Hello Tim, I hope you don't mind but I thought we'd try some repressed memory therapy today…." Speed looked abit confused of which the Dr soon picked up on" Tim its ok It just means that I'm going t hypnotize you and ask you questions about your past… the idea is to get you to remember and talk about memories and feelings that you have locked away.. They might be what are causing your relapses; would that be ok with you?" Tim nodded and the Dr continued.
After about 10 minutes Tim heard someone asking if he knew who he was and where he was….there was silence before Tim finally answered. "My Name is Timothy Speedle …. I have a secret that nobody must ever find out about because he said that if anyone finds out then they'll all hate me and blame me for breaking the secret…….
"What secret… what is so bad that people will hate and blame you for. I promise that if you expose this secret then nobody will blame you, will you tell me the secret?
I hurt myself because dad doesn't really love me… he just hurts me….. It's not just the physical and mental pain he inflicts its more than just kicks and punches and nasty words….. He... He …. (Tim starts to cry)
I don't want to repeat what it is that he does….. It hurts too much... He started when I was 9... he said that it was what all fathers did to show their sons that they love them… but he got violent if I told him No and to leave me alone so he used to beat me up,, usually to the point of unconsciousness and do it anyway…… He used to tell me that if I told anybody about 'Our Little Secret' then the attacks would be more frequent and more painful so I kept quiet... for years I self Harmed to numb the pain… I managed to tell my work colleagues and my boss about my secret well the cutting and beating part any way… but I haven't told them about the …….sexual abuse.. I cant they'll think I deserved it somehow…. It was bad enough opening u about the other stuff but not this…. He's still alive if he finds out I talked he'll carry out his promise and I can't take that anymore…….
'1, 2, 3 Tim Wake up please……