That afternoon like every other, Jacob had come to visit Renesmee. He played with her and lifted her up in the air and caught her safely in his arms each time. This went on for several minutes and each time she giggled ecstatically and he would have a big smile on his face.
He got tired after awhile and so sat on the couch trying to catch his breath. He closed his eyes and furrowed his eyebrows. He let out a big sigh and shook his head. He saw me then staring at him. "What's wrong?" I asked. "Hmm, nothing, nothing." His expression said otherwise. I could see a glimmer of pain behind those eyes. Curiosity struck me and I wondered what could possibly be wrong.
"Let's go take a walk outside, just you and me. We can talk." I was hoping he would say yes for I could see he was struggling to give me an answer.
"Ok, let's go" he finally answered. I waited for him outside while he said goodbye to Renesmee for today. As he started to walk towards me, my eyes stared at his beautiful, russet-colored skin. As always, Jacob conveniently forgot to wear a shirt. His chest moved slowly as he inhaled and exhaled. I wanted to touch his perfect, satin skin. "You okay?" Jacob noticed I was staring at his chest. "Um yea, you've been working out" I said coolly trying to hide the desperation to reach out and touch him.
"Let's have a race; vampire vs. werewolf. Let's see who wins" I said mischievously.
"You're on."
We ran so incredibly fast. Each of us giving it their all. We had been running for an hour or two when Jacob stopped abrutely.
"You know, you never said where we had to stop."
"Oh yea, oops. Well we needed some exercise don't you think?" I looked around. I didn't know where we were. All I could see was the river in front of us and a vast ocean of stars above us.
"Let's lie down and rest for awhile" Jacob said as he lay down on the soft, wet earth.
I lay down beside him. We looked at the stars. There were so many, and all so very beautiful.
"So, what's been going on with you Jake? You seem to be acting strange lately."
"Me?" he said defensively. "What about you. You've been awfully distant".
We lay there, an awkward silence filling the air. The silence was maddening.
Jacob finally spoke up, "I talked to Sam. I, well, lately I've been thinking a lot about you Bella. I think I still love you." That last part he said it in a mere whisper. He had been staring at the sky the whole time, never once turning to look at me.
"Oh. And what does Sam have to do with that?"
"Well, I had imprinted on Renesmee and I was wondering how on earth I could possibly love you when I already imprinted. Sam said that even though it's rare, one could manage to love someone else even after imprinting. My heart and mind could only think of you now."
I lay there quietly, trying to process all this information at once. Jacob propped himself on his elbow and finally turned to face me. The moonlight lit his face and I could see the apparent sadness in his eyes. "I love you Bella and I know there's nothing I can do about it."
I didn't know what to say. I had to say what I too felt for him. I couldn't keep it inside.
"I love you too Jake. All I could think of lately is what might have happened if I had chosen you. Every time you are gone, my heart cries out for you. I want you Jacob Black." The words had rushed out so quickly, but he understood and with that he kissed me.
He kissed me with such passion and eagerness. His lips soft and gentle caressing my lips with every motion. I wanted to feel his warm skin against my body. Without thinking, I unbuttoned down my blouse, now dirty from the cold, damp earth, in one quick blur.
He took noticed and paused, but I reassured him and kissed him before he had time to think and regret something. He started then to move down and kiss my neck ever so gently with his warm lips against my cool skin. Then slowly made his way to my hips and kissed every inch of them possible. I wanted to take off the rest of my clothes, to feel his body against mine, when I suddenly heard a noise off into the far distance, but coming towards us at a fast rate. Jacob and I looked at each other with terrified eyes, for we knew exactly who it was.