A.N Ok this song was partially inspired by a boring day in class where I got away with writing while pretending I was writing a letter and by my sleep deprived mind that day. The reediting and adding was inspired by the song 'Thankyou for the Venom' by My Chemical Romance while Bella was in the car. Edwards thoughts came from the song 'When the Day Met the Night' by Panic at the Disco… random and off topic to what he thinks I know but hey what ever! In case you were somehow confused the last part is Edward Prov. I felt Edward needed a say and I was growing sick of Bella. This could happen occasionally so look out for them! As always feel free to review PM what ever I really want to hear all your thoughts!
I let out a yawn; no one as around to comment on how tired I looked. I had sat in the truck and sobbed silent tears painfully until they would no longer flow. It was in that time I had made my realisation: Jacob wouldn't be able to ever deal with this. Hell I didn't think I would be able to. I shouldn't have dragged him into all this. It was my burden to carry. I would find a way to deal with this; I had to. I turned the key and the truck roared to life breaking the silence and making me jump slightly.
It was dark outside the truck and the rain had just begun to fall: Once again I was coming home late. I looked down at my watch that pulsed 2 am softly.
I didn't know how I had managed to stay out that long again. Time seemed to be passing at strange intervals whenever the tears began.
'Everyone must be so worried' I thought my stomach churning.
What was Edward thinking? Was he out looking for me? What if he went to the hospital and I wasn't there? Would he be angry, worried confused would he demand an explanation?
It felt as if a light bulb went off as my hand felt out my bag on the passenger seat. I opened it up keeping my eyes on the dark wet road. Once I felt the smooth outline of my phone I smiled slightly; the beauty of technology! I flipped it open and glanced down at it for a second. Blank. I glanced down again in confusion. Nothing. I took one final quick glance down before it finally process through my sleep deprived head; my phone was dead. Cursing under my breath for not charging the battery I put it back in my bag and kept driving. The rain slowly started to get heavier as I squinted at the road. It was getting harder to see anything and the head lights of other cars were now only fait blurs in darkness.
My mind began to process the facts in an attempt to keep alert. Nobody knew where I was, where I had been or where I was going. My phone was dead so nobody could call me and find out. Anything could happen and nobody would know: I was screwed.
I let out another yawn and rubbed my sore eyes. I could feel thick black bags forming under them, turning me into a panda look-alike. I turned on the radio loud to try and keep me awake. State of the Union by Rise Against hit my like a punch as the rhythm and beat vibrated through the tuck. I mouthed the screaming words my mind feeling like it was being overloaded. The music was doing its job; I was awake.
Countdown, to the very end,
Equality, an
invitation that we wont extend
Ready aim, pull the trigger now,
in time you firmly secure your place in hell
State of the
union address,
reads war torn country still a mess
the words:
power, death, and distorted truth
are read between the lines of
the red, white, and blue
All too quickly though the chorus seemed to blur into mumble as my eyes closed on their own accord. The sound of a sharp toot of an oncoming car pierced through my mind and awoke me from my sudden slumber. I screamed in my head as I swerved out of the way: that was too close.
A small voice in the back of my mind yelled at me to pull over at least to call somebody to pick me up. This was all going to end badly.
'Your almost home don't worry.' I told myself under my breath. It was true at least; I saw my turn off coming up on an oncoming sign. It was only a few minutes to go.
My eyes dragged shut again pulling me into unconsciousness. I hadn't slept for almost two days. My mind began to wander in the darkness when a bright light awoke me again. I snapped back into consciousness again and swerved from the piercing horn and bright lights coming towards me. My truck began to turn but my reaction time had been to slow as the light came closer. The blinding beam engulfed me as everything went deathly silent…
The rain formed intricate patterns on the large windows as it steadily fell from the sinister sky. A bolt of lightning abruptly broke through the clouds lighting up the dark dining room with a flash of gold. I paced back and forth at human speed around the room my arms folded tightly across my chest.
It had been over 17 hours since I had seen her leave this morning. I smiled slightly to myself; Bella was a horrible liar. I knew she hadn't been going to the doctors today. She was off doing something she didn't want me to know about. I had gone against my better judgement and foolishly let it slide. I thought she was off doing something harmless but now I was beginning to think it was something worse.
What if she was off with that mutt Jacob again? Something had happened at the party… Jasper had warned me against inquiring further. Her emotions when she had come home had been full blown regret fear and panic. I was so close to breaking the stupid treaty and breaking his neck. The fantasy played around in my mind constantly and I had even contemplated it a few times. That was until Alice would come rushing to me and blocked all ways out until I calmed.
Dialling her number again I held the receiver to my ear it anticipation. For the hundredth time I was was connected to the incessant beeping. I snarled in fury and threw the phone at the wall. It shattered in to a thousand shards of glass and plastic on the floor. I walked over the where it had hit and felt the deep dint it had left in the wall. I sighed in annoyance; Esme wasn't going to be happy.
Alice's warily mind filled me as she entered the room and leaned on the doorframe. I turned around and stared into her troubled eyes. My brow rose in optimism but suddenly changed to sadness as she shook her head slowly. Of the entire family Alice understood my pain the most.
Who knows what could have happened by now? Compulsively I looked down at my watch again; it was now 2.30am! Slumping down on the couch I exhaled covering my stressed face with both hands. Alice sat next to me humming softly placing her hand around my shoulders comfortingly.
"Its going to be fine, Bella can take care of herself; she's strong. Nothings going to happen, she's going to be alright." She whispered reassuringly though it didn't calm my nerves.
"Then let me go out and find her…" I murmured back in frustration.
"You know why you can't. Just stay here its ok…" She suddenly went silent as I looked up at her. Her featured had gone blank as she stared off into the distance. She flashed back into recognition and looked to me miserably. My mind was overloaded with the vision as well as we both uttered a single word. "No".
"I though you couldn't see her…" I asked softly. She shook her head in confusion.
"It's because she's not there yet…" she answered back almost silently. "I only saw Carlisle; anything could have happened. You have to stay calm no matter what's happened...for Bella." She handed me her phone as it began to vibrate.
"Edward its Carlisle, you better get here right now… its Bella… its bad." I slammed the phone shut and raced for the garage with Alice following right behind me.