I felt my heart skip a beat.

Nothing good can come out of those words. It's impossible.

Jasper handed Silas the envelope and ordered, "Hold onto that, and only let mommy have it, alright?"

He nodded, happy to be useful.

I opened my mouth, but promptly closed it when Jasper started speaking.

He sighed, "You're going to find two things in there. First, the keys to the car. Then there's a paper. It's information for the bank account I opened in your name. It has $400,000 in it for you."

I whispered, "What for?"

That dread was building.

He sighed, "For anything, and everything, you might need it for while we're away. I'm going to take care of you two, even if I am not here."

My mouth fell open. Silas asked obliviously, "Where are you going, daddy?"

Jasper glanced at Silas, but spoke to me when he answered. "Emmett and Rosalie are buying their

own house in Colorado for a few years. Alice and Edward are considering Dartmouth. Carlisle might transfer to New York, or he might just spend some alone time with Esme."

I asked hopefully, though somehow I already knew the answer, "Are you staying with us?"

Jasper lowered his eyes and whispered, "Bella, if you love me- if you love Silas- at all, you'll look after him. I'm dangerous, and I can't control myself forever. I think I made that very clear."

Ouch.

He played the 'if you love us' card.

How can I say no now?

The edges of my heart began to crack. I watched him fight back a wince. He could feel it just as strongly as I could.

I felt myself starting to cry. "Please don't do this to me, Jasper."

Jasper took a step closer. "It has to be done."

He pulled the two of us into a three-way hug with him. He kissed Silas's forehead and whispered, "You behave yourself for mama, okay munchkin?"

He nodded solemnly, finally picking up on the fact that something wasn't quite right.

Jasper brushed his lips against mine and we shared the softest, most tender and delicate, kiss that we've ever had before.

He rested his cheek against mine and whispered quietly, "I'm coming back, Bella. If you still want me after this, just wait for me, and you can have me."

Then, before I knew it, he was gone.

He was nothing more then a rustle in the wind. A face in my memory.

You know, they say that it hurts the most when you can actually feel your heart breaking.

I agree with them.

It hurts so bad that I gasped once before sinking onto the ground; too weak to support myself.

It hurts so bad that I couldn't even cry anymore.

So bad that I could honestly feel it shattering into a million fragments and clanking into the pit of my stomach; leaving nothing but a raw and gaping hole in it's place.

I held onto Silas tight, afraid that if I let go, I was going to loose him too.

Suddenly he seemed to understand everything with impossible clarity for someone his age.

He leaned against me and pet my shoulder in what someone his age would find a soothing way.

My brave little man stepped up and tried to become my rock.

I gladly allowed myself to find some stability in him, because I was afraid I was going to float away into an ocean of horror.

Jasper was gone.

He left me.

He left us.

He promised me that he was going to be here forever.

That was a lie.

Just like that, as fast as he had entered my life, he was out of it.

It felt like my whole soul was dying.

He's gone.

He's gone.

The light of the sky crept into night, and I found it very fitting; a preview of what will surely be my life's blackest hour.

Darkest.

Hours passed.

It had gotten very, very, cold.

Silas was tucked into my sweater with me, shivering. He did not once complain, however. He didn't ask to go home, or whimper, or anything. He just hugged me and tried to lend me enough love to make up for what I lost.

Nothing was ever going to make up for that.

Jasper was such a huge part of me, the best part of me, and now that he was gone I was a shell. He took away my very core of existence.

That's when the hollow-sounding shouting began.

"Bella!"

I heard them all, several different voices, calling for me.

"Bella, where are you?"

My ears registered the words, but my brain did not allow me to respond.

"Bella!!"

I knew the voices. My father, deputy Mark, Sam Uley even.

"Bella, there you are!" I didn't even lift my head when I heard Jacob's voice from just a few yards away.

He shouted to the others, yelling that he found us, then crouched down beside me and gently lifted my head so I was looking into his big brown eyes.

He asked, horrified, "Bella, did that guy hurt you?"

Yes.

Oh god, yes, he did.

If only someone could understand just how terribly he had hurt me, if only someone else could share in my pain.

I wanted to explain it to Jacob. I wanted to let him know what I was feeling, but I felt my sanity slowly slipping away from me.

I just blinked. I couldn't form words.

I saw panic flash in his eyes and he pleaded, "Talk to me, Bella, what's happened?"

I was only able to whisper the two words that have been echoing in my head for the past few hours.

"He's gone."

I don't know how he did it; maybe it was some Quilete thing; but he seemed to understand everything through just two words. Two small syllables.

Jacob wrapped his arms around me and my head fell onto his shoulder.

He whispered, "It's okay, Bella. Everything is going to be okay, you'll see."

I'll see?

Well, we will see about that.

We will wait and see if Jacob Black has what it takes to live up to that huge promise and make me okay again.

If he can become the sun in my endless life of night.

Dawn.

Alright guys, here's the deal. I know that all of you were against this happening. However, you need to keep in mind that this story is just an AU version of the Twilight Saga. If it was crucial to the plot and happened in the books, it will probably happen in some shape and form in this story. So yes, that means the Cullen family leaves. Yes, it means Jacob is going to become a big part of Bella's life. Really guys, don't freak out on me. I am totally Team Jasper, so just keep calm and try to enjoy the Jacob drama that is to come.