Originally, I was going to flashback to New Moon and Breaking Dawn, but I realized that there wasn't much to do with Demetri in that battle in BD. I feel that just putting his parts in New Moon down gives a good idea of how he thinks and reacts to situations. Doing another for ED would be a lot like beating the proverbial dead horse. Anyways, here is a glimpse into Demetri's mind.

Chapter 10 – I Hate My Life

April 18, 2006

I paced my room as I did so often when I was alone. I sometimes felt that if I didn't keep moving I may curl up and let the misery have me. However, that was something that I could not afford to do.

I needed to keep up pretenses. If I lost control, just for a moment, at the wrong time, I could be discovered. Keeping thoughts secret from Aro was not an easy task. Compartmentalizing one's mind took years of practice and patience, even with Gerald as a tutor.

All those years ago it had seemed like such a good idea. To implant myself within the walls of Volterra until the time came to destroy it. The lack of freedom had been worth it and I had regretted nothing. Not until that fateful day in December of 1915. If I closed my eyes, I could still smell the scent of raspberries and lotus flowers. I could still see the way she looked in the store windows looking for something and that adorable little frustrated expression when she couldn't find it. I could still feel the way her hair felt like silk against my cold hard hands even after I had been forced to convert her.

I refused to remember that night in any great detail. Changing her had enhanced her already beautiful features, and to me she would always be beautiful, but I still hated the loss of those eyes. The strange blue-gray shade that had first caught my heart had been lovely. I wondered what the golden shade looked like on her. The last time I had seen my love she still had a newborn's bright red eyes.

I closed my eyes again to try to focus on ever line of her face when suddenly my door was shaking with the force of someone pounding on it. I growled at it.

I put the walls back up in my mind and opened the door to find Felix there. I pretend to be friends with the man, but an all actuality he was a blood thirsty savage that I couldn't stand.

"What do you want, Felix?"

"You have got to come down and see this, man."

"See what?"

"There's a vampire downstairs trying to get Aro to kill him. A suicidal vampire, can you believe it. Apparently, he's was in love with some dumb human chick who's now dead and he wants to die now too. How fucking pathetic is that."

I restrained myself from ripping Felix's head off his shoulders. I knew that if anything ever happened to Abigail, I'd be wanting the same thing. I felt for the unknown vampire. If Aro refused him, maybe I could help him out. Instead of voicing my true opinions, I did what I always do; I lied. "Well, let's go then. This should be interesting."

We made our way downstairs to the entrance of the tower where Aro, Caius, and Marcus spent the great majority of their time. We entered in the back door of the chamber and what I saw inside shocked me too my core. It took every once of will power to keep my mental walls intact and give nothing away. The obviously broken man in front of me was one I would recognize anywhere. I'd seen him a few times when I looked in on Abigail. It was Edward Masen.

I knew I couldn't kill him. I didn't know if I would be able to save him either. As much as I wanted to keep Abigail's little brother safe, I couldn't compromise my position in Volterra.

As we waited for Aro and the others to return with their verdict, I took in Edward. His eyes were as black as pitch and the shadows below his eyes went almost half way down his cheeks. He was a bit older than the last time I had seen him, maybe 17 or 18 physically. I reasoned that someone must have saved him from the Spanish Influenza after all.

Aro came in then, interrupting me from my musings.

"Mr. Cullen," he said. "I am sorry, but I am going to have to decline you request. With your talent for mind reading at a distance, I feel that killing you would be a waste. I do, however, would like to offer you a place among my guard."

For a moment I wasn't sure if Edward was going to go in to a rage of laugh at the offer. He did neither. "I respectfully decline your offer. I hate to do this, but I will find a way to force your hand, Aro. I wish to die and nothing can change that. Without my Bella, I have no reason to continue this existence."

With that, he turned in walked out of the room. Everyone looked shocked except for Aro, he just smiled as always. It was still creepy.

"Demetri, Felix," he called.

We both went and stood before him and awaited the instructions that I knew where coming. "Follow him. If he does nothing to drastic, bring him back. Kill him only if you must." He left the room in a manner similar to the way Edward just left.

"Damn," Felix said. "I really hoped to get a good kill in today. I hope he does something stupid."

I just ignored him and started to follow Edward.

April 19, 2006

It was just before noon and Felix and I stood about a hundred yards away from the suicidal Edward. I didn't like this at all. Edward stood shirtless at the edge of the alley. He was going to walk right into the very crowded and very sunny square. As soon as he did it we were going to have to kill him. Felix was practically vibrating with anticipation. At least he had shut up.

The clock began to toll and I braced myself for what seemed like the inevitable. I was silently pleading with Edward to change him mind. Just has he was about to step into the sun, a miracle happened.

Out of nowhere, a very lovely young woman with long dark hair barreled right into him. It take me long to figure out from there conversation that this was the infamous Bella, obviously not dead.

Suddenly, Edward seemed to figure out that we were here. He spun Bella around and put her up against the wall, as he took a defensive position in front of her. I recognized the look on his face; he would gladly die to keep the pretty brunette safe.

"Greetings, gentlemen," Edward said. "I don't think I'll be requiring your services today. I would appreciate it very much, however, if you would send my thanks to your masters."

If I had been alone, I simply would have backed off and left the couple in peace. Unfortunately, I had idiot numb-chuck here with me. I had no choice now but to take them back to Aro and pray that he was in a merciful mood today. First, I had to keep a fight from breaking out here.

"Shall we take this conversation to a more appropriate venue," Felix said. He was trying to sound intimidating; I thought he just sounded like an idiot.

Apparently so did Edward. "I don't believe that will be necessary. I know your instructions, Felix. I haven't broken any rules."

Time for me to play the fucking diplomat. "Felix merely meant to point out the proximity of the sun. Let us seek cover."

"I'll be right behind you," Edward said. "Bella, why don't you go back to the square and enjoy the festival?"

"No, bring the girl," Felix said. He was obviously trying to undermine my efforts not to have a fight right here.

Edward refuse and Felix insisted. This went back and forth for a while and I started to feel like a damn politician. After a few minutes of bickering an incredibly small pixie looking woman came up to stand next to Edward. He topaz eyes indicated she was an animal drinker and probably part of Edward's family.

We argued a bit more and then I heard the annoying little voice.

"Enough."

Jane, the quintessential psychopathic bitch. Small annoying package; big scary power. I guess Edward knew who she was, because the defeat in him was obvious.

Edward, Bella, and one who I just heard Edward call Alice, walked behind Jane. Felix and I brought up in the rear. The three of them were obviously having a reunion of sort so I tuned them out. As we slowly made are way down the tunnel, it became hard not to laugh. Felix was getting so frustrated at the human's slow pace. I didn't mind so much.

All too soon we made it too the lobby and were greeted by the other small annoying one, Alec. I just tried to tune everyone out. I wondered what kind of mood Aro was in today. I hoped it was a good one. When I heard Felix call dibs on Bella, I once again had to resist the urge to remove his head.

When we went in to the chamber, I did my best to ignore the happenings around me. I didn't want to chance getting angry. However, I did pay attention briefly when Jane tried out her power on Bella. When it didn't work, Jane made the most screwed up expression. It was pretty damn funny. So, I gathered that Bella was a shield. I hoped it was enough to save her life.

I went back to tuning everything out until Aro told me to lead them out. Damn, I thought as we were leaving, Heidi's back. I didn't like having to feed from humans but I had little choice in the matter.

I waved the walking dead past us and spotted Heidi. She thought she was pretty, but I found her much too superficial. However, pretending I was mildly interested kept her off my back. If she thought she could have someone easily, she lost interest. It worked out well.

"Welcome home, Heidi," I greeted with a good dose of false enthusiasm.

"Demetri."

"Nice fishing."

"Thanks. Aren't you coming?"

"In a minute. Save me a few." With any luck none would be left by the time I got there.

Heidi left and the three before me fled to the lobby. When I caught up it was obvious that the girl was about to have a break down. I quickly told them not to leave until dark and went back to the chamber.

I guess luck wasn't on my side. Heidi had saved me a young American couple. Not wanting them to feel anymore pain or fear, I snapped both of their necks simultaneously before I fed on their blood. Sometimes, I hate my life.

Present Day

I huddled in my cell. Aro had made cells in the basement of Volterra that could hold vampires. I don't know how Aro found out about me. Tomorrow the torture would begin. I wondered what was in store for me. Would he use Jane? Perhaps one of the devices that Caius had manufactured out of the teeth and claws of lycans. I knew my days were numbered, that the days of my cause were numbered. I just prayed that I could still keep Abigail safe.

Felix POV

Bastard traitor. I always knew something was going on. When Aro asked me to follow that blonde gay vampire because he thought he was up to something I never expected to find this, however. I just thought Demetri might have been hiding himself a few human playmates or something. Huh.

I hope they let me participate in the torture.

Well, this is all for tonight. I hope you enjoyed it and I will try get more up tomorrow. Please review.