"Pip..
What were you doing down there in the first place?" Damien asked
some time later as the pair walked along another snowy road. Pip
squirmed and jerkily shifted his hat more comfortable.
"Well..
I.. was going to Tweak's Coffee shop. But I looked up and… saw
you coming. So I carried on going, hoping to meet you.. But when you
looked up.. I don't know. I just hid in the alley and those boys
grabbed me." Pip said, quickly.
Damien stared at the floor, his
focus not fixed on anything particular.
"Do you.. Want to see
where I was when I wasn't at school yesterday?" Damien asked, his
hands in his pockets and his head low.
"Oh, I'd love to see
where you disappear to!" Pip smiled. Pip had been lonely throughout
the previous day. No-one talked to him apart from Damien, so he
wished very much that he could go and find Damien whenever he wished
(unless of course, that Damien was in hell..).
"Come on then,
I'll show you. Hurry up." Damien said, turning down another road
which led to a massive cast iron bridge.
Damien led Pip across the bridge, then across a small fence. Pip got slightly caught on a large nail sticking out of the wood, but still managed to get himself over. Soon enough, the pair reached a huge Weeping Willow tree over the path. The path had become thin and high, so the willow was the only obvious way to get across. Damien ducked under the leaves and held them apart for Pip to walk through. Pip crouched down, keeping two hands on his head so his hat stayed put. He looked up and around at the cavern of leaves. The sunlight was shining on one side which made the leaves glow a deep emerald green. Damien walked over to the other side of the tree and held the leaves back once again for Pip to walk through. Pip obliged and entered bright sunlight. He squinted, but once his eyes had adjusted to the light he looked up.
The snow under his feet gradually came to a stop
and was replaced by thick, lush green grass. Another small brick
bridge cut the grass off at the other side, but the bridge was
covered in snow. It seemed as if the snow only stopped around one
patch of grass. Along the grass grew many exotic flowers, too, that
you would most certainly not find in South Park. Little did Pip know
that Damien, himself, had planted all these plants to cover a patch
of rough brambles.
The river that ran under the bridge came to
meet the front of the patch of grass, but still left lots of
space.
Pip felt like he had fallen asleep and was having one
of his strange dreams, again. The ones that involved himself, Damien
and a beautiful place like the one he was looking at.
"This
place is so… beautiful, Damien!" Pip said softly.
"It's
just.. A place I made to think in quiet." Damien shrugged, his face
turning red again. He dropped himself down onto the lush grass and
spread himself out, arms folded behind his head and a blissful look
on his face. Pip smiled, watching the prominent features of Damien's
face relax. Damien was ever so slim… Pip noticed this as Damien
stretched out.. His toned stomach, thin arms..
Then, Pip was
snapped out of reality by Damien's voice.
"You can sit down,
you know." Damien said, looking at the glassy-eyed Pip. Pip jumped,
then regained himself and sat down on the grass. He looked to the
satanic being next to him.
"Did you make the snow go away here,
Damien?" Pip asked, smiling. Damien opened a single eye, and copied
Pip's smile; showing his fangs.
"You know me so well." he
said with a small chuckle. "Yes, I did. I couldn't get exotic
plants to grow in the snow, you see." he said, sitting up and
looking at the flowers. Damien then turned to the water in front of
them and nudged closer to it. He took off his black boots, then his
socks, then he rolled up his black drainpipe jeans and dipped his
feet into the water. He gave a relaxed sigh and closed his eyes.
"I
would much rather live up here than down there…" he mumbled,
finally. Pip paused for a moment, thinking. Why had Damien changed so
much? He wasn't usually like this.. Maybe the scenery and exposure
to nature was getting into his head?
"Then.. Why don't you?"
Pip asked, sliding himself next to Damien, but sitting on his knees
instead of putting his feet in the water.
"You… You could come
live up here and… we could be room-mates!" Pip said, his grin
widening as ideas progressed in his head.
"There's way too
many reasons that couldn't work." Damien said, plainly. Pip
turned his head on it's side with a confused expression.
"Why?"
he asked, feeling hurt. Damien sighed and took his feet out of the
water.
"For one; We're both guys. That could cause some major
shit. And two; My Dad would be offended if I moved out. I mean…
he'd probably get depressed if I changed my hairstyle." he said,
avoiding Pip's stare while he dried his feet and put his shoes and
socks back on. Pip looked down.
"But your father knows me… and
he likes me, right?" Pip asked to a small nod from Damien. "So
I'm sure it'll be alright if you were moving in with me. Besides,
everyone knows we're best friends - so it's natural,
right?"
Damien moved so he was face to face with Pip, then
sighed. He was about to answer when Pip cut him off.
"And
anyway. I'm nearly a girl as it is! I look like one!" Pip
giggled. He didn't mind insulting himself for fun when he was with
Damien. He was comfortable with him for some reason… "Oh.. And
you don't hate your hairstyle do you?"
Damien laughed,
shaking his head.
"No.. Well.. It could be a little shorter I
guess.." he said. "But seriously, Pip. As much as that idea
sounds fantastic - it's never going to happen is it?" Damien
asked, returning to his pessimistic attitude. Pip sighed and moved
closer to Damien to look right into his scarlet eyes.
"Why
don't you want to live with me, Damien?" he asked, softly. Damien
looked into Pip's twinkling blue eyes.
"Because.. I don't
think I can bear to live with you. It's not that I don't want to…
because I really do. I can't go through with telling… everyone
that your… just my room-mate." Damien stammered. Once he started…
he found he just couldn't stop. It was like Pip's eyes had him
under some sort of spell.
Pip listened carefully and all the while
he kept his eyes transfixed on Damien's… They looked so sincere
and honest… not a hint of cruelty within them at all.
"Damien…
is there anything you'd… like to tell me?" Pip asked. He had
the feeling that Damien was keeping something from him.. But what?
Damien made a noise of frustration in his throat and ran a hand
through his hair.
"Yes… but I can't… and.." Damien
stuttered, making a move to stand up, but Pip grabbed his wrists to
make him stay.
"Why not?" Pip asked, sharply. "Damien, I'm
supposed to be your best friend. Why can't you tell me?"
"Because it's uncomfortable, alright?!" Damien nearly
yelled, but kept his voice to an angry hiss. He tugged his wrists
away from Pip and stood up. Pip stood too.
"Tell me why it's
uncomfortable!" Pip pleaded. "Is it that people would think
you're a fag for living with me? It's not like your in love with
me or anything!" Pip said, looking earnestly at Damien.
"Well,
you've hit the nail right on it's fucking head there!" Damien
yelled. Then, he stopped dead and clasped his hands over his mouth in
shock… but the damage had already been done.. He had meant to think
that… not say it!
Pip's eyes widened and a stray bit of
his fringe fell to his nose. His heart leapt into his throat and he
backed away a little.
"You… You're in love with me?" He
asked, quietly. This was quite a shock to the poor little blonde.
Damien moaned into his hands. He looked up at Pip and tried to say
something but his vocal chords seemed reluctant.. He ran past Pip,
whacking into his shoulder slightly before bursting into the confined
space inside the Willow leaves.
In Damien's attempt to get away,
Pip had been knocked off balance and had fallen into the shallow part
of the river with a almighty splash. He decided to let Damien keep
going, though. If Pip was going to sort this situation out; he would
have to let him have space. Also, Pip needed time to think about what
had just been said.
Damien leant with his back against the
trunk of the tree, his head in his hands and his eyes prickling.
"You
don't cry, Damien." he growled to himself. "You don't cry!"
but with this last statement, tears fell from his eyes, mixing with
the makeup around his eyes and turning the salty water black.
He
slid down the trunk and curled up into a ball.
"Why can't I
keep my god-damned mouth shut?!" he yelled at himself.
Pip
could hear Damien's muffled yells.
He didn't want to leave his
best friend alone. He pulled himself up out of the river with a
little effort as his clothes were heavier now they had soaked up the
water.
He walked over to the tree slowly and pushed the willow
branches out of the way.
"Damien?" he asked, soothingly.
Damien had heard Pip's footsteps approaching and had hunched
himself up tighter, pressing his face into his arms as he didn't
want Pip to see him crying.. Pip paused briefly before kneeling down
at face-to-face level with Damien. He placed his hands onto his
arms.
"Damien. I don't mind if you like me… like that."
Pip said truthfully. "And to be honest… I'm probably gay,
myself. I've never liked any girls.." Pip said. He was just
digging a bigger hole for himself now, but everything he was saying
was true. Damien stayed silent, and kept his face hidden from Pip. He
automatically dismissed the idea that there was possibly a chance for
the two of them..
"Pip.. I'm really sorry." Damien sniffed,
quietly. Pip shuffled closer to Damien - close enough so he could
wrap his arms around Damien's shoulders to give him a tight, wet
hug.
"Damien you idiot. Do you really think I'm going to
stop being your friend just because you've said that?" Pip
smiled. Damien hugged back, not even caring if he got wet in the
process. He rested his head on Pip's shoulder…
"I don't
know. It was just the reaction you gave me." Damien mumbled into
the fabric of Pip's clothes. "I felt like I'd well and truly
fucked things up…"
"Then I'm the one who should be sorry…
not you. It was just a little… surprising." Pip said, quietly.
"You know.. I thought you would be into all the slutty girls around
school. The gothic ones who watch you down corridors. It wouldn't
be hard for you to get laid.. I'm sure." Pip said, smirking
slightly into Damien's shoulder. He had seen all the attractive
Goths and emos in school looking Damien up and down, licking their
lips and whistling.
"Yeah, well when you have a reputation like
I have, people tend to be… interested." Damien said, breaking
away from Pip to dry his eyes. "Fucking allergies." he muttered
as a lame excuse.
"Yeah. I think I should wear clothes your not
allergic to." He smiled, knowing Damien had really been crying. Pip
wondered if he felt the same way for Damien.. That would explain the
dreams a lot… and the funny feeling in his stomach that he
experienced after seeing him for a long time.
Damien nodded,
smiling and then stood to crack the tired joints in his back. Pip
sneezed. He was shaking due to being so cold from the icy water.
"Oh.. Sorry about that, by the way." Damien said, biting his
lip. "Your going to have to get dry." he said, ducking under the
leaves and walking to the small brick bridge. On the inside of said
bridge, there was a patch of bricks that has fallen away to give room
for a small ledge in which Damien had stored a jacket from the night
before. Pip blinked.
"A jacket isn't going to stop me getting
Pneumonia.. I need dry clothes." Pip said as he refused the
jacket.
"I know. Put the thing on until we get back to your
house. It'll stop you getting colder." Damien said, throwing the
jacket to Pip; giving him no choice but to put it on.
