Chapter 4

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Looking back down at her small frail form Booth felt his emotions begin to boil over, he could feel the tears welling up in his eyes. He wasn't sure if he was crying for happiness or grief. He felt so guilty over the fact that he had stopped looking for her, but so relived that she was back in his life. Suddenly the alarms on her heart monitor went off and the doctors began to rush around even more. Her heart was beating irregularly, grabbing the paddles they began to try to restart her heart. Booth felt like his world was ending again. Breathing was becoming hard to do and his chest began to burn.

"No… No… Come on Tempe, please don't leave me again." He knew that his tears were running down his face but he didn't care. She couldn't leave him again, not after coming back into his life. He tried approaching her but the nurses pushed him back, one nurse gently grabbed his arm and began leading him out to the waiting room. Realizing what she was doing he started to try to fight her.

"Please Agent Booth, it will just be better if you wait out here okay? I will come out here as soon as we know anything. Alright?" Her eyes were piercing his, she felt bad for him but he was getting in the way. "Just stay out here okay? Please?" he nodded slightly as he gazed into emergency room from which he had just come from. The nurse turned and walked back into the ER leaving a heartbroken Booth with his thoughts of worry and fear. He walked over to a chair but couldn't sit, leaning his back against the wall he slid down until his butt was on the floor. Pulling his knees up he crossed his arms against them and leaned his head down. He had so many emotions running through body he didn't know if he should cry or laugh. So he just let go and began to sob uncontrollably. The thought of her showing back up in his life just to leave him again would ruin him for good.

The sound of heels across the linoleum floor made Booth look up, seeing Angela standing over him. He could tell she had been crying but was trying to be strong for him. The entire time Temperance had been gone Angela had been his rock. She had pulled him through when he thought he couldn't live anymore. She kneeled down next to him and placed a hand on his shoulder, gazing into his eyes he could see the happiness and fear that was welling up in him also. Finally she sat down next to him and leaned her head against his shoulder. The next few hours were hell, every minute already felt like hours which made every hour seem like an eternity.

Finally 3 hours later the nurse came out of the emergency room and like she had promised and explained the doctor would be with them shortly. Only moments the doctor approached them with a stern look on his face.

"Agent Booth, Miss. Brennen is in stable condition right now she's in the recovery room from surgery right now. We had to operate because she had some internal bleeding that made her heart beat irregularly. The blood began to pool around her heart. She should pull through just fine, also she had an infection of what appears to be an incision from an cesarean section. How long ago did she give birth?" With that question Booths mind started to race.

"Give birth??" Booth stammered and then starred almost not believing what he was just asked. Shaking his head he said, "I don't have any idea, she's been missing for the past 11 or so months." He tried to play it off that he wasn't counting but he had been. 11 Months 8 Days 19 Hours and 15 Minutes since he had last placed his eyes on her until tonight.

"Okay well my rough estimate was about 8 weeks, being that part of it was partially healed and the other was badly infected. We have her on a regime of antibiotics and anti-inflammatory meds right now. She was also malnourished and dehydrated possibly from breast feeding and not having enough for herself" the doctor explained. "Let the nurses finish with her and then one of you may see her." Smiling he walked away leaving two very confused people.

"Oh my lord Angela, she was pregnant??" he almost yelled the last part as anger and disbelief rose into the pit of his stomach. Angela jumped slightly at his quick reaction, the tears rolling down her cheeks. Looking straight down at the ground she starred for quite sometime. Booth didn't know what to feel, thinking to himself he began to process what the doctor had said. Adding it up his face held the look of shock, 'Am I the father?' he silently thought to himself. That did it, he ran over and wretched over the nearest trash can and threw up. His emotions were so tangled that after he was done he just sat there for awhile feeling the tears welling up again. He could feel Angela over him rubbing his back. Pulling himself back together he stood and started to pace, he needed to see her.

About ten minutes later the nurse finally came out. Looking at Angela he could see what she was saying with her eyes. 'Go to her' is what they said. So quickly he turned and followed the nurse through the doors and down the hallway. The smell of chemicals and stylization assaulted his senses. Finally after turning a corner she walked into a darkened room. He could hear the small steady beat of her heart monitor before he could see her. Pushing back the cloth wall he stepped forward and the sight of her caught his breath. So many wires and tubes were hooked to her. Pulling a chair by her side and looking down at her pale and frail body he could feel in the pit of his stomach the need to pull her into his arms and hold her and just cry. But he knew that he couldn't. Softly he grabbed her hand and pulled it to his face. He breathed in deeply, her smell was intoxicating to him. He kissed her hand and then leaned his forehead down on it. He let his tears slide down his face onto her hand, he had her back and she was alive.

"You should talk to her. Its good for the healing," the nurse softly said. Her smile was soft and reassuring. Finally checking her IV drip and then walking out of the room.

"Temperance, where have you been?" He wanted to say more but was afraid of letting go. Afraid he would loose control and he knew that she would need him strong for her when she woke up. Wiping the tears from his eyes he laid his head down next to her and closed his eyes. Still holding her hand and rubbing small circles on it he drifted into sleep.

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