Chapter 21: Nicest Kids In Town

TrojansNotNeeded: its official. she hates me.
adhasnovds: she does not
TrojansNotNeeded: everytime she looks at me its like bam! daggers.
TrojansNotNeeded: if she could like ray zap me with her eyes, she totally would.
adhasnovds: you don't know that bradshaw
TrojansNotNeeded: i actually want to talk to you about my step sister
TrojansNotNeeded: do you have a minute
adhasnovds: for you?
adhasnovds: i have a lifetime
TrojansNotNeeded: aw you're sweet.
adhasnovds: as sugar ;-)
TrojansNotNeeded: so... i did something horrible
TrojansNotNeeded: and now all i can think about
TrojansNotNeeded: is taking it back
TrojansNotNeeded: do you mind if we dont talk about what it was, it makes me sick to even recount it. but..
TrojansNotNeeded: on a scale from one to ten, its like a forty
adhasnovds: *sigh* amy what am i going to do with you
TrojansNotNeeded: i knew it was wrong but taycen was upset and she said that my sister was to blame and for a moment all i saw was red.
adhasnovds: i get that, i do. i'm the same way with K.
TrojansNotNeeded: its like you crave vengeance or something
TrojansNotNeeded: right?
adhasnovds: indeed
TrojansNotNeeded: even though it probably won't even make you feel better, you do it anyway
adhasnovds: oh yes. because at the time it feels right
TrojansNotNeeded: so now i feel horrible. and i dont know what to do. its like years and years and years of hating her just suddenly exploded into this one moment where i made such a huge mistake.
adhasnovds: why do you hate her?
TrojansNotNeeded: its complicated.
adhasnovds: try me
TrojansNotNeeded: when i was seven her dad and my mom got married
TrojansNotNeeded: and like, i hate her dad. he will never be my dad and because her dad lived here in Cali my mom moved us out here away from my Dad. I never get to see him.
TrojansNotNeeded: i miss him. i miss him so much.
adhasnovds: :-( i'm sorry amy
TrojansNotNeeded: but i guess its just that i kind of blame her too
TrojansNotNeeded: because shes a part of his family
adhasnovds: but she didn't have anything to do with it
TrojansNotNeeded: but its her dad!
adhasnovds: i realize that amy, but listen ok? she's not her father. she didn't get with your mom. she didn't ask her to move out here
TrojansNotNeeded: *sigh*
TrojansNotNeeded: i know
TrojansNotNeeded: but
TrojansNotNeeded: everytime i see her face, i see everything i've lost
adhasnovds: have you ever talked with your mother about this? or have you at least tried to?
TrojansNotNeeded: you know regina?
TrojansNotNeeded: that's my mom. times eighty.
TrojansNotNeeded: thousand
TrojansNotNeeded: million
TrojansNotNeeded: billion
adhasnovds: eighty thousand million billion huh?
TrojansNotNeeded: i can't talk to that woman about anything.
adhasnovds: why not
TrojansNotNeeded: because she's too busy for her own child.
TrojansNotNeeded: she's never home and when she is, she's always talking about med school.
adhasnovds: slash her tires
TrojansNotNeeded: what do i do about my sister
adhasnovds: stop blaming her for things she didn't do to you
adhasnovds: don't take out your anger or frustration for your step dad on her. she doesn't deserve it
TrojansNotNeeded: okay
TrojansNotNeeded: i have another thing to tell you
TrojansNotNeeded: i haven't slept with Taycen, it's been a week.
TrojansNotNeeded: i just wanted you to know. and we're together now, secretly, but we're together.
adhasnovds: oh
adhasnovds: what about your boyfriend?
TrojansNotNeeded: he's not my boyfriend anymore
TrojansNotNeeded: we broke up
adhasnovds: so you end it with him and just jump right into a relationship with taycen?
TrojansNotNeeded: well thats what she and i both wanted... why wait?
adhasnovds: well..i mean are you sure?
TrojansNotNeeded: well yeah, i mean i really like her a lot.
TrojansNotNeeded: speaking of like.. how are things with cindy? got big valentines plans?
adhasnovds: ugh...
TrojansNotNeeded: lol what?
adhasnovds: i honestly hate this holiday and i understand why guys do too
adhasnovds: i didn't have anything planned until...two days ago
TrojansNotNeeded: so what's your plan?
adhasnovds: attempt to cook her dinner and a night of old movies and maybe a little...you know.
adhasnovds: you and taycen have any plans?
TrojansNotNeeded: thats so weird. the same thing, except we're watching mean girls
adhasnovds: you're gonna sleep with her?!
TrojansNotNeeded: oh no!
TrojansNotNeeded: everything but that
TrojansNotNeeded: lol
adhasnovds: oh...
TrojansNotNeeded: no i have no plans on that, she actually said that we shouldn't.
adhasnovds: she said that?
adhasnovds: wait. did you find another taycen or something?
TrojansNotNeeded: i know right? who knew she could be this amazing. but maybe all she needed was a chance to finally show me.
TrojansNotNeeded: just like my sister deserves a real sister out of me.
adhasnovds: seriously. be nicer to her. who knows, maybe her friend will come around
TrojansNotNeeded: yeah i think i actually might have a little bit of a thing for her friend.
TrojansNotNeeded: haha
TrojansNotNeeded: i keep dreaming about her.
adhasnovds: oh really?
adhasnovds: same dream?
TrojansNotNeeded: not exactly
adhasnovds: do tell, doooo tell
TrojansNotNeeded: we're at school, and I can tell she's been crying. I can feel the tears on my face as well. And for some reason, I just walk over and tell her that I'm sorry and then I kiss her.
TrojansNotNeeded: Really kiss her.
adhasnovds: wow
TrojansNotNeeded: right?
adhasnovds: anything else?
TrojansNotNeeded: nope
TrojansNotNeeded: just a kiss
TrojansNotNeeded: but it was a great kiss
adhasnovds: oh really? hmm
adhasnovds: even better than taycen?
TrojansNotNeeded: for some reason, its better than breathing. it's like being on top of a cloud and flying through the sky at warp speed. I don't know how to describe it, it just moves me in a way that no one else does.
adhasnovds: which kiss?
TrojansNotNeeded: the one with my sister's friend
adhasnovds: i see…
TrojansNotNeeded: but i gotta go get ready, plus i think my sister's friend is coming over soon
TrojansNotNeeded: better be outta the house before she tries to crucify me.
adhasnovds: yeah, i'd best be on my way too. many things to do before tonight.
TrojansNotNeeded: thanks so much for the advice about my sister... you're really such a great friend.
adhasnovds: *shrugs* it's nothin... i'm sorry for freaking out the other night by the way.
TrojansNotNeeded: it's okay. we all have our off nights. night janet!
adhasnovds: night amy