did, her curtain of long dark red hair swishing into view before her face as she knelt on the carpet, muttering over her shoulder to Sirius all the while.
"How could you, Black? How could you do this to Remus?"
"Er, Lily, don't...!" Too late. Lily's green eyes widened as she caught sight of Remus, who smiled weakly.
"Um...hello, Lily..." Remus smiled in what he hoped was a winning, 'oh-dear-I'm-naked-under-the-bed-but-never-mind-you-weren't-to-know' sort of way, but was pretty sure it came across as a red faced, very embarrassed grimace.
"Oh." Lily's voice sounded strangely high pitched and forced. "Oh. I see. Oh." She suddenly seemed to realise she was staring at a very naked Remus, and turned away, blushing furiously. Sirius couldn't help but smirk as she rose to her feet, still clearly embarrassed.
"I told you not to, Lily."
"I...I...have to go...do, um...something." But Sirius was enjoying himself now. Lily Evans looking flustered was a rare phenomenon and he intended to exploit it for as long as he could get away with it.
"But, Lily! You wanted to speak to Remie about something! So go ahead, it's not like he's in any position to stop you, is it?"
"No...really, it can...it can wait." Lily squeaked, still blushing horribly.
"But, I'm sure it's important! And he's probably aching to know what it is."
"But...I...I couldn't possibly...erm...sorry." and with that, Lily fled, the sound of Sirius' laughter following her down the spiral staircase and into the Gryffindor common room. He walked over to the bed and knelt, his trousers still tragically back to front. Remus summoned up his very best glare and directed it straight at Sirius, who was still sniggering.
"That was not funny. That was humiliating."
"Aw, come on, Rem." Sirius said, his eyes dancing merrily, "You saw her face! She was horrified! It was great!"
"She saw me naked!"
"Fair point. On the plus side, she was speechless." Remus narrowed his eyes dangerously.
"Meaning?"
"That it isn't just me who thinks you're the tastiest thing since Nutella. I should stick close, just in case Ms Evans gets any ideas above her station." Remus gave him an incredulous look.
"Above her station?" Sirius let out a bark like laugh, leaning further under the bed to whisper in his lover's ear.
"Yeah. You're way too good for her..." he slid under the bed. "Myself on the other hand...well, obviously only the immensely sexy Sirius Black would be good enough for you." Remus rolled his eyes.
"Immensely modest too. And I thought we were going to the bathroom?"
"Hmm?" Sirius seemed to be engrossed in nibbling on Remus' ear. Remus closed his eyes.
"As nice as that feels...we're under a bed, Siri."
"I know, isn't it great?"
…
James looked up in surprise as Lily flew down the stairs, flushed and looking panicked. She threw herself down on the sofa and buried her head in her hands with a moan.
"Lily?" She didn't reply. Her hair fell around her ears, hiding her face from view. Only hesitating a fraction of a second to wonder how she managed to keep it so soft and shiny, James leaned closer.
"Are you..." he trailed off, her shoulders shaking slightly.
"Merlin, you're not...you're not crying, are you?" Lily's head turned sharply towards him, her cheeks free of tears - there was a big, dopey-looking grin spread across her delicately flushed face
"You will not believe what I just saw!" James blinked. Well. Not quite what he'd expected but hey.
"Sirius' sock puppets?"
"No, I...Sirius has sock puppets?" James chuckled weakly…
"Noo...nope. Who said he had sock- oh, ok fine. He's got four. Little Miss Merlin, Bendy-Wendy Witch, Miranda Wand-Polish and Sirius Macho Sock."
"Well...as much as I'd love to see Sirius' sock puppets, no that wasn't what I saw."
"What then?" James watched as her grin grew to epic proportions. He couldn't remember ever seeing Lily smiling that widely before. Intriguing.
"Aw, c'mon, Lily!" he pleaded, adopting a puppy dog expression with his hazel eyes. She relented, though her eyes danced with mirth as she spoke.
"Sirius and Remus, well, they, uh..." James' eyes suddenly widened.
"Sweet Merlin! You walked in on that?!" Lily giggled, her cheeks still flushed.
"Not exactly...I walked in on Sirius looked erm...rumpled...and I thought he had a girl up there. Then I looked under the bed..." she broke off, a goofy grin in place. James wondered whether he wanted to know what was under Sirius' bed.
"Do I want to know what you..." She leant forwards, her face inches from him on the sofa. His breathing became shallower.
"Er...Lily..?" She whispered briefly in his ear. Onlookers noted with interest his face turn from pale-cream to a pinky red. Not having any idea what they were talking about, people began to speculate in whispers. Unfortunately all their excited rumour making was halted when James groaned and said loudly,
"That's gross! I did not need that mental image!" He buried his head in his hands while Lily laughed merrily.
"Uh-oh..." a small first-year muttered under his breath to a friend. "Anyone else thinking 'role reversal', at all?" There was a smattering of agreement as James dived off the sofa and up the stairs to the dormitory. Seconds later, Lily heard a distant banging at an old, wooden door.
"Ja-ames!" She groaned, heaving herself away from the plush cushions and following at a more sedate pace.
"Oi! You two, stay off my bloody bed, you hear!" By the time Lily reached him, James had slid onto his knees outside the dorm, his fists pounding rhythmically against the wood. From inside, the retorts were many and colourful - ranging from "Busy! Can't hear yooouuu!" to "Too late, Prongsie boy. And may I complement you on how springy it - Merlin, Rems - where did you learn that?!"
On reflection, James thought that it would have been better to just stay put on the sofa with Lily and her shiny hair...
Lily however rolled her eyes and got her wand out. Muttering 'Alohamora' she pushed the door open to see Remus and Sirius rolling around the floor in fits of silent laughter.
"You bastards!" Sirius let out a whoop of joy at the expression on James' face.
"Your face, mate!" Remus grinned up at him, one hand lazily rested upon Sirius' thigh.
"Why the hell are your trouser backwards?" James asked, trying to cover up the sound of Lily's girlish giggles from the doorway. Sirius winked saucily.
"Would you like me to describe in detail how they came to be so?" James covered his eyes in a failed attempt to block several likely scenarios from his mind.
"No - I really, really don't." Lily's giggles had subsided now, though she was still grinning like a Cheshire cat.
"Sorry, James. It was pretty funny..."
"Maybe for you! You enjoy this sort of thing!" Lily nodded enthusiastically and James groaned, throwing his arms up dramatically. "I am alone in my misery!"
"Never mind, Prongs." Sirius chuckled, his head now resting on Remus' midriff. "You can tell her all about it on your date tomorrow..." Lily and James both flushed and determinedly avoided each others eyes.
"Like I'm gonna talk about you guys on a date..." muttered James, scowling.
"Thank you James," Lily said with a finality in her tones. Her fingers gripped his wrist and tugged him back into the stairwell, slamming the door behind them as he began to descend. On the other side of the door, gales of laughter gave way to breathy giggles and then moans - hopefully James and Lily wouldn't be bothering them for quite some time.
Well, of course there was smut! We love smut! Sorry to keep you hanging but Psycho Hippy went on holiday for two weeks. Heh. Thanks for reading! Love xxx