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APOV

I escaped the building, jumping down the stairs three steps at once. The vision I had saw made me abandon Bella and, probably, make her confused, but I would just blame it on my brother, later. Jasper was nowhere near; I saw him making a decision of playing dare and dare with Emmett. That wouldn't end well, would it? However, I didn't have the time to pace around those two, I had to find Edward in hopes that Melody wouldn't be all over him. They weren't attached to each other like I was to Jasper, as Rosalie was to Emmett. It was completely different. Even when they moved in the same time there was some shield making it look unrealistic, not like it's meant to be. I could not allow Edward to see my thoughts, so whenever he came around, I thought about clothes. I heard there was a new shop opening in Port Angeles and I had to be there. He thought that my world revolved around clothes. Psshh, nonsense!

Alright, a little.

I skipped over the parking lot, making my way to the building where the Art's class was. I had the lesson with Edward, as we had arranged our schedules. He was already there, known to what was on my mind.

"I saw the vision, you can't be serious, Edward!"

'Bella we can't be friends. Ever. With every word and sentence we share, you just get closer to death. Do you really think I want to put you in danger? I would prefer if you did not speak to me, or my family. Just forget about the things you know and don't try to dig deeper. It's not worth it, your life can't depend on us, on me. I'm a monster, a bad person, what can I do to make you realize it for once?'

I murmured when I had sat down in the place next to him. He crooked his eyebrows, speaking.

"Alice, are you as obstinate as Isabella, too?" Edward asked, watching my face.

How I hated when he got all fatherly on me. That was Carlisle's role and he was much better at it than Edward was.

"I'm not stubborn, and don't call my friend like that, can't you see that it's just the destiny doing it what it has to do?"

"Yes, but I might accidentally kill her. And I made a promise to Melody, I'll marry her."

Edward was hung up on his wedding, but I was planning it, so if I wanted to, I could create a fiasco. Of course, I had my best intentions, as I still loved Edward. He was my brother, and if Melody was what he wanted, I would be fine with it.

It wouldn't last long, either way.

We both spoke quietly; a human would not be able to catch up to what we were saying. If they heard some noises, they would blame on the weather outside. Thinking of weather, I looked outside. It was raining; I could foresee mud and my shoes getting ruined. I cringed at the thought; they were my favorite pair. In addition, this was the third pair of these shoes this week. It wasn't about the money, it was about how I lost the things I liked. I could walk barefoot to the car… I remember that I had to return to Edward and his 'I'm a monster' ways, which were completely untrue and ridiculous.

"I saw you kill her only on the first day, there haven't been visions about the subject. Not one, so would you please calm down and be friendly? Melody, tell her it's a friendship, it's not like you and Bella share something… yet!"

My brother was flat out oblivious.

"I will not risk the life we have or hers. You too, Alice, should forget about it and let it go. This conversation is over." Edward announced.

We spent the rest of the lesson in silence; I did not mind throwing looks at him. I was angry at him, but I knew that he would talk to Carlisle tonight. And the talk would set things straight. How I loved my visions, they always prepared be for Edward's shenanigans and times when he acted so utterly ridiculous.

When the bell rung, Edward deserted the classroom first. I winced.

Way to be inconspicuous.

I thought before joining the mass that flowed through the door.

BPOV

The day was slow. My mind wasn't so slow, though. I spent the time spacing out, thinking about the Cullens and what was so fascinating about them. I knew about them being vampires, I did not know what were they powers and what they could do. The one thing I didn't understand the most, was why was I attracted to Edward, and how come he had shoved some feelings towards me. I was the plain mary jane, the one people usually over-look and now, suddenly, I was thrown in a school with kids who knew about my existence. I preferred being invisible, now it was impossible. The third week in the school was coming close and people hadn't gotten used to me.

Or I was nowhere close to being used to their attitude towards me. The attention was excruciating.

I was about to head off to the building where Health class was held. The next break would be lunch; I had made plans to accompany Angela when she was going to the library. I would eat later, as I didn't enjoy the school's food a lot. Today I was escaping Jessica's babble too, when Lauren and she were together, they created the most unthinkable things.

"Lovely."

I muttered under my breath, noticing that it's raining outside. I took my jacket out of my bag and put it on, pulling the hood up. The weather of Forks wasn't growing on me, it was actually irritating me. It could change every five minutes and I would have not been surprised if it started to snow somewhere in the middle of the day.

"You're not liking the weather, are you?"

I heard someone state matter of factly behind my back, as I was about to push the door open and make a quick run to the other building. Did he have a class here? I thought, captivated by the voice. I knew who the owner was.

I turned around, hesitating. I was right, Edward all in his glory. There were droplets of water in his hair, his face perfect and untouched; he did not seem to mind the rain. Of course, he was an ice cold vampire faced Adonis.

"No, I do not." I answered, waiting if he had anything to say.

I rarely understood what he wanted, it seemed like something or someone was holding him back from me, sometimes. However, the other times we talked, I could sense that he was drawing himself closer to me, as if Edward was fighting two sides of him. Having an inner battle or a debate.

He would not hurt me.

I assured myself, looking him into the eye. Wrong move, I gulped. They were black, like they had been on the first day. Terrifying coal black was filling his eyes.

"I have to talk to you, do you have some time?"

I thought about how worth it would be to ditch Health. I had promised Charlie that I wouldn't, but did it matter now? The person whose mood was changing even faster that the weather in Forks, was speaking to me.

I was curious; I wished I had not been.

"I think so."

"Let's go then." Edward answered, holding the door open.

"I would prefer if you hurried up, Eric is thinking of asking you to the ball."

He chuckled, and I went out in the rain. It was ice cold; I shivered.

"How can you know what Eric thinks?" I asked, but I got no answer. Edward ignored my question. I was tired of boys thinking that I would like to go to the ball, it made no sense. Didn't they talk about whom they were taking to the ball? Why couldn't Mike explain that I was in no position to dance?

"I don't know what were you thinking when you decided to move from Phoenix to Forks. Insane." He murmured, as I followed him. Edward took big steps, while I was jumping between the rain puddles. Being clumsy, I stepped in a few of them. Luckily, a hand caught me just in time, before I could make my moccasins wet. Oh, yes, my shoes were rain inappropriate.

"I don't know either." I answered, slowing down and taking a breath. I looked up to see Edward holding the door of his silver Volvo. Was he thinking of driving around? I had school that I had to attend, for once.

"Don't give me that look, we're not going anywhere. It's just a shelter from the rain."

I could swear that I heard him cringe when I sat my wet self on the front passenger's seat. He closed the door and in an incredible speed was right next to me in the driver's place. I looked over at him; his fingers were tapping on the wheel.

"Bella, it can't happen."

Edward started, was I forgetting something?

"I can't put you in danger. I've lost someone who cared for me before, who sat by my side until her life was barely there. And she died. I do not want you to take the same end, too. It's not worth it, I'm not worth it. I'm just someone who happened to bump into your life by accident, and I would prefer if we both, especially you, would forget about the other's existence."

I took a breath, turning my eyes to the front. The rain was panting on the window, raindrops slowly, one by one, slid down, joined by others… I couldn't understand Edward, and what I had heard, it made me believe that he didn't want me to figure him out. Someone who died because of him, why was he blaming himself?

"Who was she?" I asked.

"My mother, Elizabeth Masen. Nevertheless, it is not the point, Isabella. You can't see what I am, though you clearly know what hides inside of me. As much as I would like you to be next to be, I don't want you to take a risk. I know that it would be characteristic of you to act stubborn and not listen to me, but I'm begging you, this one time, forget about me. Go on with how your life is and I will continue on being a monster. No distractions, you're my temptation and I have to fight it."

Edward had rehearsed what he would say, I, however, had not. Everything he put on my shoulders, everything he said left me full of questions. Why and how come he had decided to cut it off; was he scared of me or was he scared of himself being too into me? I knew it was all sounding like some sort of crappy soap opera, but it was life. I thought that it would go smoothly, but, obviously, it did not.

"Edward, I can't understand you. Your mood swings and change of thoughts make me dizzy."

He cut me off. I felt like I didn't even have a word in this, it was all his idea and how he was putting it in front of me. Take it or leave it situation, no ways around.

"I had to make a choice and I have decided. I will marry Melody in summer, so there's no sense in hurting her or making her jealous, Bella. It's the truth. My life is so much different from yours, you think you don't understand me, but what is even worse, sometimes even I can't understand where do the emotions come from. They shouldn't be inside of me, I shouldn't be lusting after your blood so much as I am. I can hold my back, but us becoming closer would just frustrate the monster inside of me even more. I'm sorry, but it's better if we don't go further than schoolmates."

I listened to him, as Edward's words flowed from his lips. His eyes were shut, and I noticed, he wasn't breathing. I had read that vampires used their ability to breathe when they wanted to pick up the scents and sense the environment around them. The other things I had read didn't match with what Edward was doing, though. He didn't kill people, he attended school… and his beauty was making me speechless, I couldn't understand how one so beautiful could have such self destructing insides. He didn't see himself clearly or was just as stubborn as I was.

"I know you wouldn't kill me, why are you doing this? We could hang out and be friends; it is just you over thinking the possibilities and the worst outcomes. Will you announce that you have changed your mind tomorrow? I wouldn't be surprised."

I answered, watching his features soften. He smiled at me with an apologetic smile.

"It's much more complicated. Do you even know how old am I? I've been in this world for much longer than you have, I know more and I don't think that it's normal for me to hang out with you. You can't predict and expect me to be collected, I might loose control, and then you would be dead."

"I am not afraid of you."

"You should be, now, please get out and go. I am sure; Angela will be waiting for you after ten minutes or so. Pretend that nor I, nor my family exists Bella, please. For your own sake."

I nodded, taking another deep breath and looked over at him. His eyes were looking into mine, but his demand was so definite, I just followed what he had said. I don't know why I listened into him, why I wasn't fighting with him, trying to prove that I'm not risking anything. It was his choice and it was hard to cope with it, I wasn't keen on the idea of not talking to him anymore. It would be difficult, I thought as I got out of the car, shut the door, not caring if his precious car is broken and went to the library. I put my happy face on; again, I wouldn't let anyone know how much this hurt me. He was breaking a bond with me; he was making a choice to go for Melody. Yes, he knew her better and for a longer period of time, but I was here. He, his own words approved that he did feel something for me, yet Edward was shutting it off and pretending that it's not there. I could tell he wasn't being true to me, I just hoped that he wasn't lying to himself.

On my way, I passed Melody. Her golden eyes stared me down, I didn't look away, neither did she. She was much more beautiful and, probably, intelligent, too. No wonder about why was Edward making such choice.

I stumbled my way up the stairs and met Angela in the library. She had a lot to tell, Ben was finally being a man. While she was talking about him, an idea was drawing clear in my head. I wanted to visit Jacob, apologize and make him tell me things I wanted to know. Certainly, I wasn't good at dazzling people, but who knew.

I hadn't decide on when I would visit him, though. I would ask Charlie, if it was fine.

A week.

A week had passed since I had last spoken to Edward. He had changed his level in biology, so my new partner was no other that Jessica. It was nice to have someone who didn't stiffen in its seat when you walked by. In addition, I found Jessica amusing. She knew everything about every littlest thing happening in the school. I believed, it was too small for her gossip and yet she could create more and more. We never spoke about the Cullens; it was as if they didn't go here. Now I saw what the life was for the other students like, on the outside they ignored them and deep in their heads they thought of how unnaturally beautiful the family was.

I did miss his eyes, his voice and the way he popped up in my room. It hadn't happened for too long, but I had already gotten attached and all of a sudden, it was gone.

The lessons were something I could get through, the lunch was the usual. Tyler with his jokes and Mike with his tries to follow him. Tyler had luckily forgotten about the accident and re-paying me in a way. I was happy, because I didn't want him to feel uncomfortable just because of my bad luck. I could suffer, if that made anyone else feel better. That was the quality that made Renee worried, because I never really told her what I thought of moving to the Forks, letting her go on the road with Phil. I didn't feel bad for expressing my emotions, not at all.

It was a week that had not made my questions fade. I had so many of them, but I wasn't allowed to ask them. Sometimes, Alice tried to approach me; I could see it from the corner of my eye. I was hopeful, but it faded when Jasper appeared next to her and pulled her away just as she was about to open her mouth. Why couldn't they let her be my friend? Was it that complicated…? I did not know.

That day I decided to ask Charlie about visiting Jacob.

I went down the stairs, hoping that he had finished his meal. Charlie was much more positive after he had done eating.

"Hey, dad, I was wondering, when could I visit Jacob? I thought it would be good to ask you, since you know them better."

Charlie looked at me, astonished at my request.

"Weren't you mad at him?" he asked, putting his plate in the sink.

I would wash it later, I thought.

"Yes, but I would like to apologize, and I need to talk to Jacob." I answered, looking at him. For a minute, Charlie was thinking, and then he threw a glance at the clock. It was about seven o'clock.

"You can go now, if you want, but be back by eleven, alright? I'm not in the mood to go and search for my daughter." He answered, looking delighted.

I was sure; he would phone Billy right away so they could gossip about Jacob and me.

"I will. So, how is the girlfriend thing going on?"

I added, throwing a playful look. I was not letting him go with that one.

"It's fine, thanks for your concern. And now do go get dressed and drive before I change my mind and invite them over."

"Yes, chief." I answered, before hurrying up the stars. I hadn't changed my clothes, so I took my jacket, keys and phone and went down the stairs.

After I had said my goodbye, I went out to the car, got in and started the engine. Sometimes my car was difficult, I had to give it a few more goes and only then, it started. I made it out of Forks and headed in the way of the reservation.

I was driving to the limit my car allowed, if I tried to speed, it would cough and give up. I wasn't taking a risk of staying alone in the middle of the road at night.

I looked in the rearview mirror just to be blinded by another car, it was driving close to the Chevy and was familiar. I slowed down; it did too. Was someone following me? Finally, the car draw ahead of mine and was showing the right signal, only then I noticed that it was a silver Volvo. I didn't take three guesses of what it could be, rolling my eyes I kept on driving, but the Volvo was slowing down and didn't allow me to outrun it, I was getting irritated. It was like a snail competition, finally, I gave in. I turned my car aside, cutting the engine off and got out of it. Volvo had stopped in front of it; I stomped in its way. Edward got out of it and faced me. Over ruled my anger I punched him, to only be greeted by sharp pain in my fingers. I had put every emotion I had felt for the past week; from the moment, he had told me all those things. Now Edward was standing, looking at me concerned.

The punch did no effect on him, I cried out loud in pain. It did have an effect on me.

In a moment, I felt cold fingers wrapping around hand.

"Are you a stalker now?" I asked Edward, while he was inspecting it.

"No, I'm breaking the rules. How much does it hurt?" he answered, nonchalantly.

"Bearable." I answered.

Actually, it hurt a lot but his touch was soothing the pain. I did not want to admit it by saying it to him; he would just get a kick out of it.

I felt confused, bewildered, astonished by his actions.

"How did you find me?" I continued, while he was still caring about my stupid fingers.

"Alice saw your future disappearing and was worried; I caught your scent and followed you. Of course, once the vampires refused to be your friends, you had to run to the wolves. Stubborn Bella."

A/N: Sorry for rushing everything that I've could have spread through 81273 chapters. And I'm sorry for being so very late, too!

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