Sorry its been so long, I've moved and my dad found he had cancer, well now he's in remission so yay!!

Anyways here's the newest installment of Painted on My Heart

Chapter 6

All she could feel was darkness surrounding her; hearing the soft beeping of her heart monitor. The first time she had awoken she had believed that she was dreaming. To be truly home and safe with Booth was a dream come true. But with the sudden realization that Joshua wasn't with her quickly turned it into a nightmare. All she could see was that horrible man holding and cradling her son, laying claim that he was his son that she had bared, not Booths….

She could feel her fingers slightly twitch as she tried to re-gain some of her motor skills. Cracking her eyes open slightly she could only make out shapes that surrounded her. She was definitely still under the effects of the tranquilizer that they had injected her with. Finally focusing her eyes she glanced at the figure that was leaning his head down by her left hand, holding it softly. Swallowing slightly to ease the soreness that was residing there she softly squeezed his hand. She could feel the tightness in her throat coming back with the need to cry. She knew that when she looked into Seely's eyes she would only see Joshua. She missed him so much; she just hoped that he was okay.

"Seely." She could only manage to quietly whisper.

Slowly Booth lifted his head from the bed and looked up into Temperance's eyes. They looked so sad and lost it made him want to cry. Sitting up slightly he tried to smile slightly but he knew that he failed miserably.

"You're still here." Her voice cracked.

Nodding he leaned forward more and started to softly caress her cheek. She turned into his touch and he let his thumb slightly graze her bottom lip. She let out a shudder and looked at him sadly with tears in her eyes.

"I've missed you so much, I never thought I would see you again." He croaked out, as he stood slowly and sat on the edge of her bed taking her right hand in his left while his other hand continued to graze her lower lip with his thumb. He closed his eyes and absorbed the feeling of her warm skin beneath the pads of his fingers. His breath caught in his throat when he felt her softly place her lips on his palm.

He could hear her breathing trying to contain the flow of emotions that were stealing her voice from her. Taking a steadying breath she began. "I truly thought I would never see you again, there were so many things that I had to tell you…. And…. And I never thought I was going to be able to say them to you." She had tears streaming down her face as her voice got caught in her throat. Booth knew that his tears matched hers, he could feel them softly thudding down upon his shirt. He traced her cheek as he gently began to try to wipe them away. To see so much pain and fear in her eyes was killing him.

Moving her eyes away from his she looked down at their linked hands, a sob escaped her throat as she suddenly leaned forward and grasp her arms around his waist and buried her head in the crook of his neck. Booth held just as tightly.

"I never gave up. Never Temperance, I hope you know that. I prayed everyday that I would see you again…. That I would be able to hold you again and tell you everything in my heart." He choked out. He brought his hand up and began smoothing down her hair and he buried his nose in it breathing in the scent of her. Softly rocking back and fourth, he could hear mumbling something into his neck. Only bringing them back from each other slightly he searched out her eyes with his. When he finally caught them he leaned his forehead down onto hers.

Taking a shuddering breath she began to speak again. "He told me that I would never see you again, the night that I came to you…. He said…He said that I was going to die that night. I know that I don't believe in a higher power like you do, but I prayed. I prayed with everything that I had that I would be able to come home to you and everything would be okay. I was so deprived of everything that when he pushed me out of the car I didn't realize where I was for quite sometime until I found myself at your door. Oh Seely I was so scared…." Her breathing was coming quickly, and he began to quietly shush her and push her hair away from her face as strands stuck to her wet tear marks.

"Shhhhh, Its okay Temperance, its all over now. Your home, and I'm never going to let anything happen to you again. Okay?" He looked down into her eyes, and she could see the determination behind those warm chocolate orbs. She could almost see her son looking at her in his eyes, her breath caught once again and she began to cry again. This was tearing Booth up inside; he didn't know what to say to her. He just pulled her head back into the crook of his neck and rubbed his hand up and down her back.

"It's not over Seely, not until we get him back." She said in-between her gasps of air. "I tired to keep him safe, I promise. I didn't know what to do. He thinks that our baby is his Seely. I let him believe it because I knew he wouldn't harm him then." Booth wore a look of aguish and heartbreak at what she said. She could see his expression and thought the worse. "I don't blame you if you hate me for that. It just seemed the only way I could protect him. Please don't hate me, please." She pleaded.

Booth's brow furrowed as he spoke. "Hey, I could never hate you. You did what was best you were protecting him. Thank you Temperance, thank you." He said as he pulled her in for another tight hug. Pulling back he tucked her hair in behind her ear and decided it was time. "Temperance I could never hate you also because I love you more than life itself. I spent 11 months without you and I never want to do that again. I thought I had lost you and I would never be able to say those words to you again. I know it had to be hard on you, to stay strong for our boy, I did hear you right didn't I? We had a boy?" He asked with a twinkle in his eyes.

Smiling softly through her tears she nodded. " His name is Joshua I figured you would like that name and could pick out his middle name for him. He's beautiful Booth, I never thought I could have so much love for another human being as I feel for our son. He's perfect. If I wanted to see you, all I had to do was look into his eyes and I could see you. His eyes gave me strength."

"I'm so proud of you Temperance, and don't worry we will find him. I don't care if he's taken him to some far off country. I'll go through heaven and hell to find our boy, our Joshua. I love you Temperance." Booth looked into her eyes with hesitation, so far he had said it three times overall to her and she had yet to return any emotion for him. He was starting to get worried but didn't want to rush her. She had just been through a very traumatizing experience and the last thing she needed was more stress, especially for a healing body.

Looking deep into his eyes she could see the fear of rejection and resided there, she had never been one to read people. But with him she could see everything in his eyes. She was just to terrified to open up yet. What if something happened to Joshua and Booth blamed her for it. She couldn't open up to that kind of hurt, not yet at least. Not until she held her beautiful baby back in her arm. Which she hoped and even prayed would be soon.

End Chapter 6