Wounds

Chapter Three

As Kerry entered Smithy's flat she remembered happier times here, at least they seemed happy at the time. Kerry knew deep down that it was then that the problems started. Ever since the rape she had led herself to believe that if only she had resisted, told him firmly that she was with Cameron none of this would have happened. She wouldn't have had to see Cameron let her down; she didn't care about that, as long as someone was there in her life that was all that mattered.

As Smithy made himself busy in the kitchen Kerry sat down and took in her surroundings once again. At the time events seemed hazy, but looking around his flat she remembered exactly what had happened that night. They had entered the flat like they had just done but instead of going to the kitchen to make them a drink Smithy had led Kerry into the lounge, his hands firmly placed in the curve of the back before pushing her down on the sofa. They continued to kiss, hands exploring each other's torsos before Kerry sat up and pulled away from the kiss. No words were said, Smithy knew it was wrong, Kerry knew it was wrong and for that moment they thought about stopping but the desire was too strong. Clothes were coming off as they straddled each other closely and studied each other intimately. They both knew that there was no going back as Smithy unclasped her bra for her to pull it off in one swift movement. Kerry rose slightly as she felt a hand up her skirt, understanding what he meant she unfastened the button and pulled down the zip before laying back for Smithy to pull it off. She distinctly remembered the look in Smithy's eye as he stood above her, looking at her semi-naked form before climbing on top. She saw pure lust and longing in his eye and she would be a liar if she said she didn't like it. As he lay on top of her she slid her hand between the two of them in order to unzip his jeans and pulled them down slightly for him to finish. She could feel how hard he was as she lay below him, hands cupping the side of his face as they kissed passionately. Cameron pleased her whenever they made love, but something was different this time. A sense of wanting the illicit pleased her more than he ever could and Smithy knew this all too well. He pulled down his pants and he indicated for her to do the same: this was it, no going back. Their rhythm was offbeat as excitement reached its peak and Kerry giggled at it before Smithy assumed his pace. Before long their thoughts were completely consumed by the here and now; Cameron never entered either of their thoughts, nor did their job. Kerry begged Smithy for more and he gladly delivered, thrusting himself deeper than before. Kerry arched her back with pleasure as she felt him inside her and Smithy began to kiss her passionately when he saw her display of pleasure. After a few minutes both of them were clinching on as the pleasure rose once more, Kerry knew it wouldn't be long and she placed her head next to Smithy's while placing her hand around his neck. Their breathing was out of sync and their chests were covered in beads of sweat as they climaxed simultaneously. Kerry didn't know whether it was the ecstasy of the moment or the alcohol but she remembered feeling dizzy instantly after and headed to the bathroom. She could only imagine how Smithy must have felt, watching her get up and walking out of the room seconds after making love.

He placed the mug on a coaster on the table in front of her and she smiled in gratitude as she picked it up and held it tightly between her cold hands.

"Smithy about what happened, what I accused you of, I'm really sorry. Everything was just so confusing and I couldn't...." But she was cut short.

"We've talked about it already Kerry and I said it doesn't matter, it's been dealt with and it's in the past" He replied.

"But it isn't. Not for me anyway. Every day I just think to myself, if I hadn't have let myself believe that it was possible then none of this would have happened"

"None of what?" Smithy asked.

"If I tell you, it stays in this room. I can't face everyone knowing and judging me every day of my life" Kerry said

"Of course" Smithy replied sincerely.

"Gabriel saw us kissing outside the pub that night and the next day he wouldn't leave me alone. He kept asking me about my relationship with you and I kept reminding him that I was with Cameron and that I've never even had a relationship with you. At that point I honestly believed nothing had happened, stupid I know as I remember waking up in your bed and we were both naked. But then when you kept asking me where we stood I thought we must have done something that night but I just couldn't remember anything. I couldn't remember getting back to your flat, I couldn't remember who took whose clothes off, I couldn't remember. Gabriel saw an opportunity and he made me believe I was date raped. Looking back now it seems stupid I know but at the time it was the only logical answer. I'm sorry that it happened to you but at that point I was so confused it could have been anyone. I didn't want to make an allegation but Gabriel told Cameron and hinted to Andrea and it all came out after the bomb and I was completely powerless, he was in complete control and just stood back and watched as everything went wrong. He raped me Smithy...he raped me" Kerry cried but Smithy sat back dumbfounded.

"What...What do you mean?" Smithy asked.

"Well rape generally has one meaning Dale" Kerry replied, panicking that she had just made the biggest mistake of her life.

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean it like it. I wasn't expecting you to say that, thats all"

"Does that mean you believe me or not" Kerry questioned

"Of Course I believe you Kerry...I just wished you had come to me sooner" Smithy said comforting Kerry. Finally she had the support she needed.