A/N: Okays, so I'm sorry for the whole issue with the boxes where the "s and 's were =/ I kinda didn't notice that notepad things were evil on FF. xD So I made my friend Tay fix them...only...she had the wrong chapters =/ the short rough draft chapters that weren't any good and were full of errors . But i learned my lesson, and I'm going to make 'em all RTF format :3 Okay anyways, the Knight in Shining Skin comment, is all Tay's. Speaking of Tay you should go read some of her fanfics cuz they're awesome. Lots of fluffyness in this chapter, so says Tay, I really don't know what the technical terms are for the contents of fanfics =/ I just write to write eh, Enjoy 3 Taliana
Disclaimer thing: Sadly, I do not own Twilight. Or Jasper, or any of the cullens, or Volturi. Stephenie Meyer does and Last time I checked I was not Stephenie Meyer. I just put her lurvly characters into fun-filled situations. I Do however own myself, even if i'm using a crazy penname (Taliana.) and Seth, Caleb and Kai are my own personal characters ;3 So at least I have those four going for me.
TPOV:
"10! 9! 8! 7! 6! 5! 4 3! 2! 1! HAPPY NEW YEAR!" We all shouted, though mine was muffled as Jasper pulled me in for a kiss. Emmett decided to make one of those confetti party popper things go off right next to my ear, and then grabbed the confetti before it hit the ground and threw it at my face, getting all in my hair. Rosalie was being Rosalie over on the recliner, Carlisle and Esme decided to snuggle up next to the fire place, Bella and Edward were by his piano, Jake and Nessie were playing with Nessie's toys, Caleb and Kai were in their playpen having one of their staring contests, and Jasper and I were left standing in the middle of the living room.
"Jasper, what's your New Years resolution?" I asked after he broke the kiss.
"You tell me yours first, and I'll tell you mine." He said nuzzling my neck.
"To be more awesome!" I said laughing.
"Seriously, what's your new years resolution love?" He asked.
"To be an awesome parent for my cute little babies, and to be a better girlfrien--fiancée to you." I said with a smile. "Now you tell me yours."
"To get better with my self control." Jasper whispered against my neck, I felt him smile. His lips parted slighlty, and his tongue darted out to lick my skin.
"Jasper." Edward said as a warning.
Jasper pulled himself away from me and looked at the ground. I wrapped my arm around his shoulder. I tried to give him a kiss on the cheek to try to make him feel better, but the way his head was angled it made it impossible for me to do it. I stood with my back to him and did a back bend half way down so that I could see his face. "Jasper Whitlock Hale. Open your eyes and look at me. This backbend is extremely uncomfortable." I said, his eyes opened and I smiled at him. "I can has upside-down kiss?" I asked with a smile.
He managed to give me a quick kiss, placed his hand on my back and pushed me up to a standing position. He turned me around and hugged me. "You're amazing, you know that?" I ran my fingers through his hair and snuggled into his chest.
"Yup, I know." I said sighing into his chest. He rubbed my back.
"Hey, I got you a present. And I got the twins a present too, but their present can wait." He whispered in my ear.
"Really?" I asked, smiling up at him.
He nodded, "It's up in my room." he said with a small smile and I led the way to his room. My human pace seemed to bother him, so he picked me up and took off full vampire speed to his room. "Here, put this on." He said and handed me a blindfold. I put it on. "How many fingers am i holding up, i just want to make sure you cant see anything." He asked.
'Twenty!" I said with a laugh.
"Yup, you cant see." He said laughing with me. He opened the door, sitll holding me in his free arm.
"Can i take this thin goff now?" I asked, putting my hands on the knot in the back.
"Not yet." He said and I heard him doing something, something that involved fabric being moved, followed by him grabbing something, and then a song playin gon his stereo.
"It feels so right now hold me tight, tell me i'm the only one and then I might, never be the lonely one, so hold, me tight, tonight, tonight, it's you, you, you, you. Hold me tight, let me go on loving you tonight, tonight, making love to only you, so hold, me tight, tonight, tonight, It's you, you, you, you, Don't know, what it means to hold you tight, being here alone tonight with you, it feels so right now hold me tight, tell me i'm the only one, and then i might, never be the lonely one," and the song continued on, and I asked, "Now?"
"Now." He said and took the blindfold off with me. When the blackness caused from the blindfold left, I first noticed that his bed had been moved so that when we lay on it we would be able to look out the window, then I noticed that all of the trinkets and do-dads he had on the bookshelves were replaced with candles, starting with a cinnamon scented candle in a jar, followed by a tea light, then a vanilla scented candle in a jar, and then another tea light, and continued that pattern throughout the room, cinnamon, tea light, vanilla tea light, and rose petals all around the room. I also saw that the curtains on the window wall were pulled back to reveal a full moon, and a blanket of stars. "The clouds decided to part for tonight, I was watching the weather channel earlier in the week, and figured, that since it was going to be a full moon and the clouds were going to be gone for the night, and most of tomorrow we'd sit on my bed and enjoy some star gazing out the window, and tomorrow we could go out and play in the snow," He said and wrapped his arms around my waist from behind.
Hold me Tight faded, and If I Fell started up and Jasper sang quietly along, "If I fell in love with you, would you promise to be true, and help me, understand, 'cause I've been in love before, and i found that love was more, than Just, holding hands. If i give my heart to you, I must be sure from the very start, that you would love me more than him, If I trust in you, oh please, don't run and hide, if I love you too, oh please, don't hurt my pride like him, cause ic ouldnt stand the pain, and I would be sad if our new love was in vain, So I hope you see, that I would love to love you, and that he, will cry when he learns we are two, 'cause I couldnt stand the pain, and I would be sad if our new love, was in vain. So I hope you see that I would love to love you, and that she, will cry when he learns we are two, If i fell in love with you." He finished and kissed my neck.
"Jasper, you know me too well. I love stargazing, watching the moon, The Beatles, John Denver, and rose petals, and candles." I said, as my vision started to blur with tears.
"What's wrong love?" He asked as he sat down on the bed and pulled me into his lap.
"It's just, you know so much about me, and I know so little about you." I said getting comfortable in his lap.
"Well what do you want to know about me?"
"Well I would like to know everything that I dont already know, I mean I know that you're a vampire, and your human last name and that's pretty much it." I said and stared at the white comforter. He put two of his fingers on my chin and turned my head up so that I would look at him, he pressed his lips against mine softly.
"Love, can we discuss this tomorrow?" He asked and then nuzzled his face against my neck. I nodded, and he sang along with the music, "Perhaps love is like a resting place, a chelter from the storm, it exists to give you comfort, it's there to keep you warm, and in those times of trouble when you are most alone, the memories of love will bring you home."
I continued, "perhaps love is like a window, perhaps an open door, it invites you to come closer it wants to show you more, and even if you lose yoursel fand odnt know what to do, the memory of love will see you through."
Jasper sang, "For some is like a cloud, some as strong as steel. For some a way of living, for some a way to feel,"
I took over from there, "and some say love is holding on, and some say letting go, and some say love is everything, some say they don't know."
Jasper sang the next lines quietly into my ear, "Perhaps love, is like the ocean, full of conflict full of pain, like a fire when it's cold outside, Thunder when it rains, If i should live forever, and all my dreams come true, my memories of love will be of you." Just then a shooting star went flying across the night sky.
"Jasper, I love you so much." I said and snuggled into his chest again. We spent the rest of the new years together, snuggled close to each other. After sitting there for a few hours, listening to the music, singing the words to each other, making wishes on shooting stars, the sun finally began to rise. Jasper's room had the best view for the sunrise, and we sat there, taking in it's beauty. When the sun reached above the tree line, the sunlight shone right on us, making Jasper sparkle. "Jasper, as cheesy as this sounds, you are my knight in shining skin." I said with a small laugh and kissed his neck.
He couldnt help but laugh at me. "That's a new one." He said and kissed the top of my head. Heart to Heart started playing for the third time that morning. "I havent seen all there is to see, but i've seen quite a bit, i've seen things i'll always remember, some things I wish that I could forget, I havent quite been around the world, but i've been around the block, I know that distances are meaningless like the hands that move around the clock, and I know that love is everywhere, Always safe, always true, and exactly where it comes from, is where it's going to. Your heart to mine, My heart to yours. Talk about opening windows, talk about opening doors My heart to yours, your heart to mine, Love is a light that shines, from heart to heart." my eyes started tearing up as he started singing, "Here I am sitting in old hong kong, the harbor and hte lights, they're like diamonds in the heavens enough to brighten the darkest night, there's another side to sorrow, as there is to everything, like the other side of lonely is learning to love again, and then you know that ther'es an answer tothe suffering you see and though it isnt easy, it's still as simple as you and me, and you konw that love is everywhere always saf,e always true, and exactly where it comes from ishwere it's going to." I kissed him and he kissed back, only not as he usually would, he made the kiss a lot more passionate, and then gently lowered me onto the bed and climbed ontop of me, never breaking the kiss. His left hand tangled itself into my hair, while his right went from my neck and skimmed down my body to rest on my hip.
"Jasper, what are you doing?" I said as he broke the kiss and then started kissing and sucking on my neck.
"I'm kissing you." He said with a small laugh.
"But why are you going so far? Usually I'm the one begging to go farther than just the small kisses you give me." I said and gasped as his right hand slid from my hip to my backside, giving it a gentle squeeze. "Jasper, maybe you should stop." I said, and resisted the urge to moan when he licked a sensitive part on my neck. I don't know why I bothered, he knew what he was doing to me, he felt every emotion that I felt. My hand tangled itself into his hair and grabbed a fistful of his hair and then pulled up a little bit, trying to get him to stop. He complied, sat up next to me, and looked at me confused. "Jasper, you know my standards, no sex until marriage. You can wait until after the wedding." I said, "Besides, what would we do if you lost control and accidentally bit me?" I asked. I sat up and looked at him, his eyes, which were the same honey color as his hair before he started kissing me, were now a lot darker, at the color just before they turned black. "Jasper, maybe you should go hunt." I suggested, and ran a finger under his eyes, along the purpleness. His eyes closed and he sighed.
"I'll be fine Tali, my eyes will lighten up in a few minutes, a vampire's eyes darken not only with thirst but with strong emotions love, I'll be back to my golden eyed self in a few minutes," He said and pulled me close to him and kissed the top of my head. "So, do you want breakfast, or do you want to go out and play in the snow?" he asked with a smile.
My stomach did a poor imitation ofhis growling, and that was enough of an answer for him. He went over and turned the stereo off, grabbed our mixed CD and then we went to the kitchen hand in hand. Upon arriving in the kitchen we remembered that Kai and Caleb were probably still in their playpen. "I'll be right back, I'm going to go try to figure out where Kai and Caleb are, they're probably going to want to get some breakfast too." I said and ran over to the living room. I saw a note on the playpen, it was written in Carlisle's elegant script. "Tali, Jazz, we didn't wish to bother you two, and we heard your dicussion of spending the day together today, so Esme and I took the liberty of taking Kai and Caleb to a daycare, I'm at work Esme's off in Seattle, helping out with some charity or another, Bella and Edward decided tos pend the day together in their Cottage with Renesmee and Jake, Rosalie and Emmett took off to go hunting together, so you two are home alone all day, have fun, but not too much fun, Carlisle & Esme.' "Jazz! We're home alone all day. Carlisle and Esme took the kids to a daycare for us." I shouted, forgetting that he could hear me even if I whispered it. I went back to the kitchen, and heard himsinging Country Roads Take Me Home.
I knew which song was coming next, so I sang before it even started, " He was born in the summer of his twenty-seventh year, coming home to a place he'd never been before, he left yesterday behind him you might say he was born again, might say he found a key for every door, when he first came to the mountains his life was far away on the road and hanging by a song, but the strings already broken and he doesnt really care, he keeps changing fast and it dont last for long, in the colorado rocky mountain high, well I've seen it raining fire in the sky, the shadow from the star light is softer than a lullaby, rocky mountain high colorado," I walked over to the table and sat down as he continued singing, glancing over his shoulder and smiling at me.
"He clibmed cathedral mountains, he saw silver clouds below, he saw everything as far as you can see, and they say that he got crazy once, and he tried to touch the sun, and he lost a friend but kept the memory, now he walks in quiet solitude the forest and the streams seeking grace, in every step he takes, his side has turned inside himself to try and understand the serenity of a clear blue mountain lake, in the colorado rocky mountain high, I've seen it raining fire in the sky, talked to God and listened to the casual reply, rocky mountain high, colorado, rocky mountain high, colorado. Now his life is full of wonder but his heart still knows some fear of the simple thing he cannot comprehend, while they try to tear the mountains down they bring in a couple more, moer people more scars upon the land, in the colorado rocky mountain high, I've seen it raining fire in the sky, I know he'd be a poor lad if he never saw an angel fly, rocky mountain high, colorado rocky mountain high I've seen it raining fire in the sky, friends around a campfire and everybody's high, rocky mountain high, colorado."
The next song was one of my favorite John Denver songs, Matthew. I decided to sing while he finished making the biscuits and eggs for me. "I had an uncle named Matthew, he washis father's only boy, born just south of Colby Kansas, he was his mother's pride and joy, Yes and joy was just the thing that he was raised on, Love was just a way to live and die, gold was just a windy Kansas wheat field and blue was just a Kansas summer sky. ANd all the stories that he told me back when i was just a lad, all the memories that he gave me, all the good times that he had, grwoing up a kansas farm boy, life was mostly having fun, riding on his daddy's shoulders, behind a mule beneath the sun, Yes and joy was just a thin that he was rasied on, love was just the wya to live an die gold was just a windy kansas wheat field, and blue was just a kansas summer sky, wlel i guess there were some hard times, and i'm told some years were lean, they had a storm in '47 a twister came and striped them clean, he lost hte farm and lost his family, lost the wheat he lost his home, but he found the family Bible, faith as solid as a stone, yes and joy was just the thing that he was raised on, love was just the way to live and die, gold was just a windy kansas wheat feild and blue was just a kansas sky. And so he came to live at our house, and he cametowork the land, came to ease my daddy's burden and he came to be my friend. So i wrote this down for mathew, and it's for him this song is sung, riding on his daddy's shoulders, behind the mule beneath the sun. Yes and joy was just the thing that he was raise don, love was just a way to live and die, gold was just a windy kansas wheat feild and blue was just a kansas summer sky. Yes and joy was just the thing that he was raise don, love was just a way to live and di-i-ie, gold was just a windy kansas wheat feild and blue was just a kansas summer sky." as the song finished Jasper came over and set down a plate in front of me with a smile as Thank God I'm A Country Boy started playing. He sang along, and I was tempted to join, but his look told me that if I sang with my mouth full he'd tickle me to death. After breakfast Jasper shut off the stereo in the kitchen and told me to go put on something warm. I came downstairs wearing a sweatshirt with a blue sweater over top, and my winter jacket, two pairs of sweatpants under a pair of jeans, and three pairs of socks with my winter boots on. Jasper looked me up and down.
"You forgot gloves and a hat." He said laughing and tossed a pair of blue gloves at me, and then a pair of black gloves. He decided i'd look better if my hair was in braided pigtails so he braided my hair and placed one of those hats with the flaps over the ears on my head. I smiled up at him.
"Anything else missing little mister 'I can go outside in nothing but a pair of jeans if I wanted to.'" I said punching his arm lightly.
He laughed and shook his head no. "Come on." he said taking my hand, and then he started finishing up the song that was playing beofre we left the kitchen, "well my fiddle was my daddy's til the day he died, he took me by the hand held me close to his side, said live a good life play the fiddle with pride, and thank God you're a country boy, well my daddy taught me young how to hunt and how to widdle, taught me how to work and play a tune on the fiddle, taught me how to love and how to give just a little, thank God I'm a country boy!"
I laughed at him and jumped on his back, "Gimme a piggy-back ride Jazzy." I said and whipsered in his ear, "A super fast vampire speed piggy back ride." He grinned and took off running. The falling snow flying past us reminded me of a cheesy sci-fi warpspeed thing. "Oh and Jasper, I want you to tell me more about yourself today, screw the playing in the snow." I said laughing.
"Fine." he said and then abruptly stopped, I was sure if I wasn't clinging to his neck for dear life i would have kept going and slammed into the tree. "But first, can we toboggan down the hill?" he asked with a smile. "I want to show you a special place that I found a few years back, but you're going to have to be brave in order to get there, because I'm not carrying you there. Just promise me you'll be careful, it's actually kind of dangerous since it's winter time, and I can't carry you or else it would make itmore dangerous." he said.
"Okay." I said with a smile. He sat on one of the toboggans that were hidden behind a tree, and patted the area infront of him. We rode down the hill, and due to me being the driver, we crashed into a tree, I would have probably gotten seriously hurt if Jasper didn't grab me and take the impact on himself. I smiled up at him. "Thanks love." I said and gave him a kiss. "So what's this dangerous thing we're going to do?" I asked looking around, all I saw was a frozen lake with a cave type opening on the other side.
"Walk across the frozen lake, but I'm not sure if it's a thick layer of ice or a thin one, so I'm going first." Jasper said, and I felt my eyes widen with fright.
"Jasper! You can't be serious, what if I fall through the ice? Or what if I slip and fall and hurt myself?" I asked, backing away from the lake and into a tree.
"If you fall through, then I'll come to the rescue, and if you slip then I'll hurry up and grab you before you hit the ice." He said with a smile, reaching his hand out for mine. I took it, "And the special place that I want to show you is across that lake, and this is the only way to get over there. If it was summer or spring we'd swim across, but it's winter so we have to walk across the frozen lake. Oh and note that since I'm a vampire, I'm basically as heavy as a boulder," He said with a laugh, "So if I dont fall through, then you wont fall through." He said with a smile.
"I can't argue with that logic." He took a step onto the ice. It made a cracking noise, which worried me, but when he put his other foot on it and didn't fall through I sighed with relief.
"Actually, I think i may be able to carry you." He said with a smile. He picked me up and the cracking sound was a little louder, "Nope, nevermind." he said and set me down on the ground again. He walked across the ice. I took a hesitant step onto the ice, and it barely made a cracking noise. I tried to avoid the spots that he had stepped on, afraid that if I stepped on it i'd end up breaking the ice and falling through. I quickly ran across and then jumped into his arms after I made it across.
"The next time you take me here, we're waiting until we can swim across. I really dont want to fall through the ice and freeze to death." I said snuggling into his chest.
"Sure thing darlin'" He said with a southern twang in his voice. I looked up at him in confusion. "I'll explain everything you want to know about me and my family when we get to the secret place." He said with a smile and then took my hand and lead me through the opening of the cave. The lake broke into a small stream and was frozen at the mouth of the cave, but as we walked along the rock ground next to the small stream I noticed that it wasn't frozen anymore. Jasper lit a lantern he pulled out of his backpack so I could see and we continued on our merry way. The cave seemed to be extremely creepy to me so I started clinging to Jasper's arm. He wrapped it around my shoulders and whipsered, "Don't worry, I'm here to protect you from the big bad cave monsters." he said with a chuckle. "Oh, and we're going to have to do some repelling down the wall, but if you want me to, I can put you on my back and just jump down." He said with a smile as we reached the place where he was talking about.
"I'd rather you jump down with me on your back." I said and jumped onto his back.
"Alright." he said and backed up a few steps, he ran and jumped off the side with me clinging to him for dear life. "You can open your eyes and climb down now." He said with a laugh.
"Okay...but I think i need help." I said, my arms refused to unwrap themselves from his neck. He grabbed my arms and pulled them off of him, then pulled me infront of him and gave me a kiss. He let go of me, but held my hand and led me further into the cave. We reached a large circular room, he set his backpack down on the ground, took a blanket out spread it on the center of cave ground, sat on it and then patted the spot next to him. I ran over and sat on it with him.
"Give me the lantern." He said, I did, and he did something unexpected, he blew it out. I gasped, as the stones started glowing light blue.
"What makes the rocks glow like that?" I asked looking around marvelling at the beautiful stones.
"I really don't know, I've never been able to figure that one out. So what do you want to know about me?" He asked laying back on the blanket.
"Um, whens your birthday?" I asked, not knowing anything else to ask.
He laughed. "All i really know is my birthyear, Don't really remember the exact date. I was born in 1843." He said with a smile.
"Wow you're old." I said with a grin. "Can you just tell me your whole story?" I asked.
"Okay, so I was born as Jasper Whitlock in 1843, in Houston Texas, shortly before my seventeenth birthday I joined the Confederate Army lying to them about my age claiming I was twenty. I quickly rose through the ranks and became the youngest Major in Texas, even without considering my real age. I was turned into a vampire in 1863 by a vampire named Maira, when I was 20 years old. Maria had a coven with two other vampires, one named Nettie, and the other was Lucy. Maria was fighting a territorial war for claim on big cities in the south, such as Mexico City. Maria recognized that I was high-ranking in the army, and therefore already had some knowledge of combat skills. She wanted a strong male vampire who could fight alongside her. When Maria found out about my peculiar ability to control the emotions of those around me, she found me even more useful. My main responsibility was to train the newborn vampires and then kill them when they were no longer useful to Maria, usually after about a year when their strength had begun to fade. After about a century of this, I grew weary of the lifestyle. An old vampire colleague of mine, named Peter, persuaded me to escape from Maria. For a time, I wandered with Peter and his companion, Charlotte but soon came to feel remorse for my prey because I experienced their emotions as I took their lives. As a result, I ran away and wandered on my own until I found Alice, which I later recognized her as my true love, she was waiting for me in a half-empty diner in Philadelphia. She had seen through her prescience we would find the Cullens and live there together in peace. My family tells the humans that I'm Rosalie's twin brother due to our physical similarities and for this reason, we both use Rosalie's surname of "Hale". Out of the whole family, I have the hardest time being around humans, due to my untrained upbringing as a young vampire in an army environment. I was not taught control or how to regulate my blood lust. All human blood is equally tempting to me, except for yours that is, yours is unlike any I've ever come across before." He said and looked at me, probably still thinking that I would run away screaming and I could tell that he paraphrased it, and that he only left out the changing process, and I noticed that he looked as if he would cry when he mentioned Alice. I tried to make his pain go away by hugging him tightly and snuggling my face into his neck.
"Jasper, if I tried to run away screaming, I'd get stuck at that darn cliff, because I can't climb to save my life." I said and snuggled closer to him. He tensed up a little bit. "Jasper, I trust you, I know you won't bite me. I know you can control yourself." I said and kissed his throat.
"Oh, love, I have something else I need to show you." He said, and pushed up the sleeve on his sweater. He relit the lantern, "Have you ever wondered why I always wear long sleeved shirts, and when I actually wear short sleeved shirts, I always have a longsleeved shirt under it?" He asked, I nodded. He gave me the lantern and told me to hold it closer to his arm, but be careful not to actually get the fire on him because that wouldn't be a good outcome. So I put the lantern next to his arm, and he traced a crescent shaped bump on his arm, and I noticed that his arm was covered in them.
"Jasper, wh-what happened to you?" I asked, and touched one of the bumps on his arm.
"When I was fighting in those wars, this was what happened when I got bit, our venom is the only thing that leaves the scars. My whole body is covered with small crescent shaped scars, just like these. I have a few on my face, but most of them are on my neck, back, chest, and arms." He said, and pushed the sleeve back down his arm. "Alice used to make me keep my shirt on when we were having some more intimate moments in bed, because, either she didn't like looking at them, or didn't want to touch them, I never really figured out why." He said and looked at the cave ceiling. I cuddled into him.
"Jasper, can you tell me what happens when someone is bitten?" I was dying of curiosity, I asked every member of his family, but they all refused to tell me.
He sighed, "Do you really want to know?" I nodded, "Fine. You see now, after you're bitten, it feels as if...I really don't know how to describe it, but it's extremely painful and very unpleasant. First it feels like you're on fire, then shortly after that it feels as if you've been caught on fire, and dunked into a vat of acid, and getting run over by a mack truck, and..well basically any extremly painful incident you can think of, all combined into one. It lasts for about three days, and on the final day, just before your heart stops beating, it all goes straight to your heart, and it's about twenty times worse than it was when it started, only all in one place as opposed to being everywhere at once." He said, and then gave me that look that told me he was thinking of me running awya screaming once more.
"Jasper, I agreed to marry you, I'm not going to run off any time soon. So stop worrying about me running off screaming." I said moving to sit on his lap, straddling him, and then I kissed him.