Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight or any characters. I'd like some undies with Edward's face on them, however.
Summary: AH/OOC/EPOV: Edward struggles to determine whether or not he should tell his best friend, Bella, that he's in love with her before they graduate, or whether he should just give up on her altogether. However, she has a plan that'll make things very difficult for Edward.
Previously: Edward: I pull her even closer to me and breathe in her delicious scent. What can I say? I'm a masochist.
A/N: I'm sorry for this chapter, I just couldn't help myself. Besides, all this will add for the story! I like to push Edward. He's definitely the funnest character to mess with. That being said, i'm nervous about this chapter and whether i'm just screwing everything up. O0h well...here goes.
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The rest of the week passes and finally, it's the weekend.
My contact with Bella has been limited, we've been busy with school and neither of us have mentioned tuesday night, or wednesday morning for that matter when we woke up, arms wrapped around eachother. We haven't mentioned the kiss and Bella hasn't brought up googling hotels again, either. I'm starting to think maybe I should pick somewhere romantic to take her, make it a surprise kind of thing. Except Bella hates surprises. I'm supposed to be making her fall in love with me, but really, I have no idea how to.
I've never wooed girls. They've always come to me. I've never even had a relationship with one of them or been in love or anything. I've taken them out on dates, but usually they end with me getting off, one way or another. How on earth am I meant to convince the most beautiful girl...woman, in the world that she should love me as I love her?
Alice jumps on my bed and slaps me lightly across the face to wake me up. It's 8am on a saturday. This girl is fucking insane sometimes. "We're going to Seattle!" She chimes. Like she needs to remind me, she's been going on and on about it since Bella agreed to go. "I've laid out some clothes for you and i've packed your overnight bag. You need to shower, we're leaving this house at 9am. No later!" And with that, she bounces out of my room, singing on the way. How Jasper puts up with her is beyond me.
I follow her commands, in fear of her wrath, and we're out of the house by 8:55. Jasper and Alice get in the back seat of my Volvo and we head over to Bella's house. Charlie's cruiser isn't in the drive, which is a relief, because i'm sure we'd have to endure a lecture of some sorts. The guy never says it, but i'm sure he hates me. I tell the others that i'll go get Bella, then I walk over to her front door and knock. Bella calls out to me, so I let myself in and up the stairs, where she's frantically rifling through her draws.
"What's wrong?" I ask.
"Fucking Alice," Bella growls. "She has hidden all my sweats! I swear to god...I'm going to kill that evil little pixie!"
"Honestly Bells, it's not like she'll let you wear them anyway."
"No, of course not! She'll only let me wear ugly fucking blue velour track suits, that match hers. Except she has pink of course," Bella hisses and I find this whole thing hilarious, so I laugh at Bella and throw said track suit in her overnight bag and zip it up. She growls at me, then throws some boots on her feet and grabs a cardigan. Finally, we're out the door in a fit of laughter and snarls.
I put Bella's bag in the boot, while she takes a minute to hiss at Alice, who looks thoroughly frightened and huddles into Jasper. Then we both get in my car and get the hell out of Forks. After an hour and a half on the road in which everyone, bar me, has fallen asleep, I pull into McDonalds in the small town Sequim.
From then, it's straight on to Seattle. Bella's phone won't stop going off, message after message and her mood gets worse and worse. She changes the music constantly and just seems irritated in general and Jasper and Alice making out in the backseat isn't exactly helping either of our moods.
"Will you two get a fucking room?" Bella growls.
"Woah," Jasper says in his thick southern accent. "What's got your panties in a twist?"
"Can you two just stop ramming your tongues down eachother throats? Fuck!" Bella spits, then winds down her window and screams.
"Bella? What's wrong?" Alice asks in a small voice. "You've been angry all day and I know it's not because of Jasper and I."
Bella ignores Alice and pulls out a book from her bag. Pride and Prejudice. I swear she doesn't read the shit normal teenagers do. I reach over and pat her shoulder and she momentarily smiles at me, then seems to remember she's supposed to be a hardass today and brushes my hand away and looks back down at her book.
"Fucking PMS," I mutter under my breath. I know everyone else hears, but they all choose to ignore it.
By the time we make it to our hotel in Seattle, it's already 1 in the afternoon but Alice reminds us, we came here to shop, so we head off to our rooms to get ready. Bella and I are sharing a room with two singles, but Alice takes over so she and Bella can talk and get ready together. I go over to Jasper and Al's room, where Jasper is reclining on the large king-sized bed. Alice seems to have picked the most luxurious hotel she could find.
"What's wrong with Bella?" He asks. I shrug and flick on the television, but it's all shit so I decide to go back to my room and hurry the girls along. I slip the keycard into the lock, but I can hear Bella and Alice talking – they don't realise i'm back. I know it's stupid, but I creep over to the bathroom door and press my ear against it.
"I don't know what he wants, Al," Bella sighs and for a moment I think she's thinking about me, but of course she's not. "He's been messaging me all day and it's driving me insane. He keeps saying that he wants to get to know me and he's sorry for the whole thing with Edward."
"Do you believe him?" Alice asks.
"I don't know. I'd like to, but I just don't trust him. He told me some things about Edward and I just don't know what i'm meant to do," Bella sighed again. "This is James we're talking about, though. Just don't tell Edward, Al." James? Motherfucker. I'd almost forgotten about that sick fuck and his admission that he's going to try to get into Bella's pants. My Bella's pants. I wonder what the hell he told her about me.
Alice starts talking about some Alice-related shit, so I decide now's the time to knock on the door and make myself known. "You two ready?" I ask, trying to keep my voice as calm as possible and exude an air of nonchalance. I'll have to ask Alice about it later. Surely, she'll tell me.
"Yeah, just a sec," Bella calls, then Alice bounds out of the door and gives me an evil-pixie look.
Shopping is terrible, just as I predicted. Alice drags us into what seems like a million stores, then shoos Jasper and I away when she decides it's time for the prom-dress shopping, because as her date, I'm forbidden from seeing Bella's dress. What we were shopping for before, I have absolutely no clue. All I want to do is get out of this stupid fucking mall and get drunk or sleep.
Jasper and I go down to the food court and order something just to give us something to do. "What's your issue?" Jasper asks. I shrug him off but he keeps pressing it. "I know i'm going out with your sister, but we actually used to be mates, so cut the crap and just tell me what your problem is." It takes me off guard, Jasper is normally pretty reserved when it comes to the whole "say what you feel" thing.
"I'm just taking a stab in the dark here, but does this have anything to do with Bella?"
"Why the fuck would this have anything to do with Bella?" I growl.
"Yeah, why would it? I mean bedding you best friend-" Jasper mumbles, but I cut that fucker off.
"What the hell did Alice tell you?"
"Oh come on. I'm not going to say anything."
"Then why bring it up?" I ask, then bang my hand on the table impatiently, earning a concerned stare from a mother and her children sitting a few tables down from us. "It seems like every fucker knows how much I love Bella," I growl, sounding like a bloody girl.
"You're actually in love with her? Edward Cullen is in love with a girl?"
"Why else would I go through with Bella's stupid request?"
"You're Edward Cullen," Jasper laughs, like that explains everything. "You'd fuck anything with a vagina. You've never had a relationship, only sex. You have sex in your car during school hours. Why would Bella be any different?"
"She just is," I growl. "I'm not talking about this shit with you." Luckily, I really don't have to because Bella and Alice walk over to our table, bags all up their arms. Bella looks exhausted, but Alice looks very satisfied.
"Are you two done?" Jasper asks.
"Ooh almost! We got Bella's dress – no peeking Edward! - and shoes and I bought some new t-shirts and dresses and cute little socks and -" I tune out the rest of what Alice says. My parents should never have given her a credit card.I'm thinking about hiding it, when Alice starts talking about Victoria's Secret.
"What about it?" I ask.
"Bella and I are going to get some new things," Alice says sweetly. Fucking bitch. Bella's a blushing beetroot and is staring at her feet. Does she knows Alice knows and now Jasper knows? "We can go tomorrow before we leave, though," Alice thankfully adds because I want to get the hell out of this mall. I'm damn pissed at my sister in this moment for giving me an imaging of Bella in Victoria's Secret negligee. Fuck.
"Alice!" I growl, then pull her in to my room once we get back to the hotel, leaving Jasper and Bella outside. "What the hell are you doing?"
"Hey! Don't go accusing me! She told me she wanted new lingerie...I didn't say a thing!" Alice retorts, but i'm still fucking pissed at her, so I don't give a shit if she's telling the truth. "What about Jasper then? He goes and get's up in my shit...it's my personal business! Whose side are you on Al? And what is this shit about James telling Bells shit about me?" I didn't mean to say that last part, I wasn't planning on letting Alice know i'd eavesdroped, I was going to coax it out of her. Too late for that now.
"You listened to our conversation? You're a total hypocrite, Edward Anthony Cullen!" She yells, then she smacks me straight across the face. "Jasper is my life partner and that's why I told him," Alice says simply, to which I snort. "Maybe James really does want something with her. At least he has the guts to take action."
"All he wants to do is get in her pants!" I snarl.
"And how are you any different?" Alice challenges. I open my mouth, ready to put her in her place but I don't know what to say. I can see that Al is crying and I feel bad for yelling at her and bringing her into my own fucked up problems, but the thing I feel the worst about is that maybe she's right.
"Sorry," I whisper, but Alice brushes past me out the door, slamming it behind her. I even make my baby sister cry when she's just trying to help me. I contemplate how much of an asshole I am for about twenty minutes, then Bella opens the door and slowly creeps into the room. I'm lying on my bed, eyes closed so she probably thinks i'm asleep. That's good, I don't want to make her cry too. Too bad, Bella insists on talking to me.
"Edward, stop wallowing in self-pity and talk to me," she purrs and when I open my eyes, she's kneeling in front of me. "Why do I get this weird feeling that this thing between you and Alice, whatever it is, has got something to do with me?" Her features are soft and I can tell she's not going to go psycho and yell at me. She's a lot more rational than I am, she usually tries to talk shit over first.
"It's not you, Bella," I lie.
"Really? Because it sure seems like it," she sighs. "I get it. You don't want to have sex with me. You could just tell me that."
"Bella, this isn't about our...agreement. Why wouldn't I want to have sex with you?"
"Oh right, you have sex with anything that moves," she says, then rolls her eyes.
"You really think you classify as just some girl?" I ask. "You're my best friend and I'm doing this because I want you to do this with someone who respects you. Stop doubting me," I say, then I laugh and lightly push her shoulder. "I'm not that much of a slut."
"No you aren't. You're worse," Bella jokes, then she jumps on top of me and tries to tickle me, but I get her first and I throw her down on the soft bed and attack her ribs. She jerks around crazily and screams for help, whilst in a fit of laughter. I finally release her and she lies down beside me on the bed. "I like when you aren't all angsty, E. You're much more fun like this."
"Okay, B. I'll try to not be such a angsty little bitch."
"Hey, bitch. We're in a hotel room...with comfortable beds," Bella murmers, then raises her eyebrows at me and seductively licks her lips. I think she's joking, so I laugh but Bella jumps up and straddles my waist.
"What are you doing, Bella?" I ask and she frowns.
"I'm frustrated," she breathes, then grinds against me.
"Bella," I warn in a stern voice and she removes herself from my lap and moves over to the edge of the bed. She holds her head in her hands and I move up to her and wrap my arm around her shoulders. "Bells? Are you alright? You aren't acting very Bella-ish."
"I'm horny!" She declares, then falls back on the bed. "I'm a fucking eighteen year old virgin who has never had an orgasm!" She's obviously angry, but she laughs at her admission and covers her face in her hand.
"You've never had an orgasm? What about Jake?" Bella shakes her head. "Mike?" No. "Tyler?" No. "Robert?" No. "Taylor?"
"God, Edward! You make me sound like a hooker who lurks on the corner's of Forks!" Bella exclaims. "See? This is why I keep trying to mount you every chance I get."
"Do you know how ridiculous this is? I mean we talk about most things, but this is taking the whole 'I tell my best friend everything' thing to whole new level," I laugh and Bella laughs and then we can't stop laughing. "I'd definitely be able to make you come though," I add.
"Without a doubt," I state confidently. "Shit, Bells. We really need to define what is going on with us," I say. As much as i'd like to throw her down and have my way with her, joking about this shit is not working wonders for my ego, or my erection for that matter. How much of this am I going to put myself through, let Bella put me through, before I combust?
"Well, I mean...we're going to.." Bella gulps, then continues. "If we're going to have sex, maybe we should just get comfortable with one another. Like I said the other night about, you know, loosening our physical boundaries?"
"Uh, yeah," I mumble. "You mean, you want us to be...like fuck buddies or something?"
"Hey, don't make assumptions rabbit, we aren't fucking," Bella laughs. "Not yet anyway."
"So remind me why we're doing this again?"
"I told you why i'm doing it. I'm damn horny and you are the expert in these areas. Why are you doing it?" Why am I doing this? Oh right, because I'm in love with my best friend. My best friend who also happens to want down my pants just as much as I want down hers. Luckily, Alice is banging on our door so I don't have to answer that question.
"Belward!" Alice squeals, calling us that couple-name she's so fond of. "I've got CHAMPAGNE!" On second thoughts, maybe the words just meshed together and sound right to her.
"Ooh, Goody!" Bella laughs, then jumps up from the bed to let Alice in, who looks like she's already had a few glasses already. "Let's get this party started!"
Fuck. Shit. Oh Hell's Bells.
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A/N: I make no claim over "Hell's Bells". I've seen it in like 1 or 2 stories, can't remember which specific ones. Sorry if anyone gets grumpy if i've stolen their thing.