Here's the moment you have all been waiting for…

The song is not mine, it is Ronan Keating, The Long Goodbye if you want to you tube it and hear it!

Hope it was worth the wait (I'm soo nervous!)

Ang

CHAPTER 5

"Gabi, I think you should come and see this…" Karen called to her as she stood in the kitchen making a snack the following afternoon.

Gabi wandered through to the living room and Troy was on the screen, on stage at one of his concerts, performing his ass off.

She opened her mouth, sitting down as she sat mesmerized.

"What is this?" she whispered to Karen

"Tour special" she answered and Gabi smiled as Troy ran across the stage, hyping up his fans.

The clip cut back to the presenter, "It wasn't just up-tempo numbers that Troy sang on tour, rumour has it he split up with his girlfriend before going away, but he dedicated a song to her every night, leaving fans wondering over the status of their relationship…" she announced and Gabi looked to Karen, shocked, as Troy came on screen again.

"Okay ladies, I'm gonna slow it down a bit now…" he said and they screamed in response. He perched on a stool on stage, microphone in hand "And you know every single one of you has a place in my heart…" he smiled as the screams got louder "but this one is for a girl who has all of my heart. She knows who she is" he said and Gabi's mouth dropped as she watched, awed, tears starting to stream down her face at his words, before he'd even started the song.

She recognized it as another Ronan Keating song, 'The long goodbye' and felt goose bumps roll up her arms as the opening piano chords began.

"#I know they say if you love somebody
You should set them free
But it sure is hard to do
Yeah, it sure is hard to do
And I know they say if they don't come back again
Then it's meant to be
But those words ain't pulling me through
Cos I'm still in love with you
I spend each day here waiting for a miracle
But it's just you and me going through the mill

Climbing up the hill

This is the long goodbye
Somebody tell me why
Two lovers in love can't make it
Just what kind of love keeps breaking a heart?
No matter how hard I try
You're gonna make me cry
Come on, baby, it's over, let's face it
All that's happening here is a long goodbye

Sometimes I ask my heart did we really
Give our love a chance?
and I know without a doubt
I turned it inside out
And if we walked away
would make more sense
But it tears me up inside
Just to think we still could try
How long must we keep riding on a carousel
Going round and round and never getting anywhere?
On a wing and prayer

This is the long goodbye
Somebody tell me why
Two lovers in love can't make it
Just what kind of love keeps breaking a heart?
No matter how hard I try
You're gonna make me cry
Come on, baby, it's over, Let's face it
All that's happening here is the long goodbye

The long goodbye
The long goodbye
This is the long goodbye

Someone please tell me why

Are you ever coming back again?
Are you ever coming back again?
Are you ever coming back again?
Guess I'm never coming back again.#"

His head dropped a little as he wiped sweat from his brow and then a tear from his eye, quickly before the fans saw, then the lights dipped to signal the end of the show.

Karen was staring at Gabi who was bawling her eyes out, thinking how she could have got this so wrong? Every night he had sung that song to her. Just for her. She had his heart. She wondered if it were still true, was it too late?

She thought back to last night, how he had come and helped her out, dropped everything to make sure she were okay, again.

And she knew then that she wasn't second to his career, and she was crazy to even think that in the first place.

"What am I gonna do?" she asked Karen

"Find him?" she suggested "Get your ass down to his apartment and go begging on your hands and knees?"

"Karen" she said "I need a lift!" and then got up, grabbed her stuff, checked her appearance and ran into her room to change.

She came out, pausing at the door "What if I'm too late?" she asked quietly

"Let's just go!" she giggled and grabbed Gabi's hand, the pair of them jumping in Karen's car and Karen driving all the way to Troy's apartment.

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Karen dropped Gabi off and asked her to call her if she needed a ride home.

Gabi walked up to Troy's room and knocked on the door, her heart hammering in her chest.

No-one answered and she sighed, thinking, why? Why, the moment I remember what a fucking doofus I am and try to make amends, is Troy not in his apartment?

She put her forehead against his door.

"Looking for someone?" a soft voice said behind her and she stood up straight, scared to turn around, but did so, taking in his beautiful face, those soulful blue eyes, his shaggy light brown hair, the creases in his face from where he'd smiled so much, his lips which were full and so kissable.

"My soul mate. I found him once and you know what? I lost him. Stupid me let him fall through my fingers…" she said gently, tears falling

"Do I know him?" he asked on a whisper, his own eyes watering at her words

She shrugged, smiling in spite of her tears, but only the ghost of a smile "He kinda looks a lot like you actually…he's kinda tall and scruffy and oh-so-handsome…" she couldn't finish, she wanted so badly to hold him.

"Would I do at a pinch?" he asked, his smile small and painful

And then she jumped into his arms, his face creasing up in relief, his arms so tight around her and he didn't want to ever let her go again.

His tears fell on her shoulder as she too sobbed against him, not believing he was holding her, not believing he was taking her back after the way she had left him.

"I'm sorry I lied to you about the tour" he said into her brown eyes, eyeing her lips.

"I'm sorry I walked out on us" she responded, then leaned up and kissed him, the feel of his lips against hers making her stomach ache with longing.

He wiped his tears away, smiling as he let out a small chuckle "I guess we should go in?" he said of his apartment and Gabi smiled too, following him in as he then took her hand in his, entwining their fingers, his eyes undressing her as they stood in his hallway, wordlessly coming together again, their kisses testing each other.

Did he still taste the same? Did he still press his tongue against her lips…just like that? She smiled against his mouth.

Gabi lifted his jacket off his shoulders, running her hands down his t-shirted chest, then back up to his defined arms, remembering their feel, moaning softly at the whirl of desire that unfurled between her thighs. She'd gone three months without him, a whole month with Danny and not felt turned on like this, and within three minutes of being in his arms, she wanted him.

Troy felt Gabi's persistence, her hands were tugging at his T-shirt and she pulled it off, eyeing his chest in a way that made him grab her to him, growling in her ear as he pulled her hips into his, cradling her against him as he brushed his arousal against her, making her moan even more.

He wanted to take this nice and slow, remember every detail, but Gabi seemed to have other ideas, her hands at his belt buckle.

He stilled them, kissing her gently "Easy babe" he joked "We've got time"

Her brown eyes implored him "I missed you so much" she said then, hugging him as he brought her up against his half naked, taut and aroused body.

"I missed you too. Every night. Every day." He sighed

"You sang to me" she said softly, so touched that she hurt inside at the thought of it.

He pulled back, stroking her hair away from her face "You know?" he asked

She nodded "I saw it" she admitted.

"You had a boyfriend, that day in the diner…" he said then, still a little hurt by that.

She looked down, ashamed "I was lonely. Trying desperately to replace you. It didn't work. Every time he held me, I compared his hugs to yours" she explained

"And?" he asked with a lift of an eyebrow

"He was a two. You're at least an eleven" she smiled, tears threatening

"Eleven? Wow, kudos from Judge Montez at last" he joked, taking another kiss from her swollen mouth.

"I never…" she blushed "I never slept with him" she finished

Troy looked at her, his deep blue eyes so intense, she felt like she were held under a spell by him.

He kissed her then, hotly, aching, pulling her close, knowing she had only ever been his and she responded, letting him strip off her top as she frantically undid his jeans and pulled them down, smiling at his black boxers "Sexy undies Mr. Bolton?" she asked

He shrugged "I got them in New York"

She kissed from his jaw, down his neck, his chest, hands stroking his hard muscles as she went. Her tongue went into his belly button and he groaned aloud, hands going into her hair as she kissed a path lower still, tongue darting out at his waistband and she slowly tugged at it, her mouth flowing where the material once sat.

He was aroused and just as she remembered as she took him in her hands, Troy gasping at the contact, his legs wobbly as she knelt between them and she ran her hands down his naked backside to his muscled thighs, tickling the back of his knees as she took him into her mouth as much as she could.

Troy felt the blood drain from the rest of his body and pool at his straining arousal. Gabi's lips were just heaven against his hot hardness and she was sending him crazy with those lips and that tongue, he felt powerless to do anything as she loved him with her mouth.

"Gabi..." he warned, feeling dangerously close to the edge already. It had been three long months without her, three months of unsatisfied dreams.

And the reality was just too good to be true. He cupped her head to him as he felt his orgasm build, his hips rocking as she took him in and out, her tongue working like magic to bring him to his peak as he shuddered and released, Gabi taking a mouthful of his seed and swallowing it, making him ache even more.

She was still dressed in her jeans and bra and he knelt in front of her, pulling her against him gently, holding her preciously to him.

"I love you" he said then and Gabi cried at his words

"I love you too" she said and he helped her up, bringing her into his lap as he sat on his sofa and she just snuggled there as his hands made leisurely circles on her skin.

Slowly he began to undress her, kissing her as she responded eagerly to his touch and soon she were straddling him, his hands cupping her breasts, touching, teasing, his tongue tasting her as his head dropped to her chest and she arched back against him, one of his hands running up her thigh to seek refuge between them.

His fingers were gentle, seeking, as he pushed into her damp folds and she moaned, biting him gently as he teased her, very gently pushing his fingers deeper, his thumb brushing her clitoris only lightly, infrequently as she writhed in his lap like she were crazy out of her mind with his touch.

He felt his groin respond quickly and he loved that Gabi did that to him. One look at her in front of him, thighs spread across his lap, his fingers loving her intimately, her eyes hooded with desire as she shook her hair out, her breasts pushed forward and he could just nuzzle between them, kiss the skin there, lick her nipple and run his thumb across her nub and she squeezed against his hand and had him aching to be deep inside her.

His other hand supported her lower back as he began pressing harder with his thumb, more frequently, his fingers going deeper into her as she became breathless, panting

"Troy…" she begged on a moan and he couldn't hold back anymore.

"Okay babe, I need protection…" he whispered, cursing himself for not having any

"My jeans" she pointed to them next to him and he found one in the pocket, slipping it on quickly, kissing her again, hoping he hadn't ruined the moment, knowing he hadn't as she kissed him back and hovered over him.

"Is this okay?" she asked nervously, never having been in this position before

He smiled against her shoulder, framing her hips in his hands as she lowered herself and he controlled her as she went "More than okay" he husked as she came flush with his thighs, the whole of him filling her and her eyes were wide with the sensation, she squeezed against him inside her gently, testing the feel of him, remembering his size and how it felt to make love with him.

"Gabi…" he groaned, his head going back against the sofa in protest to the onslaught of pleasure she brought him

"Mmm…"she murmured, plunging her hands into his hair as she kissed him and they began to move against each other, Troy thrusting gently as she rocked against his thighs.

It was exquisite, pleasure-pain that Gabi felt every time they came together and Troy began to kiss her skin, his hands moving to cup her bottom as she stroked his chest, kissed his neck.

Troy caressed her amazing backside as she rode gently against him, the slow, intense waves of desire building up in his taut stomach and crashing down every time he thrust into her. He loved that she were in control here, the look on her face, how she bit her lower lip as she tried to stop the moan of pleasure that wanted to escape, his own moan mirroring hers as he watched her.

He kissed her bottom lip then, his mouth mending the damage of her teeth and she began to writhe and buck against him as his hands travelled up her back, around to her breasts and cupped them, his thumbs gently brushing her nipples and he felt her release coming as she shuddered against him as she moved.

Gabi clung to Troy's arms as her release came and his arms bulged as his own body tensed against his release, thrusting deeply into her one last time and they sat together for a few moments, coming back to earth slowly.

Gabi moved from his lap, disposing of his condom, sitting across his thighs as his hands went to her waist to bring her back to him.

He cuddled her in his arms, her head under his chin.

"Will you stay over?" he asked gently

She nodded against his chin, "Let's go to bed, bunny" she said, getting up and grabbing his tee shirt to put on, pulling on her knickers as he put on his boxers and led her by the hand to the bedroom where he threw some clothes off his bed onto the already messy floor and lay down with her, pulling the covers over them as he lay on his back.

"I wonder what your fans would think if they knew your room was a tip?" she asked lightly with an amused smile as she snuggled into his chest, his arm dropping around her shoulder as they fit into each other like parts of a puzzle.

"Mmm. What do you think?" he asked

"That you're just about cute enough to get away with it" she judged

He chuckled "I'm sure they would be horrified" he mused

"Or find it adorable" she commented, her eyes growing heavy before she drifted into sleep, Troy's own breathing even as he'd already fallen asleep.