Light; it was the only way I could describe it. I felt weightless as I floated effortlessly around. It was what I imagined space to be. Freedom stretched out in every direction, there was nothing around only light. It was so bright that as I looked down at my arms they seemed to glow. I felt… well, terrific! There wasn't a worry or problem to be found in my mind. My body tingled with happiness and relaxation and I felt like I had just been to a spa. Warmth bathed my body along with the light as I closed my eyes and took it in. I had never felt this good before; I didn't want to leave. I didn't actually know how I had gotten here but I didn't care either.
'It's just like heaven…' I thought to myself contently. I breathed out as I drifted higher and higher. It felt as if something was calling me pulling me upwards. I didn't know what it was but it felt…right to go there. I suddenly convulsed in pain. It felt as if a sudden jolt of electricity passed through my body snapping me awake. I open my eyes in shock and pain as I began to drift downwards again. I looked around in confusion as to why but all I could see was light.
'How odd it feels not to worry' I said out loud laughing softly. The noise seem to echo outwards and just kept going, diminishing as it went until it was silent again. I let myself drift relaxing my body until I abruptly felt my feet hit the ground. I looked around again; it felt like I was standing on a movie set.
The light seemed to have dimmed and now bathed me in a soft glow. I looked down at my self in surprise; my clothes had changed from before.
'What had I been wearing?' I mumbled to myself; I couldn't remember anything. I was now wearing a white cotton dress. It flowed with the soft breeze and felt like the most comfortable thing I had ever worn. I spun around a few times smiling as the dress flowed with me mimicking my movements freely. Steadying myself I took a closer at look at where I had landed. With a spasm of sudden surprise I realised I was in a meadow…
'My meadow,' I whispered as a small piece of memory came back.
'Why is it mine?' I asked myself though I was returned with no answer. It was hard to recognise anything as it was coated in a thick layer of silvery mist. It made it look even more beautiful than before; like a weird fantasy world. My bare feet had completely vanished: I took a few steps forward and the mist swirled up my legs. Like the light it felt warm and tingly on my skin. I laughed a grin exposing itself as I ran through the mist yelling and screaming in joy. 'Could this really be happened?' I thought joyfully.
My breath grew ragged so I slowed down and dropped to the ground and lay on the soft grass. I giggled softly as I realised I was completely covered in fog. My limbs spread out as closed my eyes.
"Bella…?" A silky soft voice whispered breaking the silence. I jumped slightly as it broke the stillness I recognised the voice but I didn't know where from. The voice continued apprehensively as I lay completely still smiling and stifling giggles.
"Bella…Where are you? You need to come back to me…please!"
Come back to him, back to where? I frowned slightly this time the uncertainty was more distressing. What did this guy want with me? I was very happy where I was. I didn't want to go anywhere.
"Bella please I'm begging you don't leave me! You have to leave with me now." I could hear the pain and agony in his voice. I decided to risk questioning him why would I need to leave?
"I like it here why should I go anywhere with you?" my voice was but a whisper and I was uncertain if he would be able to hear it. His footsteps came closer to me and I knew he had heard. He had good hearing!
"Go home with me Bella: Home where you belong with your family!" I heard his feet slow to a halt as he looked for me in the mist. Go home, a family, what was he talking about?
"I don't have a family…I… I don't remember anything…" I whispered my mind racing to remember. Where had I been before I had come here? Why was I here? Questions buzzed around in my mind as I silently waited for some sort of explanation.
"Bella, please try to remember. Don't you remember me, Edward? What about Alice or Jasper? Emmett and Rosalie… What about Carlisle or Esme?" His voice trailed off before he continued. "Jacob…?" My mind suddenly spun with confusion. A memory came rushing back to me in a painful blow. It felt as if I had been stabbed. Jacob… I was pregnant to Jacob! Why was I pregnant? Why did I feel horrible when I thought about it?
"Jacob…" I whispered. I instantly regretted speaking that single word as I felt the man near me feel the same stabbing sense of pain I did. Why was he so upset; what did he care about Jacob?
"Yes… Jacob… do you… do you remember me?" he asked in a tiny voice. I stood u cautiously and stared at him uncertainly only to be suddenly awed by his appearance. He was… well stunning. He too was dressed in plain cotton clothing but he somehow managed to make it look amazing. He stood there slightly shocked as I stood a small smile pressed on his lips.
I took him all in greedily from his feet until our eyes met up. Two golden eyes stared back at me silently pleading with me to remember. I racked my brain but I was told nothing about the stranger in front of me. Was I meant to remember him from somewhere? I stared more intently into his eyes; my heart skipped a beat. I frowned in confusion, I somehow felt…connected to him though I didn't know why.
'I… I don't remember…I'm sorry" His smile instantly disappeared and I felt tears prickle in my eyes.
"Bella, you love me! So much in fact were getting married soon, you just have to come home with me." He pleaded taking a step towards me. I instinctively mimicked his step only backwards.
"I'm sorry I don't remember you. I don't want to leave here either it's really nice." I breathed fearfully. I watched through his eyes his heart break in two as he turned slowly.
"I'm so sorry, I tried my best…" He whispered as he slowly walked off into the forest. I watched him go in stunned silence not breathing. Just as his silhouette disappeared among the trees I felt ache shudder though me. The ache increased in pain just as I was knocked to the ground. It felt as if someone had punched me and I was winded. I cringed in pain, it all felt so real… like I had been though it before… I curled up in pain culching at my sides. It felt like if I didn't I would be physically ripped in half. I screamed out in agony as I was hit with memories from all angles. They felt like knifes stabbing at me angrily.
Edward… MY Edward… my life, my being, my other half! How could I have forgotten about him! Now he was … gone. I suddenly remembered where I had felt this pain before; when Edward had left me… This couldn't be happening again! I stood up grimacing in pain as I began to stumble forward. Tears poured down my face in panic as I began to sprint for the trees he had walked to.
'Edward Cullen don't you dare leave me again! Not again! PLEASE EDWARD! YOU COWARDLY BLOOD SUCKING BASTARD, COME BACK RIGHT NOW!!" I screamed and yelled until my lungs seemed to burst. I could breathe... No oxygen would fill my lungs. I stood up and ran after him into the trees I began hyperventilating trying to breathe but I couldn't. Tears blurred my vision as I bolted through the trees stumbling over again and again. I fell to the ground painfully; the beautiful forest had been replaced with thick harsh rocky land. I looked around in a dizzy confused state; this was the place… the horrible place I never wanted to revisit. It was where Edward had originally left me…