Chapter 3
Just as quickly as I had taken off my clothes, I had put them back on in record speed. Jacob had never taken anything off, but his shirt, in which he never had on either way. I stared at Jacob knowing I would only see agony in his eyes. He kissed me once more and embraced me, never wanting to let go. "I love you so much Bella, it's killing me inside." And he ran off, not wanting to make the situation more painful than it already was for the both of us.
I stood there motionless, numb. I couldn't break down now for Edward was approaching.
"Bella. Thank God I finally found you. What on earth are you and Jacob doing out so far?"
"I-I'm sorry, I guess we got sidetracked." I couldn't help but look down the entire time. I didn't want him to know I had betrayed him.
"What's wrong? Did that dog say something to upset you? Is that why he's not here anymore?"
"No,no. He had to leave because his pack needed him I think. Don't worry. Let's head back home."
So he grabbed me in one swift motion and put me on his back just like he used to when I used to be human. Even though I could easily keep up with him now, he was still the fastest one out of all the Cullens, including me.
We were home in less than an hour. I told Edward I wanted to be alone, and so I went upstairs to take a shower. I wanted to relax, process everything that had just happened a few minutes ago. Edward stood at the foot of the stairs looking at me as I went up the stairs. I was grateful he couldn't read my mind, I didn't want him to know that my heart, once again, longed for Jacob.
I went straight to the shower and went in. The hot water instantly reminded me of Jacob's warm body, radiating heat, touching against my cold skin. Flashbacks of that moment we had came into my mind. I could still smell the aroma of Jacob's earthy essence on my skin even as I dried myself off.
I put a fresh pair of clothes on, opting this time for a nice flowy, black dress. I couldn't stay here, knowing full well that Jacob was out there alone. I wanted to be with him, comfort him. I needed him.
What's wrong with me? I said to myself. How can I be doing this to Edward? He's done everything for me, sacrificed everything. I'm so childish, for not knowing exactly what I want. I'm so stupid. I looked at my reflection on my vanity mirror. I hated myself. With a burst of anger at myself, I threw a vase filled with flowers Edward had given me at the mirror and the glass shattered everywhere. Pieces of glass lay all over me. Screw it I said. So I jumped off the bedroom window and sneaked out to find Jacob.