Two years ago.

Fai was troubled. Lately he and his boyfriend Kuro had not been speaking. Also he had noticed him eyeing other men. So summing up all the courage he had, he decided it was time to break it off. Heart racing, Fai gently picked up the phone and slowly pressed each button. With each press Fais heart rate increased and increased, he was scared. Before the last number, Fai started to think, no I can't do this. Putting down the phone, Fai got up and started to go to his bed to cry. Then the phone rang. Running back to it he checked the id and picked up. "Hi sweets." He said, trying to fake happiness.

"Were done," said a voice unusually mean and cold. With that the line went dead and Fai slid to the floor. For the next week Fai would not leave his room. He just couldn't stop crying.

One Year Ago

Twelve months later Fai was finally dating again. His name was Karl, an American, and very nice. There dates consisted of moonlight walks, romantic outings, and quiet picnics. Fai could not be happier. One star full night, after sex Karl suggested "let's go for a walk." Fai who had been cleaning the floor at the moment laughed a gentle chuckle

"Karl sweetie it's below zero out there, and you know I hate wearing coats. They make me look fat," Fai said pouting, "besides, you have work tomorrow. Go home and get some rest." Getting up Fai gently ran across his neo white carpet and fell into a little hug with Karl.

"If you say so…" he said before kissing Fai gently on the check before leaving. Phew Fai thought. In reality Fai would have loved the walking idea, but today was the anniversary of the break up. See if it had been any other man, Fai would have been way over him. But he and Kurogane had been dating since elementary school. I know right, they were fifth graders. Going over to a cabinet in the corner, Fai took out a big bottle of Jin. Fai never drank but today he needed something to deal with the pain. He had planed to stay with Karl. But he just couldn't, he had to drink. It was the only way to deal with the gigantic hole that was his heart.

Fifteen cups later, Fai was wasted and crying. In-between sobs fai couldn't control screaming and yelling about how he was so stupid. He should have noticed it earlier and ended it on his terms. But no, he got one chance to do it his way, and he blew it. Now he was screwed up, and no amount of therapy could fix it. Felling weird Fai gently laid down his head and planned to take a nap.

In the midst of a dream about sex, Fai started to see a bright light. And unlike others, who might have freaked out about death approaching, he was calm. Thank you he murmured, I can't do this anymore. And then Boom! Waking up Fai felt awful, he had a big headache, and there was this annoying beeping sound somewhere around him. When he finally regained sight he saw that he was in a hospital. Sitting in a seat next to his bead stood Karl. He was fast asleep, but his face was filled with worry lines. Fai felt guilty; Karl was great, greater then most. But Fai just couldn't find the true power to fully love him. And that's when he noticed……

Hey guys, this chapter was an idea I had been playing around with for a while. There will be two parts. But I hope you enjoy it, don't worry there's a happy ending. As I said before, I'm in dire need of a beta. If there's anyone you know that could help me it would be greatly appreciated.