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Chapter 25

"Jason!" Nate called as he unlocked the apartment door, Mitchie trailing hesitantly behind, still not knowing what to expect. The apartment that greeted her was a far better sight then what Caitlyn had seen, but it still wasn't exactly a nice place to live in by all standards.

Jason soon appeared from a door to the left and smiled tiredly, then seeing Mitchie he ran forwards and hugged her tightly, "please make him all better," he whispered before nodding to Nate and leaving the apartment. Mitchie looked down at the floor, I'm not some doctor that can fix people... "you'll be okay, if you need anything. Just call me." Nate whispered too, as if afraid Shane would hear him.

Leaning forwards he kissed her temple and squeezed her hand gently, "thank you for doing this."

After he left and Mitchie had located what she assumed was Shane's room. She waited outside for what seemed like seconds, but looking down at her phone she realized she'd been standing there for more than 30 minutes. Lifting up her hand she looked at her shaking hand and clutched the doorknob, biting her lip and holding back tears she nervously began to twist the door open.

"Go away Jason," she heard a voice croak out, she froze gasping for breath. She hadn't heard his voice in over 2 weeks. She'd missed his voice. Taking a deep breath she bravely stepped inside, closing the door behind her and leaning against it for support.

Shane was facing the wall, his hair was damp from his recent shower Jason had forced him to take and he was sleeping on a camp bed. A slight upgrade from the sleeping bag he was on that morning. "Go away Jason!" He gritted out more forcefully, she felt herself give an involuntary squeak, more nervous than she'd ever been.

Shane sighed angrily and whipped his head around, ready to shout at Jason for disturbing him. However the sight of Mitchie was enough to stun him into silence. He took the time to let his eyes remember her, her hair was tied at the back, her bangs getting slightly too long and she was in her PJ's. She looked tired and, Shane felt a strong pang of guilt wash over him as he saw the hurt, and sadness in her eyes as they shone with tears.

"Mitchie," he whispered, sitting up. She flinched as he moved as if afraid he'd charge at her. She looked over him and sighed, he still hadn't shaved and he was now wearing an oversized tee shirt and boxers.

He swung his legs over the edge of the camp bed and put his head in his hands. "What are you doing here?" he asked weakly, not looking up at her. The guilt was to much to deal with every time he saw her.

"I-" she tried to talk but her voice locked, sliding down the door she sighed. "I came to see how you were... Nate said-" as soon as she said that, regret filled her body. Oh great Mitchie just bring up the reason you're in this mess.

"Nate asked you to come?" he whispered bitterly running his hands through his hair. "Yes," Mitchie said, "because he cares about you, we all do." Shane laughed hollowly shaking his head, "nobody does, I don't even know what the point is anymore!" He groaned banging his head back against the wall with a sickening thud.

Mitchie flinched once again, "Shane!" she scolded, "don't say stuff like that! We do care, Nate loves you! So does Jason and-"

"You?" Shane interrupted hoarsely, finally meeting her eyes, staring at her hard willing her to admit it. "People care about you Shane, even if your parents don't, you have a lot of people. Stop acting like this!" Mitchie ignored his question, knowing she couldn't lie to him.

"I hate my life," He mumbled into his hands, Mitchie held back the temptation to roll her eyes and sighed, "Shane millions would kill for your life!" She argued tiredly, but he shook his head glaring at her.

"What a family that hates me, you hate me. The whole world is against me! The journalists always make me out to be some kind of jerk... then I find out that my Dad has been leaking stuff purposely to wind me up. You... you never trusted me in the first place, always worrying about those stupid girls that meant nothing to me! But you just couldn't let it go... turn to my perfect brother..."

This time Mitchie did roll her eyes, "Shane I swear if you mention me and Nate again I will walk out of your life, and never come back! And as to everything else, you have fans out there that love you! There are reports everywhere at the moment saying how amazing your attitude is now... You're family doesn't hate you. You've got two brothers that love you to death! Jason gave up his home for you... Nate's been working so hard in the past two weeks, to make sure you're okay!"

"... And I don't hate you..." she finished looking in his eyes, "how can you not after what I said?!" He asked bitterly to which she shook her head mutely.

They sat in silence for a long time, both caught up in each others thoughts, until finally Shane broke the silence, "I'm so sorry Mitchie." She looked up and watched as tears trickled from his big brown eyes. She felt her heart break but felt so much love at the same time, confused by her feelings Mitchie got up slowly and sat beside him on the bed.

"I really am sorry," he added when she didn't respond, "I don't know what's happening to me," he cried hiding his face in his hands again. Sensing he still hadn't finished Mitchie stayed silent for him. "I feel like i have no one, after my Dad said that... you were going to leave me, that I wasn't enough-"

"You were enough for me Shane," Mitchie broke in softly placing a hand gently on his arm, she felt sparks tingle up her arm as she touched his tense muscles.

"Were?" Shane's voice cracked as he looked sideways at her, his eyes pleading. She knew he was asking for a second chance, but there was no way she could go through any of that again. "Shane," she said quietly but he ignored her, standing up and away from her, swaying slightly from lack of food. She stared up at him worriedly, knowing he would fall sick if he didn't eat properly soon.

"I can't do it without you Mitch, I can't live without you, I just can't you're the only one that understands me... you're the only one...!" He started rambling pacing in the small room. His words terrified her and she was quick to pull him back down beside her to shut him up. "You- you don't have to do it without me," she said softly and before she could explain herself further his eyes lit up and he crashed his lips against her.

"I love you, I love you so much!"He mumbled against her lips, holding her head to him he deepened the kiss, sliding his tongue into her mouth, he put so much passion into the kiss she felt slightly dizzy. He moaned, his hands resting on her sides, putting all his energy into showing how sorry and how much he'd missed her into the kiss.

She didn't resist. How could she? She'd missed him so much it broke her, one last moment of weakness couldn't hurt. "I've missed you," he whispered kissing down her jaw and her neck, "I'm so sorry." Shane began to push her back onto the small bed, and leaned over the top of her.

When he finally broke away he smiled, instantly it brightened up his whole demeanor and she felt her heart crack once she realized she was going to have destroy this new found happiness. "I'm so glad I've got you back," he sighed in relief but Mitchie shook her head slowly.

"Shane-" she started, her eyes tearing up again. "I never said that... I don't think, I don't think we can be the way we were... together..."

"What?! So I have lost you!" He cried out frustratedly, then suddenly he got down on his knees in front of her and begged.

Shane Gray was begging.

"Please, don't leave me! I need you Please! Mitchie I don't-" he started sobbing, "I need you so much... 'you're the voice I hear inside my head-'" Now Mitchie was crying as he sang to her his voice weak and wobbly, his desperation and emotion scaring her to death. "You're the reason that I'm singing... Mitchie I do love you."

"I'm sorry for saying those things, I really thought you and Nate... But i was wrong and about those girls-" He started to apologize again but Mitchie stopped him. "Shane it doesn't matter, I should've realized all that was in the past, I shouldn't have got so worked up about it." She admitted pulling her hands out if his and placing them on his cheeks.

"I forgive you Shane." She murmured brushing a tear that was sliding down his cheek away. As the hopeful look returned she continued, "But I can't be your girlfriend again, and it's not just because of what happened, I'm in my senior year now I need to concentrate if I don't want to repeat it, like someone," she tried to tease, to put a light tone on what she was saying.

A smile flickered on his face but disappeared as fast as it came. "It's all my fault," he said looking down, "Mitchie why should I keep going?" he asked seriously again frightening her a little at his thoughts. Tears started to well in her eyes again as she ran over his words and a sob escaped her throat as she began to address his question.

"Shane please don't say things like that, it really scares me," she said honestly her hands still shaking, guilt flashed in his eyes and he mouthed a silent "sorry". "You've got so much to live for, you've got a great life ahead of you, and one day you're going to meet someone and make them so happy..." she said and though her words broke her own heart she hoped it'd happen for him. Hoped he find his way in the world again and would find love.

"Didn't I make you happy Mitchie?" he asked pulling her down in front of him. "More happy than I've ever been," she replied her hands resting on his knees. "Then why-" Mitchie sighed loudly, knowing they were going round in circles. She had to end this, for both their sakes.

"Shane, all I can offer you now is my friendship, honestly? You broke my heart and I also don't think anyones ever hurt me as much as you did-" Shane hung his head ashamed, "I don't think we can get back to the way we were, you obviously don't trust me." She put her hands to his lips to stop him protesting and continued, "Shane I do love you, and thats why I'm doing whats best for us..."

Her eyes widened slightly along with his. The first time she'd told him she was in love with him... and she was breaking up with him. Great, Just great.

Mitchie could tell he was no longer listening, as soon as her words registered in his mind his eyes shone with such emotion, but on second thought he nodded slowly and looked down. "I'm sorry I ruined everything... but if- if the only way I can have you in my life- is... is as a f-friend, then I'll accept it." He spoke so softly Mitchie could barely hear him.

"Okay," she agreed then pulled him tentatively into a hug. Responding he wrapped his arms around her back and pulled her too him tightly. "I've really missed you," she felt his breath tickle her neck and shivered, already missing being closer with him. One thing she knew, it was going to be hard.

Pulling away she smiled softly, "I'm going to cook you some food, you look starved" she said standing up quietly, Shane watched her go and waited till she shut the door before he broke down. Sobbing silently he clutched his hair and pulled feeling the searing pain in his scalp he cried out. Although it hurt, the pain was nothing compared to what he felt inside.

He'd lost her. Friend of no, she was no longer his. And it was all his fault.

Anger at himself seared through his veins and lashed out, punching the wall beside him. Again the fresh pain felt almost soothing to him, it replaced the pain inside for a split second making him feel better. He drew back his hand again but paused, he could hear Mitchie again, crying.

He couldn't stand that he'd done that too her, he'd hurt the love of his life so badly... she wanted nothing more than friendship from him now, and even that he doubted. Why would she want to be around him after all that he'd done.

He had to get her back.

"Okay this is the last the one!" Mitchie laughed putting a 6th pancake on Shane's plate. She was right in thinking he hadn't eaten properly in the while as now he swallowed up the food without even chewing it.

Sitting across from him on the small table Mitchie chewed her lip, "I've missed your cooking Mitch," he smiled softly, after finishing up his plate.

Mitchie smiled back but the smile didn't reach her eyes. "You.. Shane you need to talk to Nate..." Mitchie said softly, taking his dish to the sink. Shane frowned but seeing the stern look she sent him nodded slowly. "I guess I should... I doubt he wants to hear it though..." he chewed his lip nervously. "I've probably lost him-" his voice cracked again.

Mitchie sighed, she couldn't believe the state Shane had got himself in. One things for sure, he needed help. Professional help, and she was damn sure going to make sure he got it. "He comes round here everyday to check if you're okay. He begged me to come see you, he defended you against the wrath of Cait, it even threatened their relationship when they argued about it."

Shane's jaw dropped slightly, even more guilt flooded his body. His actions nearly ruined his brothers relationship as well.

"I've screwed everything up, haven't I?" he laughed bitterly standing up and looking out of his window. "You can fix it, Shane." His heart sped up as she said his name, he glanced over at her and bit his lip. He'd do anything just to take her in his arms right now. But he couldn't... and that thought was enough to kill him.

"Can I fix us?" He whispered as she put on her coat, getting ready to go. It was 3 in the morning, so she texted Nate to pick her up and Cait to be ready to unlock the door for her. She turned back to Shane and studied his movements carefully.

Instead of answering she stepped forwards and hugged him quickly. She knew she shouldn't have whispered in his ear. She knew it'd only cause him to start hoping... but in the back of her mind maybe there was hope too.

Shane gave a small smile, and quickly kissed her cheek. "Thank you. I'll see you... sometime..." He sighed rocking back and forth on balls of his feet. "You'll see me in 2 days, we'll all come round and have... fun maybe..." she promised and stepped outside the door.

Although she'd sorted part of this mess, it still didn't make her feel any better than this morning. She'd still lost him. She was alone again. And now she'd given him hope of something more.

Thinking back to the words she whispered she sighed and looked back at his apartment before getting into Nate's car.

"You can fix anything."

Centre A/N :)

Okay I have a favor to ask... :P

So I need more music basically haha

I've been myspacing music but not finding much :/

SO

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