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'It's going to be fine. Everything is going to be fine. It's all going to work out. Happy thoughts, happy thoughts. You're going to be fine. There's nothing to worry about. What's the worst that could happen?'

These thoughts spun around my head like a silent pep talk. Not only couldn't I lie to people I was a horrible liar to myself. Thinking about this wasn't helping my nerves either.

As my brain noticed the unsuccessfulness in these words it seemed to change tactics for the worse spinning me into panic.

'What am I doing here? This is going to end so badly. How did I get here? How did Edward even let me get here? Oh right, I convinced him to let me go. Crap.'

My head rested on the steering wheel in front of Jacob's house in La Push. I had gotten this far on my own free will and a slight push out the door from Edward. We both knew why I had to go here; it wasn't a matter of choice.

I knew Jacob too well; if I didn't come and sort things out myself he would come and sort them out himself and the worst possible time. I could almost imagine him running in; me half way in labour, to demand what was going on with his child. I laughed darkly knowing that he would do it.

'Cummon Bella pull yourself together you can do this.'

I rolled my eyes at myself. This whole pep talking stuff wasn't working at all.

'Do it for the baby!'

Nope that didn't help at all.

'For Edward!'

He doesn't need help, if he had had his way it would be him sitting in front of La Push now.

'Why are you here then?'

Why did my sub conscious have to be so nosy?

"Because if I don't do it then something bad will happen; it always does." I told myself impatiently my head still on the steering wheel. Okay now I was going insane.

'Do it now; before you talk yourself out of it then.' It retorted blankly.

"Who's talking who out of what now?" I mused stepping out of the car; yes defiantly crazy.

It was a miserable day in La Push as I ran over to the front door. The rain was pelting down and hitting me like millions of tiny needles. The wind whipped my hair into my face as I made it under cover half blind. Could there not be a single nice day around here? Why did it have to always be so gloomy and dark? It surprised me when I realised this time Jacob didn't greet me straight away. At least this it gave me a chance to come up with an opening line.

'Jacob we need to talk.'

Wait cut that there was no reason to freak him out straight away. I didn't want him pulling a runner again.

'Hey Jacob it's been awhile.'

No trying to hard to be casual and it was my fault it had been this long. I don't want him thinking of our last encounter and pulling a runner again.

'Jacob, I'm so sorry about what happened at the hospital.'

Gives him too many opening to talk about or give him a chance to pull a runner again.

Okay I'll have to do some cut and pasting.

'Jacob, I'm sorry about what happened at the hospital I didn't mean it. It's been awhile since I've seen you but we need to talk.'

Perfect.

Now it was just a matter of spitting out the words in front of him. Taking a deep breath I knocked on the door with three brisk taps. I could hear the knock echo through the silent house. I waited a moment in the cold before trying again.

Knock, knock, knock.

The now impatient sound once again echoed with no sound of response.

Maybe he was sleeping?

I darted around to the back of the house and peered in through a window to his bedroom. Sure enough there he was sleeping soundly. I slid the window and crawled in standing over his bed.

What now?

My finger prodded him gently but his soft snores continued.

"Jacob?" I whispered.

More snores.

Opting for more extreme measures I grabbed his shoulders shaking him briskly.

"WAKE UP JACOB!" I yelled before giving up and collapsing on the bed. It was useless he was out and there was no waking him up. I looked out the window; it looked to be about late noon. How could someone sleep this late? Then again he was most likely up all night. I moved his flailing limbs to one side and leaned my body on the bed head. Looking around idly I picked up a book and started reading passing away the minutes; surely he would wake up soon.

"Bella, What are you doing here? Hello… Bella wake up!" Jacobs's voice pierced through my muddled dreams surfacing me groggily to reality. I sat up stretching out my stiff muscles; falling asleep half sitting on a wooden surface was not a good idea. My blurred vision focused in on Jacob's confused face at it snapped awake.

"Jacob what are you doing… oh right." This didn't seem like the answer he was looking for as his puzzled expression remained.

"I'm sorry Jacob I was uh.." My mind tried to remember the perfectly reasonable excuse to why he woke up to find me sleeping in his bed… again.

"You really can get enough of this bed can you?" He laughed relaxing next to me. Dang, sometimes I was sure he could read my mind or my face at least.

"Ha-ha very funny no I'm here to talk to you about something important." My stiff tone caught his attention as he sat up next to me.

"It's about-" I began before he cut me of knowingly.

"The baby," stupid werewolf mind reading face reading magic, I'd been in the super natural world to long.

"Don't give me that look it was obvious what you were going to say."

See what I mean?

"So what about the mini me?" he asked casually laying back down. I sunk onto the bed as well my back aching; that is really uncomfortable wood.

"Well were do you think your going to fit in with it Jacob?" I asked getting straight to the point.

"Well uh…" he seemed slightly put of by this question as I watching his brain run over drive.

"I guess I would like to get to know… it. You don't want me there I'm guessing. What did the leech say about it?"

I gritted my teeth; why did there always have to be some sort of competition between those two!

"We haven't discussed it yet" I managed.

"Well then Bella, what do you want to happen?"

I was taken aback y this, what did I want? I wanted a happy family, for my problems with all this to go away. I wanted some normalcy if that was even possible.

"I want a family that will work." I said defiantly okay so it wasn't a good answer but what did he expect.

"How do you expect a family of vampires a human and a half werewolf baby to work?"

I really should have thought this through before I came here.

"I'll make it work; beside normalcy was never our style."

He sighed rolling his eyes slightly as he sat closer his arms around me.

"Bella," he began looking me in the eyes, "Do you really think this will work. You think your blood suckers will survive with a WEREWOLF in the house. They will never truly accept it you know." I pulled away from his grip unlocking our eyes as well.

"Edwards really excited about this, we'll make it work." My voice was failing me as tear welled up in my eyes.

"Oh Bella don't get upset. I'm just trying to get you out of this fantasy world you've built up. Really this kid should stay around its own kind is all I'm trying to say…" I raised an eye brow at him.

"What do you mean?"

"Like I've tried to say hundreds of times; life here. You don't have to dump that bloodsucker but if you lived here… It would have a better life; with its own kind."

"You know I can't do that Jacob…" I answered in a small voice.

"You know you can Bella, just give it a try…"

"Jacob…" My voice was harsher than before as I got off the bed standing over him for the first time. I didn't want these thoughts plaguing my already muddled mind.

"Bella…" His tone matched mine perfectly as he stood up; well I had fun being the tall one while it lasted.

"I can't handle this right now" I muttered as I walked out of the room.

"Bella wait-" Jacob called hurrying after my, he grabbed my wrists spinning me around to face him.

"Please Bella just stay here a few days; it'll be fun." I looked him straight in the eye keeping my face blank but I yawn escaped. I couldn't understand it; I had been sleeping for what felt like hours and yet I was still tired. He quickly looked down at his watch and back up slight concern in his eyes.

"Bella you should just crash here for the night at least; don't want a repeat of last time."

A slight shudder ran through both of us as the memories came flashing back. I sighed in defeat.

"Fine but only for the night okay" He nodded happily as I lay in front of the t.v. Jacob came and snuggled up next to me as my eyes sagged.

"No funny business okay…" I mumbled already half asleep, his soft chuckle was the last noise I heard.