Title: The Forgotten -- Memories and Love
Chapter 5: Proposal
Disclaimer: I do not own Kyou Kara Maou, I only own this story
Written by: Lisse08
Beta-reader: Hottee39
xx Yuuri xx
Yuuri winced slightly as he slowly opened his black orbs. The glaring sunlight seemed to pierce him hard in both of his eyes. He blinked once, twice, and his bedroom ceiling came into focus.
It was daybreak.
He was back. Bolting upright in a sitting position, he groped around in his memories, trying to search for any altered memories but so far he discovered that he could not remember anything else except for the recollection in which he witnessed the blonde prince crying. He immediately threw his feet over the edge of the bed to place them firmly on the carpeted floor.
Suddenly, a vision flashed through his mind. It was man, grabbing onto his ex-fiancé's arm, smiling and laughing. Judging from their behaviors, they seemed pretty close to each other. A thought occurred to him, 'Is he his fiancé?'
Strangely, Yuuri felt his anger flared up at the sight. He tried his hardest to suppress his alien anger. He did not want to let the word "jealousy" seeped into his dictionary of life. Yuuri jumped up from his bed. He must find out what happened first.
"Wolfram!"As he was about to go on his second search, Yuuri flung the door of his bedroom open. Fortunately, this time, it was not that difficult of a task. There, standing in the same usual blue uniform outside his bedroom door, ready to knock, was the blonde mazoku, Wolfram Von Bielefeld.
Yuuri was dumbstruck, his mouth losing the ability for speech. Wolfram still remained to be the same pretty bishounen as he had always known. The difference this time, however, was evident in his features. He simply appeared more vibrant and lively compared to the last time he saw him. Wolfram smiled brightly at his king and gave a bow.
"Heika, you are up quite early today. Please prepare yourself for the breakfast; after that, you need to go for your inspections on the soldiers." 'You look quite good yourself.'
"Right," Yuuri couldn't get use to the word 'heika' coming out from Wolfram's mouth. Wolfram turned and was ready to walk away when Yuuri stopped him by grabbing his arm.
"Wait, Wolfram…"
"What is it?" Wolfram tilted his head slightly to look at Yuuri. 'Yuuri…'
"Are you engaged?" Wolfram shook his head and his lips curled into a smile again. 'Not yet.' Yuuri felt relieved. He really did not know why the thought of Wolfram engaged to other woman would shake him so much. 'Why? Why do I care about who he's engaged to? Am I really that jealous? I'm the one who… wait… was there any engagement between us to start with?' Yuuri quickly continued his question, still not releasing his grab.
"Do you… do you remember anything? Anything at all about us being engaged?"
"Heika, I did not dare to think about us being engaged."
"Oh…" Yuuri replied, but he could not hide the tone of disappointment in his voice. He slowly released his grip on Wolfram. There was a feeling of regret sweeping through his heart. Somehow, it saddened him even more knowing that he was the only one who remembered that they were once engaged.
Wolfram smiled at him again politely.
'Goodbye, Yuuri.'
He left the room.
Xxxxx Yuuri xxxxX
'Wolfram doesn't recall anything, not a single thing. That's not my concern, right? I don't love him so why should I be bothered about it?'
Yuuri, did you really not love him? Did you really not love that fiery blonde who loved to call you cheater and wimp at every chance he gets, who would always follow you to the ends of the earth no matter that he gets sea-sick? If you really did not love him, why were you so jealous just now? Why were you getting so tense when you thought Wolfram was engaged?
One by one, the new memories, flooded Yuuri's mind. Just as he expected, Wolfram was never with him when the journey concerned sea travelling. They never had a child called Greta, but rather, Yuuri had Greta as his daughter. He had no memories of Wolfram calling him Yuuri or a wimp or a cheater. Despite all those new memories, the old memories of which Wolfram was his fiancé remained. Yet, they were too detached and remote that Yuuri had problems trying to recount them. It felt like they were only dreams, pleasant dreams, of when the blonde prince was engaged to Yuuri.
Xxxxx Wolf xxxxX
Wolfram crossed the garden in a brisk manner. His mind was racing madly. Out of the corner of his eye, he saw Conrad walking towards him. He was about to call out to his brother asking about something when he felt it. A piece of memory flashed through his mind, followed by the familiar numbness engulfing him. Terrified, he dropped to his knees, holding onto his head.
He saw Conrad running over him, yet he could not hear anything.
The vision in front of him blurred and everything became pitch black.
Xxxxx Yuuri xxxxX
Yuuri was sitting in the dining chamber where everyone was taking their breakfast. Yuuri's mind was drifting. An image of a man invaded into his memories. It was the same man who was supposedly together Wolfram when he woke up this morning. Yuuri squinted.
'Who is he?' The man was talking to him, no, not just to him, he turned to see Conrad, Gwendal and Wolfram around him. He tried to lip-read what he was saying, and he managed to catch a word which seemed like "marriage". Yuuri felt himself leaning forward, as if he could get what he was saying by doing so. Instead, he felt a severe pain that shot up through his chin. He hit the table. He blinked and realized that everyone in the room was staring at him in disbelief. He chuckled which sounded so fake that he wanted to hit himself as well.
"What were you all talking about just now?" He asked sheepishly.
"We were talking about Wolfram's marriage, heika." Conrad replied. At that moment, time stopped. Yuuri felt himself immobilized from head to toes. He was sure, he misheard his godfather, or at least he hoped.
"Marriage? Did you just say marriage?"
"Yes, heika." Conrad replied with a reassuring smile on his face. It is a smile that would calm anyone down at any time, anyhow, but not this time. Yuuri felt his heart raced.
"What? But I thought Wolfram wasn't engaged, didn't you confirm it with me just now?" Yuuri turned towards Wolfram, who silently stuffed his salad into his mouth, eyes on his plate. Yuuri began to feel dizzy. If it wasn't for his desires to crave for the details, he believed he would have fainted right on the spot.
"Heika, had you forgotten? Wolfram is not engaged yet. However, there was a prince from the Wincott state, who came proposing to Wolfram a few days ago." Gwendal explained this time.
"So, what are you going to do?" Gwendal asked again, and every single gaze in the room averted towards the blonde. Wolfram was startled for a moment, apparently not expecting that their attention would shift to him in such a short period. He closed his eyes. Yuuri felt his heart beat at an irregular pace. He felt an urge to go up and beg Wolfram to reject him. He tried to push those thoughts away.
"I think I will accept him." Wolfram said with his eyes still closed.
"What?! You can't!" His mind took over him before his brain could think. Yuuri stood up, knocking over the plates on the table. It was as though something large and scaly erupted into life in his stomach, clawing at his insides. He didn't even bother about his coffee which was dripping down from the table, staining his clothes and floor. He heard someone gasped and was suddenly aware that every single set of eyes in the room was staring at him for the second time of the day. He felt blood gushing up his neck.
"I'm sorry. I guess I overreacted." He said meekly as he tried to dry off the stain with his hands. The maids immediately approached for help. He still could not suppress his anger, nor can he explain to himself the reason why he was so angry. He felt his hands trembling uncontrollably.
Wolfram studied him for awhile, and immediately looked away when Yuuri turned towards him. 'Why is Wolfram avoiding me?'
"If you will excuse me, I need to change for the meeting with Prince Tesca later." Wolfram said and strode out of the room.
"Prince Tesca. So that's his name." Yuuri repeated. He felt the monster in him roaring again at the mention of his name. 'Calm down, Yuuri. What's wrong with you? You should be happy for Wolfram, now that he could go on his life with a new lover. After all, you're the one who let him go.' He tried to relax while listening to Conrad and Gwendal talking about Prince Tesca while fighting with the beast in his heart, which was in the process of claiming it. He would do anything to kill and tear Prince Tesca apart.
Xxxxx Yuuri xxxxX
Yuuri continued his inspection on the soldiers with Conrad after breakfast.
"Good morning, heika." Gisela smiled warmly at Yuuri.
The soldiers energetically gave their bows and shouted "Good morning, heika!" to Yuuri too when he made his appearance. Yet, Yuuri only nod at them. As usual, Yuuri would smile brightly at them and ask them how things are going on. The soldiers exchanged worried looks and it was Gisela who snapped them back to reality.
"Continue on! What do u think you're looking at!? Continue NOW!" Gisela shouted at her highest decibel. Everyone straightened their backs and continued their matching without further complaints, for they know, if they disobey their commander, they would not be able to have a peaceful sleep at night.
Yuuri tried to laugh at the sudden changed of Gisela's behavior but failed. He knew he couldn't concentrate on the inspections, nor could he concentrate on his studies with Gunter later. His glances kept on moving back to the place where the dining room was located, where he knew, Prince Tesca and his Wolfram were having their talk and desert together. The monster roared aloud again.
'Wait, did I just think about 'my' Wolfram?' He tried to shake the thoughts away and barked for the monster to back away. Immediately, he felt the emptiness that was filling his heart once again.
'That's jealousy, Yuuri. You can't deny it… you're jealous that Wolfram is falling for others. You're jealous that his heart is not on you anymore. Isn't that enough to say that you like Wolfram as well? But the thing is…'
'Wolfram doesn't remember that we were once engaged. I know I'm the one who inflicted this pain upon myself. But, why didn't you alter my memories as well so that I couldn't remember anything too?' Yuuri thought bitterly. 'What should I do now? Wolfram… I miss you. I really miss you.'
"It's never too late to realize something, heika." Yuuri nearly jumped out from his skin when he heard Conrad. He didn't notice Conrad was standing beside him all the time, studying him.
"What are you talking about?" Yuuri said nervously.
"Heika, I know, about your feelings towards Wolfram."
"Huh?" Yuuri was startled.
Conrad's gaze moved towards the marching troops.
"It's always never too late to realize your mistakes, Yuuri." Yuuri felt time stop as the words slowly sank into his mind. Before he had truly understood his words, Conrad had strolled away, leaving Yuuri alone on his own. Yuuri immediately sensed his legs breaking into a run, carrying him towards the place where Wolfram was. He did not have time to figure out why Conrad knew about his feelings; he guessed he would just ask him that question another time.
But for now, even if he did not truly understand why, he knew. He did not want to let go of Wolfram just yet.
'Wolfram, even if you don't remember anything, I will start all these things over with you.
I will make you fall in love with me again.'
Xxxxx Yuuri xxxxX
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A/N
First, I did think about Elizabeth incidence, but I decided to make it in such a way that she did not appear, and about Murata, he will only appear in chapter 14 or 16.
Next, I have my own version of ending the story, but if anyone of you has a better suggestion on how to end the story, just say so. Because your reviews really influence me. XD
Between, this is a hint, I hoped that you noticed wolfram fainted in this chapter. XD
And lastly, do you wonder why I put "Yuuri" at the beginning of this chapter? That's because I'm going to insert Yuuri and Wolfram stories alternately from this chapter onwards.
So, it means that in the next chapter, we are going to Wolfram's story. What happened to Wolfram four years back then?
Chapter 6— "Why is it me?"
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Lastly, mind reviewing? XD Thanks for reading again.