Authors Note: Okay I know it has been absolutly forever since I have updated, but my only real excuse is that my life is crazy and I barely have any free time, I hope you can all forgive me cuz I really am sorry and do not hold my story acountable for my stupid actions lol, please keep reading. I will try to update soon but it may be a week or so before I can. Please keep reading and replying it means a lot!
Special thanks to pink5288, tanya, naley38901, and Ghostwriter for reviewing their will be personal replies posted for you four and the reviewers of this chapter posted along with the next chapter lol. Hope you all reply!!!
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Paternal Instinct
Chapter 8
Maternal Bonds Can Hurt
Early the next morning I woke to see everyone was still asleep which was odd, with young kids generaly you don't ever wake yourself. I carefully lifted Maddie up and layed her back onto the couch. As I layed her down and covered her with the blanket I brushed her curly blonde hair out of her closed eyes and smiled a small smile. She had Peyton's bright green eyes and smile. It hurt to know that she would never know her mother as the women she used to be, that she would never truely know the women who looked like her.
"Daddy" Maddie whispered opening her eyes tiredly and rubbing them with her tiny fist.
"Hi baby go back to sleep it's still really early" I said kissing her on the forehead and walking into the kitchen after she nodded her head and closed her eyes again. I sat at one of the bar stools in the kitchen and turned on my laptop. I opened the internet window and clicked on compose email before typing Haley's email adress. I knew it was part of the program that I not assosiate with my family or my past but her and my brother deserved to know, at least that we were okay, just before I could begin typing an instant message popped up from none other than Haley.
~Instant Messaging Conversation~
TutorMom:
Lucas Eugene!How n the HECK can u just LEAVE?????? R u ok?
BroodyAuthor:
Calm down, its a lot to explain, im not even supposed to be talkin to u rite now.
TutorMom:
Wat?? Why?
BroodyAuthor:
I got help from this agency, its over!The kids needed to get away from her or she was gonna ruin their lives, I had to Hales I really am sorry I love you, Nate, and Dean very much and always will.
TutorMom:
R u guys okay Luke?
BroodyAuthor:
Ya were fine better than normal is gonna be the best for Maddie and James in the long run and thats what i need to focus on, i brought them into this world, well me and the b***h and ill be d***ed if im gonna let them be miserable for another minute.
TutorMom:
...i understand that...sorta yd u have to leave?
BroodyAuthor:
Its the only way to fully b free, i gotta go tho.
TutorMom:
Already?
BroodyAuthor:
Ya sorry but if im caught doin this i get kicked out of the write soon, i promise, just... dont tell ANYONE but Nate that you heard from me.. please.
TutorMom:
Ok.. Tell Maddie and Jamie we love them and keep them safe please, shes already lookin 4 u
BroodyAuthor:
Will do, Love you Hales.
TutorMom:
Love you too Luke.
~End Instand Messaging Conversation~
I sighed and closed the laptop running my hands over my face tiredly. 'She's already looking for us? That must me her dad is looking for us too' I thought worriedly. See Peyton's father was the district attorney in New York, he would do anything to help his only daughter, even if that included using his work powers to unethicly track his grandchildren down. I stood up trying to kick the thoughts of worry from my mind and headed to the fridge to begin making breakfast for everyone.
"Hey Luke, morning" Brooke chirped bouncing into a kitchen with a smile on her face.
"Morning, you know I know you are here to help us out, but you don't have to be up so early" I laughed but kept a serious note to it. I didn't want to pressure anyone to do anything for me that they didn't want to including going beyond what they had to. I had been through that once, with Peyton having James, and look how well that turned out for me.
"I'm a morning person" she said smiling as she repeated her statement from the previous morning.
I just laughed not knowing what to say. "I..." I started trying to thank her awkwardly but before I could finish I was interupted.
"Book, Book" Maddie hollered walking through the house clutching her blanket dragging it along behind her.
"Funny Bunny, I'm right here talking to your daddy" Brooke answered smiling as she walked to the doorway of the kitchen and picked Maddison up before my daughter layed her head on Brooke's shoulder.
I smiled softly to myself at the sight. I began thinking as Brooke carried Maddie out of the room to change her. Maybe I shouldn't let Brooke and Maddison get close. Maddison had never fully bonded with someone in the maternal sense, if she got close to Brooke her small fragile mind might look towards Brooke as the maternal figure that had been absent for the last year and a half of my daughter's life. Brooke, wish as I might, was nothing to my children and myself but an employee. Once she no longer had to protect us she may even turn out to be a close friend, but she was not Maddison or James' mother. 'Should I stop their relationship from getting to close' I questioned to myself as I dished up four plates of scrambled eggs and bacon? I couldn't let Maddie get hurt... again, this was supposed to be the way to live a life without pain for my children. The only question was... which would hurt her worse... letting her bond with Brooke, or not?
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Authors Note: Thanks for reading this chapter, I hope you all enjoyed it, this chapter really does not contain much it was just a filler chapter I used when writing this story to describe Brooke's relationship with the kids ecspecially with Maddison and how it is progressing and Luke's opinion on that it shows it sort of in the video made for this if you have seen it. Anyways hope you enjoyed it and please review.